Mom, Dad where are you?
I stood at the corner. I felt nervous. I worried a lot. I wanted to ran but I realized it will worst the situation. I don't know. I wanted to hide but no! It wasn't good. I always checked my watch. The time make me jump to worries.
"Mom, Dad where are you?"
I always said it into my mind. No voice because there were people passing by. I still hope. They said "Yes". They make a promises. I didn't give up. I saw my friends and classmates there. I saw their happy faces with their parents. It makes me more sad. I wanted to cry out loud but I couldn't make it because I was in a public place.
While I was waiting, I decided to walk at the classroom that no one was there. I was really sad. My tears started to drop but I fastly get my small cloth to my tears. I felt heartaches that I couldn't explain. I almost give up on waiting. I decided to call them but no one answered it. I staring at my phone with my dropping tears already.
I felt envy those students with their parents. Mom, dad forget me. They forget their promises. They forget that I have an award in school. I did my best to achieve it because it was for them. It was my gift to them. I want them to be happy and I wanted to be proud but why. No one of them appeared. They totally forget me. They broke their promises. I believe them. I expect a lot from them.
I have a lot of request from them and they were always said "Yes" then still nothing happens. I don't know what could be the reason. Is it because of their work? What about me? They have also a child that keeps waiting with their attention.
Where am I? I felt sad and alone. I heard some voice. I heard someone calling at me. I saw my classmate, she told me that the program will start a few minutes. I lose my hope. It was time already.
My excitement turns into worries and nervous. I sit at the chair. I didn't look at my side because it will hurt me the most that my classmates were so happy with their parents. I didn't want to look at the stage. I couldn't feel it.
I turned back. I was hoping that mom and dad were there but no one. It was really hard when you are in that situation. I felt shyness in my whole self. I felt my classmates were staring at me and having a curiosity why I am alone in that chair.
The program start already. I witnessed how happy my classmates receiving their awards with their parents at the stage. I imagined myself that time that I was at the stage with my parents but it was only happened from my imaginations. It never happened in real life. I don't know when.
When it was my turn, I didn't heard my name because my mind was full of thoughts. I was like out of myself. My classmate tapped my shoulder then I awake it was the time I realized that it was me already but how mom and dad wasn't there. I think my teacher understand me and she was the one who accompanied me at the stage. I felt shy to all the people who attended at the program. I felt it was the biggest embarrassment I have.
Even I received my award, I didn't felt happiness and excitement but full of sadness. I felt shy a lot about what happened to me. After the program I ran at the comfort room and I cry out loud.
"Mom, Dad where are you?"
After I cried. I went home already. I washed my face so they wouldn't noticed me from crying. I fastly get my bag at the classroom and walk straight home.
When I was already there.
"Mom, Dad where are you?"
My parents were not home yet. I walk inside at my room and lying at bed and cried again. I couldn't explain the mix emotions I had. It was like somethin' hit my heart. It was really pointed. I felt the pain. I hope it was just a dream but it didn't. It was real. It happened already.
I get up and get my phone. I saw a lot of post from my classmates during receiving awards. I cried again. I immediately off my phone. I couldn't bear it.
I was really lonely. I felt like a biggest burdens into myself. A flying questions in front of me but I don't know. I didn't understand. Loneliness kills me.
"Mom, Dad where are you?"
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-JRamona20 💜
Aww. One of the many heartbreaking situation some of us have to go through. Even without parents present during graduation and recognition ceremony, still we are valued and loved. Maybe they were just busy, I'm sure they are very proud.