Everytime I close my eyes, I am reminded of your face and recalled the memories we shared together: the laughter, the adventure, and the journey that we had in life. And, suddenly I can feel a hot water flowing down through my cheeks and I believe I am crying again.
Indeed, you are the first person that I thought of when I wake up and the last person that I think of before I sleep; that has been my daily routine even before the day you hurt me so bad. It's just funny that this time, I am asking of "sleep where are you?".
I couldn't sleep, I am afraid to close my teary eyes. I don't want to recall the laughter we've shared because I don't want to remember how you've hurt me, and it pained me enough to make me end up crying instead.
I have so many questions left in here. I wanted to ask if why did you leave me like that and how could you do that to me. But instead of asking, I end up blaming myself, maybe I had shortcomings, maybe you're tired, maybe you forgot the feeling you had for me. If only you told me the reason of why and how maybe, just a mayb, I am hoping that maybe we can work it out.
It's been a while that I couldn't sleep the way I soundly sleep before. Is it because you left me or is it because I cared for you so much that I forgot about caring my own self? I cannot tell. I don't have the answer to my own question.
All I ever wanted for now is to sleep and forget the memories I had with you that makes me ill and help me to cheerish the goo things so I can dream for more and escape this nightmare. I want to rest my heart from the painful memory that you left me. I want to keep the remaining pieces of my heart for myself to be better even without you.
Now, tell me am I not worthy to have my sound sleep? You already leave me and hurdle your own way, so please give me the chance to sleep and shut the memories I had with you that keeps hunting me, so I won't be asking again of "Sleep where are you?".
Aww such a lovely poem hahha. Just close your eyes and think of your past, your happy days.
And slowly you'll feel asleep. When you woke. Wake up your heart too then start M from the word moving on.