Why am I feeling this?

I don't get sad easily. I am a happy person. I usually find it easy to look on the bright side in every situation. Others even think I'm easy-go-lucky because of my characteristics.

I don't know but I woke up today feeling really down. I don't even know the reason behind it. I just don't feel motivated no matter what I do today.

I tried to begin my usual stuff. Listen to upbeat music. But it doesn't make any difference. I still feel miserable.

I don't like this feeling. I don't appreciate the sensation it gives me. I don't want it and I want it gone.

I sat down my bed trying to figure out what's bothering me. Maybe there's something that I don't admit and my body and heart are letting it go now involuntarily.

I tried and tried but my mind is blank. Together with my unhappiness, my mind thinks of nothing. I couldn't move, I couldn't think. I couldn't see light.

It's dark now. I'm surrounded by the darkness of which I don't know what caused. Is this really possible? Is this really happening? Am I dreaming?

How can I get through with something I don't know? How can I make a move to something that paralyzes me? How can I ask for help if I don't even understand myself?

I slept whole and woke up shattered. I slept happy and woke up sad. I slept composed and woke up destroyed.

*Fiction