I'm Really Learning What It Is To Truly Miss Someone
One night, I just felt the longing. At this moment, I thought about them, my grade 10 classmates. I miss the bond, the atmosphere, and the memories we have shared. I miss how, in just one snap, I became their president. It's not planned, but life is full of surprises. I had no idea that I would adore this section too.
Oh, I remember the first day, but the second day we met, you put a big stone in my bag, my first irritation on the first day. It's the first time that someone has put a stone in my bag, and my baby, my book are in there. That's why I get mad. But do you wonder who put in, well, the one and only my best friend. I miss her. I miss our chikahan moment. Our house is the witness to how we get mad, irritated, and proud to our classmates. I miss that every time we got home from school, we were best friends, of course, she didn't go to her house immediately, and of course we would buy and eat hotcake with kopiko blank. And that's how we end our day.
However, we were unaware of how quickly things changed—from being two to being three to becoming four to becoming six. We used to be the only ones that went for walks after school together, but then we eventually became six. Before, we were the only ones who liked to eat hotcake with coffee; now we are six. I miss them. It's sad that we have different schools and strands now, but I'm happy for them. I'm happy that they stand for what they want. I'm glad to see them improving, especially my best friend who is now the president of their section and our friend who entered and won a journalistic award despite attending a different school and an introvert person. I'm also really proud to our other friend, who can now talk with anyone and establish eye contact.
To my classmates, words are too much to describe the many memorable moments we had. But thank you for sharing your life with me. Thanks for the deep talk we have had. I learned a lot. Even though sometimes you are too mischievous and loud, now I miss it. I miss going to birthday celebrations with my classmates and exploring and going to many places together. Lasty, the corny jokes and our raucous laughter as if there were no tomorrow. I miss them so much.
I wonder right now what will happen to us in 10 years. I am excited to see them improve and mature. I am excited to congratulate them on their achievement. Talk as if our all experience when we are grade 10 are become a joke. So this is how to miss someone.... Hmmm........
What The Things Facts About Me?
***I would rather not smell the smoke from cigarettes.***
Since I was a child, I really don't like that. Then every time someone smokes where I go or pass by, I make a gesture as if I'm removing the smoke from my face, so sometimes others tell me “Ang arte mo”, yup! Maarte talaga ako especially with my health.
***I limit myself from drinking soft drinks***
I think I started doing this when I was in grade 6 or 5, sabi sa inyo maarte ako especially with my health. Maybe because when I was a child, my parents didn't pay much attention to me or us because of our family issues before, so I really imprinted in my mind that “if no one will stop you, if you know it's wrong, stop it, don't wait to be reprimanded” That's why I'm strict to myself.
Before I drank so many soft drinks as in every day, the results were that I had a UTI, that time I realized that this is harming my health, so I made my mind I will limit myself to drink soft drinks. Apart from the fact that I realized that drinking soft drinks almost every day is bad for my health, now I appreciate more that I limit myself to soft drinks and I have gotten used to not drinking soft drinks because furthermore, they are expensive if I often drink, masakit sa bulsa. 1-3 times in a month if I drink soft drinks, or sporadically I don't drink that in a month.
***I feel uncomfortable when someone insults someone in front of me.***
I just thought about what that person would feel when he was being talked to behind his/her back, that hurts, and I don't want everyone can feel that. Especially with girls, I don't want when people talk, especially girls who mention a woman's insecurities, it just lowers her self-esteem, so I would rather not do that. I know the feeling of losing self-esteem, so I don't want others to feel it.
I don't know if my friends notice this, but when they are talking about someone, and then they say something you know, it's either I'll shut up or I'll change the topic immediately as far as I can, but normally, I just quite like what I said I'm not matopic person. In my family when they say hurtful words to others, I said to you when my parents red flag I really say it to them, like I always said to them, "Ang judgement mo/ninyo”.
I know that I'm not perfect, I'm also insult people that I don't realize, but when I realized that I shouldn't say that, I'm keeping quiet, even though I want to say a lot, however, I don't want to hurt others, I prefer to just keep it to myself or remove the hurtful words from myself rather than hurting others even if he doesn't know what I'm saying, I still feel guilty.
I also like to insult in my close not their back but in front of them, but I don't really like insults that make them feel the pain, it's just a joke and just to piss them off, you know life is boring when we don't piss off our friends or those close to us, but I know there are still other parts there that may hurt them. But talking about them behind their back I would never do that, for me if I'm your friend I'll accept you for who you are, if I don't like something about you, I'll tell to YOU.
**Thanks be to God for another article I did today**
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
It Was Just A Novel, But...
