September 21, 2022
So mundane and stressful, my life abroad should have been if she isn't her. Over years of living in this foreign house and dealing with my bosses and oldies, I could say that it's too boring. I was grateful to have this grown-up kid at home. If my life was boring, hers was as well, and having no one to talk to that could understand our feelings were often distressing. She's my ventilator; she does the same to me. We shared the same interests, hobbies, and jive, along with the same genre of music. Until then, she became my buddy.
One more year and she'll be leaving this home, just like her older brother did 6 years ago. Her mother wants her to study abroad in England, where her brother is studying. By then, this home will become empty and joyless as she's the only one that can make this home lively and happy. And I will be back dealing with the oldies. Then I will leave as well by 2024. What will happen to this house by then? This would be so empty with just the boring oldies.
Seeing her preparing things for her future studies abroad makes me sad and worried at the same time. I know this lady so much. I am an observer who easily learns the real character of someone I am dealing with each day. And I guess I know her more than her mother. I even know things about her that her mother doesn't know.
The 20th day of this month was the start of her interview with three different UK schools. I was at home and thinking about her. She's a person with a lack of confidence too, like me, and I know she'll feel nervous while facing the interviewer.
Beforehand, we were joking at home and saying possible answers to the questions, but all were irrelevant and were just for fun. I know she just wanted to alleviate her nervousness. At one moment, I asked her, "Are you sure you are ready for your interview?" She then answered that she was, yet she felt nervous. As she said, if she feels nervous, her words seem scattered and the interviewer might not understand her, lol. I just wished her good luck before stepping out of the house to attend the interview.
Her mother then messaged me that there were a lot of interviewees and wished her daughter good luck. I know she can do it because she is smart. She only needs more encouragement.
Another set of interviews will happen tomorrow night. Her mother already told me that if she'll pass any of the interviews, we will have a hotpot. Probably in a fancy restaurant she was talking about recently, lol. When she got home I asked about the interview and she said it was fine. I guess, it was as she doesn't look worried about it. But life abroad and dealing with new people is different. And that's the main thing I worry about her because she isn't into socializing with others. Not even in her class. I hope she'll learn to conquer that fear once she study abroad.
She's not leaving yet, but imagining the day it will happen makes me miss her more. I have never been close to anyone at work, not even to my patients, only to her. Probably because we are both young and shared the same interests and thoughts. I guess we need to spend the rest of the remaining years happily.
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Good luck Colette! You'll sure miss her and she'll miss you po 🥺🥺 hope magakaron pa kayo ng more bonding together 🥰