Slowly getting better

I think I'm slowly getting better now. Thankfully, I have the support I am getting and love from all the people around me. I feel a lot better now though I'm still on medication.

Being in a situation where you feel anxious is no joke. You may be suicidal. You may start thinking about not fighting and just give up. You may feel like you don't matter at all. Then you think what will happen if you die.Will you have a normal wake? Will you be missed? Will someone be crying? Will your kids be crying? And you visualize your kids crying and it hurts even more. But with a promising support system, people, and medication, you will get better especially when you, yourself, want to fight to get better.

It wasn't an easy journey, still is not, and I want to spread awareness that it is real. When people say they feel depressed, listen to them. Although many people take this lightly and others seem to be just 'overacting', still takes time to listen and let them know that they can be healed and everything can be alright.

You don't have to do it for them, do it for yourself. Be good not for other people but for yourself. Be good because it is the right thing to do. Be one of the reasons they get encouraged to fight. You might save a life.

I was on my most down moment. I was so confused. Everything was chaotic. Everything was frightening. Thankfully I'm slowly gaining faith. Thankfully I'm slowly seeing the glorious of life. Thankfully I'm slowly healing physically too.

It may be embarrassing to expose my weakness, my situation, my illness, but surprisingly, I am not embarrassed at all. Good thing about being anonymous in this platform, I guess. Good thing I have supporters that don't judge.

Hopefully, by next week, the result will be much more better and Incan get back to what was left in my contest. Hopefully, I can gain back my strength in all aspect soon.

I miss giving encouragement. I miss writing. I miss singing and I miss playing with my kids.I miss cooking and cleaning. I miss washing the dishes and doing laundry. I miss the movie nights with my family. Been watching movie alone. I miss beaching. I miss my bed, I miss it's ambiance, it's smell. I miss my pillows. I miss everything and I miss everyone.

I also hope my supporters are still here. My supporters that became my readcash friends. I hope everyone is well, too..