*My heart hurts tonight, I told myself that it would only hurt me, but I still continued, It hurts. It feels like something heavy has been placed on mt heart. That's how I feel right now, my eyes are full of tears*.
Good evening guys! I just finished re-reading the novel I ***love you since 1892 by Binibining Mia***, I started reading it last Thursday. On Thursday, while I was watching ***Maria Clara and Ibarra's*** show on GMA, *it was about Klay, a Gen Z who ended up in a novel made by Dr. Jose Rizal called Noli Me Tangere.* Taas taas kamay sa nanonood nito WHAHAHAHA.
While watching this, I suddenly missed ***ILYS1892***, *the story where Carmela returned to 1891, and ended up in the body of Carmelita, her great-great-grandmother. She went there to prevent an event, that is Juanito's death on Carmelita and Juanito's wedding day.* So even though it hurts me to read it again, I still read it. I thought after 2 years I'm ready to read this story again, but I'm still not, it can still make me cry. I thought I was prepared for this story, but the truth is I'm not.
I came back when I read it for the first time, I was traumatized that because of that, I'm afraid to read binibining mia's works. Not only that, but I cried, and I literally lost my appetite just because of the story, it's just a novel but the impact on me is great. The impact on my heart, it causes to so much pain. I really don't like this kind of thing, I don't like being attached to the story, especially a tragic story.
Why self? You know you're going to get hurt, but you still read it. Oh, now you're crying, I'm crying. I'm emotional, especially when the story is about family, like family problems. I get really hurt when it's about family matters, I cry easily, like right now, I remember again the story and my tears start to falling down again. *Ok lang yan atleast di sa maling tao umiiyak, charot.*
***And again, another night, another sad night...***
***It just a novel but the emotions give it to me is too much...***
**Thanks be to God for another article I did today**
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
Me Vs. Me
In the dark pathway, narrow and with a strange smell, I'm walking alone. When I found a door, there is something in me want to open this door. I open the door and to my surprise I saw myself hanging and bloody, I'm scrambling and scared. I immediately run to the door, but it suddenly closed.
*I couldn't get out! It was dark and scary. Oh! I'm scared, please someone help me. I'm start having a panic attack!*
Everything went dark and I immediately wake up. Nightmares, nightmares again.
***But it's not all over there***
When someone spoke, that makes me more feel uncomfortable and panic.
“AHH! STOP!! PLEASE STOP!” I shout, I please someone help me to get out this shit.
“Beryl, listen! Hear me! Your life is a mistake you should not have lived and formed in this world, you will only suffer if you continue! Everyone doesn't like you, you're embarrassed you won't win at all. They don't even need you! You are weak, unable to fight. Do you think your life will be better if you continue?
No, it won't! Everything will just be miserable to you. You just make your life hard. There's nothing you can do in the world because you're a weak woman who doesn't know how to reason with others, so why do you continue if you're just going to fall, and everything, just end your life Beryl!! End this shit right now! ” said the person, which was the same as my voice.
“No, I won't listen to you, just let me go !!” I shouted as I covered my ears with both hands.
"Stop! Stop me!!” I shouted.
Until little by little I got used to the words I was going to hear, I was numb, I couldn't feel anything.
My tears slowly falling to my pillow, another sad, and dark night for me.
*Why is it necessary until the time I rest to be reminded of the painful thing? Yes, I accept it! But is that enough of a reason for me to disappear from the world? So that I can rest from everything? Is this really the only solution? Am I really up to this point? Should I just allow it? Why did I even myself betrayed me?*
*I do not want! I don't want to be like this! Please oh Lord help me, you're the only one who can help me, give me strength and I will do everything to be ok. Just be with me. I don't want what they want to happen but what I want, I won't let the world will be the rule in my life but me.*
I slept with what I was holding on to, I slept with the hope that my mind would change, that I would be able to cope with sadness, pain and resentment in this world.
I fell asleep with tears in my eyes, the voices seemed like music I was listening to until I fell asleep again
The next day I went to the hospital where I would see a psychiatrist.
“Ms. Beryl, have you been experiencing this for a long time?” doctor's promise.
“It's been a long time, but I just now went to the doctor.” my answer.
“Based on the result, you are having hallucinations as well as your trauma, the words you have heard in past events come back!” said the doctor.
“I often hear a voice like me, he says what people say to me, from my parents, my siblings, my friends and all.” I said.
“Trauma dominates your mind, hurtful words that you keep hiding in your heart and mind, and the results is hallucinations. Ms. Beryl, you just need to forget the past and build beautiful memories and activities. Make positive things that are negative for you, have the courage to speak up for your rights. Learn to fight. ” doctor's promise.
