Life is not perfect
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Yesterday I came across with my Facebook memories and I've seen the photos of my eldest son. That time I've been working abroad for an domestic helper at Singapore. Mareng Jeanete is the one send this photos because she had a niece in that school and her eldest sister is the one sending it to her. Thanks to them!
His only 5 years old when I've decided to leave him for a while. That's my hardest decision I've make in my life that time. I really don't have choice. We know that when it comes to family we really need to sacrifice everything. It's our responsibility to prepare their future. My ex husband that time don't have an stable job and just depending only to his parents.
I don't want to be in that position always. Although my in-laws is really a good people and they always support us financially. But things must be changed, I'm not a type of a person that can be sustain forever with the inlaws. Even on my parents I don't want also. I felt shy because when I'm having a family the words obligations really remarks on my mind. That we are the one finding a way to sustain our needs especially to our kids.
However I never expect that we can struggled the biggest problem in our family. Being away with them is not easy. Homesick really attacks in every ofw (Overseas Filipino Worker). But the only weapon I have is to be strong and I'll put the 100% trust to our almighty God. Due to temptation we've been separated to my ex husband.
Sometimes making decisions is really hard to decide especially when it comes to our own family. I've been build my family with full of love and respect but all is gone in just a blink. For 7 years of being married with him that time, all my dreams is falling apart. We've been married 2005 and it's 17 years already if we don't be separated. My eldest son now is 17 years old.
Life is not perfect even we build a good foundation to our family but it really depends to a person if you want to be tempted. We're just human being having a mistakes sometimes but we only need is to control. We must think first our family. They are our inspiration. We woke up everyday for them, right? We need to focused with our goals in life. I've learned so much with all my trials in life. Thanks God he never let me into a position to be depressed but maybe it frustrates me a lot for having a broken family.
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September 28,2022
6:39 am
Wednesday
Philippines
The fighter mom,
©Jeansapphire39
Bitaw sis. When everything seems wrong and tempting, we should always think about our families and consider the consequences.