Thank you for the "Eight Years"

How are you? It's been a long time we didn't see each other. I couldn't deny it. There were times I'm thinking about you. How's your life? How's your work? Where are you now? How many months passed I didn't see you even your pictures. I don't heard anything about you.

Sometimes I tried search your name in Facebook but there wasn't account appeared. I tried search your friends facebook but still nothing. I don't know why am I like this. It's been 2 years now when we broke up. I hope you have a successful life now.

Until now, I have a pictures from my other memory card. I accidentally saw it in a little box in my room then I tried to insert in into my phone. I was so shocked because I saw your pictures. The random photos both of us. The unforgettable trips. I didn't notice my tears flew. I didn't know. I felt, I miss you! I saw the laughters we had each other. You held my hands. You are my photographer on that pictures I have. A different pose captured by yours.

A few minutes, I cried. I couldn't bear it. I don't want to cry but I couldn't hold it. I felt the pain. My heart aching a lot. I'm lying in my bed and looking at the ceiling then thinking about you. Am I crazy? I thought I move on already but why I felt it again.

I couldn't expect after the two years, I would see the pictures again. Everything was flashing back started on that day. Time flies so fast. It's two years now when our hearts broken apart. What happened to me? Why am I like this? I thought I'm okay already but I was wrong. I thought I'm totally fine because it's two years pass already.

I remember the promises we have each other. The words you've given to me during our scintillate dates and memorable travels. The smile you have. The gifts you've given to me. The surprises you have during my birthdays. I cried while remembering those memories we had. The days full of unending smiles and laughter.

I remember when you ran at me. You cried a lot because you're going to work in other place that time. It was the most painful scene. It was our first time we experience long distance relationship. I cried so much that time because I don't want to. It was a great opportunity you receive that's why I don't have a choice but to support you for your future. Now! I thought everything's fine. I thought I will never cry about you but no. I am crazy. It's really hard. I thought I forget about you but everytime I remember you, it's reminisce back.

It's really painful. In just a one day, everything was gone. Everything was change. I thought it was a dream but it was really true but still I chose to be blind because I couldn't accept it. I was speechless through out your actions. I didn't expect it would happen. You never cared me. I was depressed that time. I asked you some help but you were always thinking about yourself. Everyday I've cried. I was so down. I don't know what I'm going to do. I ask a happiness and enjoyment.

I was out of myself that time until I decided one thing. I was the one who decided first that we must end our relationship. The time, I thought you change a lot and I fastly make my decision. I became an emotion less when it comes about you because of the actions what you showed to me. I didn't give myself a time to ask you. It was a selfish. I was totally wrong since I didn't give you a chance to explain yourself, to explain your side. Even you cried in my front, I chose to not listen you. I rejected you. I didn't mind you.

I miss you! I regrets what I did. I hope you are happy now. I hope you achieve your dreams and goals in life. Honestly I want to see you again and asking forgiveness but it's too late now. It's really hurt but I will push myself to forget you. Thank you for the 8 years you make me happy!

This is not real. A fiction only.

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Thank you so much. I hope I give you some worthy time with this article of mine.

God bless everyone. Stay safe always.🙏

-JRamona20 💜