After a month of therapy, here I am today.
***Learning how to fight, I learned how I should make things positiver than take it negative. Like what others says we can't please everyone so do what makes you happy, do the things that you think is right and make you feel better.***
***Don't be afraid to tell what you feel!***
***Leave the past and make a present!***
***Be strong in every battle, you can win it.***
***Me against myself is hard, having mental disorder is difficult, but you can cope up to that.***
***Be Positive!***
***FIGHTING!***
Little Time
"Hoy! Tulala ka?" Sabi ng babaeng umupo gilid ko.
"I just remembered my first love." sagot ko habang nakatingin sa tubig ng ilog.
"Pwede mo bang sabihin paano kayo nag kakilala?" Tanong nito sa akin na nakangiti.
Ngumiti ako pabalik sa kaniya at Saka muling tumingin sa kawalan at unti unting nagbalik sa nakaraan.
"*Bagong* *lipat ako ng school at napunta ako sa section nila, siya ang class president doon. Sa unang pagpasok ko, siya ang unang bumungad sa akin. Hindi ko makakalimutan yung ngiti at masaya niyang boses noong una namin pagkikita. Kung gaano siya kasaya noong malaman niyang may bagong student ang nadagdag sa section nila. Love at the first sight. Lubos kong hinangaan Aang pagiging confident, masayahin at ang kagandahan niya, ang mga matang nakakahawa ang kasiyahan . Kaya di nagtagal, I court her, ginawa ko ang lahat para mapasagot siya.*
*Lahat ng iyon ay naging worth it dahil bago kami groudate ng High School ay naging kami. Ang saya ng relation namin, sabi nga ng iba ay almost perfect na daw amg relationship Namin. Naging smooth ang lahat sa relationship namin puro kilig, saya at may konting tampuhan na nagkabati rin naman agad.*
*Nagtagal ang relationship namin hanggang nag college kami, Engineer* ako, siya naman ay accountant. *Naging busy ako noong college, na pressure ako sa pag aaral ko. Na sa sobrang busy at abala ko sa pag aaral ay napabayaan ko hung relasyon namin. Doon ko naramdaman na parang na out of love na ako sa kaniya, na napagod na ako sa kaniya. Kasi masyado siyang makulit, lagi siyang tumatawag, pumupunta sa bahay, nag aaaya mag date at yung pakikipag away niya sa akin dahil sa hindi na niya ramdam yung love, na important siya. Kaya hinayaan ko siya, naging cold ako sa kaniya. Pinaramdam ko sa kaniya kung gaano na ako kaoahod sa relasyon namin. At Ang gago ko para gawin yun"*
"Ano nangyari?"
"*She died, one day nalaman na lang namin na nagpakamatay siya. Noong mga panahong napagod at na out of love ako siya namang break down niya sa lahat sa family, friends at sa pag aaral, lumaban siya eh. Kaso ako itong tangang na inaakala ko na ako lang yung napapagod at stress sa aming dalawa dahil sa tuwing nakikita ko siya ay nakangiti siya na parang wala siyang malaking problem na iniinda, na sa likod ng mga nguti niya ang lungkot, sakit, at pagod ng puso. Konting oras lang, konting oras lang naman yung hiningi niya sa akin eh, na sa konting oras na iyon , magiging dahilan niya para lumaban, para kayanin. Pero ako itong gago sinayang ang mga oras na iyon. Sana sinagot ko yung mga tawag at messege niya sa akin, sana nagkaroon ako ng oras sa kaniya, hindi sana ito mangyayari.* "
"*Sorry sorry noong kailangang kailngan mo ako, sorry kung na out of love ako, ssorry kungg napagod ako."*
***Pag hingi ko ng tawad sa babaeng kaharap ko ngayon ang aking first love.***
"*Its ok love, hindi mo kasalanan, paawalan mo na angg sarili mo, wag mong sisihin ang sarili mo. Ipagpatawad mo kung naging mahina ako*"
" No, Love, hindi ka mahina you're the bravest person I know,sorry kung kung sarili ko lang ang inisip ko. Please love wag mo akong iiwan."
"Please don't be weak like me love, you can handle life without me. I know you can do it, just free your self, I love you"
Kasabay ng mga salitang iyon ay ang paglaho niya sa harap ko at pagdilim ng paligid.
Panaginip, Isang panaginip na ayoko na magising bakit ba nagising pa ako?
Unti unting tumulo ang aking mga luha, Hanggang sa aking panaginip n lang tlaga makikita siya.
"I love you" bulong ko sa hangin.
