I Was Living in the Ocean of Insecurities

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'Insecurity' , this particular word is a curse itself and enough to make a happy soul sad. This specific word most of the time tries to stop us from loving our own selves and evolve a feeling which makes us feel worse than everyone in every possible way.

We all have some insecurities which are dwelling within ourselves, hiding in your most deepest part of our mild heart. Maybe some people has less insecurities and maybe some people has more insecurities but we can't deny this real fact that we do not own any kind of insecurities .

Sometimes we start to curse ourselves for not fitting in the mold of society, we start to belittle ourselves, we start to think ourselves inferior and many more things.

Deep down, we all want to accept and love ourselves but for the fear of society, for the fear of insecurities which are holding us tightly in their grip like the iron shakles we can't love ourselves, we can't gift ourselves that thing which we want to gift. These are the things which are not allowing us to do what we want to do. These are the things which are not allowing us to speak what we want to speak. These are the things which are not allowing us to listen what we want to listen. These are the things which are not allowing us to feel what we want to feel.

No matter how many times we deny the fact that I have no insecurity about myself but we all know and can feel that we too have some insecurities which we are burying each and every moment, just to show the 'Fake Us' to the world.

In this article, I will be sharing about my most hated insecurity which I used to think too much and embarase myself but now by the mercy and grace of Almighty I had already conquered against my one and only insecurity. Without wasting or taking too much of yours, allow me to write today's topic.

Choosing 'Arts over Science'

As a passionate lover of Science, it was really painful and awful to choose Arts stream over Science , I do not know why I made this decision few years back though I had already the idea that I planted the seed of becoming an Astrophysicist in my heart. I was really good both in science and arts specially in science group since childhood but I gave my best in physics. I was always regretting for making this painful mistake and for this reason almost one year I did not study and give my best but even after this by the grace of Almighty somehow I managed to bring good grades and not only passed all the exams but also topped too. Then I asked myself, ' Why I'm doing this to myself? Why I'm ruining my future? After spending some months in pain and distress, I accept all the situation and started to read sincerely.

I believe everything happens for a good and proper reason. So instead of regretting, we should accept the situation and work hard. One day everything will make sense as you always wanted.

When I started to accept the situation, in an instant just before one month before my final exam I got Typhoid as a gift but that time I was badly crying for my illness and I was living in a Hostel all alone far away from my family and home, we all know that how difficult to live without our family when we need them specialy and badly. My condition started to get worst than before but my parents and little sister gave me lots of inspiration, hope and I gave my 12th final exam with Typhoid. I got 93.2 % that time though I had High expectations when I first saw my results I was really sad and did not eat for whole day then I understood that by starving myself, by crying badly I can not change my results so instead of crying and starving, regretting I should work hard more for my upcoming future.

I'm happy that I did not give up if I did not choose Arts then I could not find what I truely wants. Now I had buried my dream of becoming an Astrophysicist and willing to prepare for Administration Service. I hope I will be able to fulfill at least this dream of mine.

Now I'm painting my life with flying colors without regretting, now I can feel the growth of my invisible wings after loosing my most favorite thing, after living most of time in insecurity.

People will say that you can't achive anything, you can't do anything and if you take arts over Science and Commerce then you're already finished, you already ruined your bright future but you are the only one who knows these are not true, you can do anything at anytime. If you chose Arts then it doesn't mean that you're dumb or you can't understand anything, everyone has their own taste, own choice. We can't interfere in someone's personal choice or dream, we all have the innate right to choose what we want to choose. People are fooling you instead of listening to them try to listen to your small and mild voice which is screaming aloud every single second but you're trying your best to suppress that voice of yours. You're capable of everything, you just need to believe on yourself, on your dreams. I told all the things before and also telling now to myself.

I didn't and do not have any other insecurity except this which never failed to hunt me again and again and again. Why I do not have any other insecurity? To be honest, I do have, I do have many flaws and drawbacks but I did not and am not allowing them to bully my mind and heart but I could not do the same thing with my one and only insecurity that was why I suffered for almost three long years.

If we spend most of our time thinking about our flaws , our fears , our insecurities then we will not have enough time to nurture ourselves, to fulfill our dreams. So try to motivate yourself and lift yourself because no one will do that for you. Believe on yourself, believe on your dreams, believe on Almighty , you will achieve everything you had promised to yourself.

Stop explaining and telling people about yourself, about your dreams, about your aims because your life is yours not theirs so you have the right to live and love your life fully.

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Irene(26.12.21)

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You're right, we should not let those flaws and setbacks stop us from discovering our potentials in life. Always thinking about our insecurities doesn't lead us anywhere. If we wanted to have a brighter future, if we wanted to get the desired life that we want then we just have to overcome those insecurities we have. Believe in ourselves that we can do and surely we will.

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2 years ago

Life is truely unpredictable, we can't tell what will happen to us in future. So if you made any kind of mistakes in your past then it doesn't mean that you already finished your life , you have a long path to walk. We need to understand that our flaws makes us unique and special and can't bind us from achieving our dreams.

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2 years ago

I chose Education over Medical courses that I love, just because I want to enjoy my studies. I don't regret what I chose but there are times that I get emotional when I'm thinking about not pursuing the course that I really want. But, just like you, I didn't take this as negative, it all happened for a reason:)

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2 years ago

I was going through from the same problem then I accepted what I chose and happened to me. Everything happens for a reason, so instead of regretting we need to see those problems as our opportunity. Sorry for late reply, actually I was suffering from poor network connection. I hope you're now satisfied what you chose in your past.

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2 years ago

Each person has their own version and set of insecuirities living in their body. It'll be up to us on how are we going to deal with it. As for me, I didn't choose my course, it wasmy university who choose it for me. It's hard to pursue a course that you didn't like but our state of living left me with no choice hihi.

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2 years ago

Sometimes our Insecurities makes us more stronger person than ever, we have no choice except accepting those things which we can't control. I hope you're doing well now Best of luck to you sis

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2 years ago

Regretting and punishing our selves won't change anything, just embrace the fact and face the tomorrow.

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2 years ago

This is the exact thing we need to understand, by punishing ourselves we can't achive anything but pains and miseries.

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2 years ago

Just be yourself and let others what they think of. Dont let our insecurities exist.

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2 years ago

If we think what will they think about me then we have no time for ourselves. So it is better to avoid all the distraction and do our own work.

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2 years ago

Absolutely correct. Avoid all the toxic people also. Better to stay in a true friends that can appreciates you.

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2 years ago

Sometimes this happens to everyone because at some point in life I feel like I am in the sea of ​​my own safety.

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2 years ago

It is quite normal and happens with each and everyone, that is why we need to accept everything. We are human. Being and doing mistakes is in our blood so we should not give punishment to ourselves for our mistakes.

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2 years ago

You are right, if we spend time more in thinking about our flaws, then we will have no time to appreciate what we are good at.

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2 years ago

That is why we need to accept our past and move on to our upcoming beautiful future. By regretting we can achieve nothing but unnecessary tensions and worries

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2 years ago