Pahikbi at patuloy ng pagpatak ng luha, *ang sakit.*
***I promise my love, I will be strong, I can do it, I will make our dreams come true even if you are not by my side. I hope you forgive me for everything I did, for neglecting you. I deeply regret it. You are my first love and my greatest love.......***
Coming Back Home at November
In the few weeks that I'm not here, I miss the feeling of being here, I miss the feeling while I'm writing, and I miss the feeling when I'm interacting with all of you.
These few weeks I feel like I lost the purpose to write, and I don't know where I should start again. I ran out of words to say, I lost interest to think topic. Hasyt, School is the biggest hadlang for me. I think this is the reason I feel like I'm tired, like I would rather not do anything as much as I do before. Reports, activities, homework, project, and performance tasks at the same time and the most I hate is that I'm always be the leader in the groupings.
I've exhausted thinking about the concept in different groupings, so when it comes to writing I can't say anything. I also use a lot of energy because it's not the concept need to be thought of, but also how to manage my classmates, hasyt, I'm not into a leader because of my patience.
***Furthermore, I'm lost again,*** this is what I fear is happening to me now, I'm losing the will to wake up every day. But what can be done if I give up, nothing, right? Even if it's hard, even if it's tiring, I only know one thing: I will live, and I will fight until the Lord wills.
***So at the beginning of November***, at the beginning of the 2nd quarter, I will start again to give color and vitality to the days that pass by. I want to do what I used to do again, the fun even if it's hard, the light that I feel, and It's not always me angry.
I'm going to start writing again as much as I want, as much as I can. Likewise, I need to release my feelings, I need to say what I feel to feel better. These few days I've been hiding my feelings, so maybe I'm feeling heavy, so perhaps why I'm like this. I forgot that I have this site to release the weight that I feel that sometimes I don't even know where it came from
I'm going to start looking for my purpose in life again because it's gone. No, He's not gone, He's here, I can feel it, but I'm the only one who turning away because of my Indefinable feelings. However, I want to avoid running away from what I have to face.
***Today, I'm coming back to myself! I'm coming back to my sense, to my lights!***
The first day of November give me the signal to coming back to my home, to myself, and here. May all of us give this month a new hope and improves our self. May God be with us and give us a strength to every pain that we will experience.
***Thanks be to God for another article I did today!***
***Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That***
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
Crying Is A Way Of Letting Things Go Sometimes
I feel heavy
I don't know if I can handle it
That with every breath my heart gets tighter.
Memories are slowly coming back
The things that happened in the past time I see little by little in my mind.
I don't want to go back to that, but it's annoying
Why do I have to think about it again?
It's like everything that happened a while ago was nothing to me.
It seems like a while ago I couldn't even cry, but why now?
Why did everything that happened I just now fully understand?
***My once brave self is disappearing***
***I can't feel anything anymore***
***I don't understand myself anymore***
Everything is messed up
I don't understand my feelings anymore
Am I hurt?
Did I feel sorry for myself?
Anger?
Or that's all I feel?
***I do not know***
But I only know one thing
There is only one solution to what I am feeling right now
****CRY****
It was one night that passed, One night my eyes were wet.
My eyes were wet with tears.
I will cry all the emotions I feel.
That way I can release The pain, sorrow, and anger that wants to escape from my heart.
I don't want to hide it And put it aside.
At the same time, I don't want to hurt and sympathize with my feelings.
So I just cried and let it all out
Crying is really effective to relieve everything that happened.
I will cry when it's over and the result will be a new me.
Cry that will be a reason to lighten up and let go of the things that happened.
***So You! Don't be afraid to cry, don't stop yourself from crying if you can't because it will only make it harder. Bring out in tears all the inexplicable feelings and pain that can no longer be contained. It's not bad to cry, because it makes us feel better. It's not bad to cry If you can't stop it, Sometimes when we cry we can let go easily the bad things.***
**Thanks be to God for another article I did today**
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
It's Been A Month Since I Started Again In noise.cash
***GOOD DAY PEOPLE!!!*** It's been a month since I start again in noise.cash, others think I am newbie in noise.cash but no WHAHAHAHA I've been there for a long time since Feb 2021, that's a long time, until now I still cannot believe that I can stay in noise.cash for a long time, if you know me I'm not that person who wants to talk or post about my life. Since noise.cash started having a new updates, that's the time lulubog lilitaw na lang ako. I lost the will to post when there's so many updates because I was confused by the new rules. When I start enter being user of read.cash, I start to be active again in noise.cash,sadly hindi na ako binibisita ni noise.cash, I'm sad of course, my income there is what I used to load myself.
***If you wonder what my old account is, I'm Hhearty24***
It's been almost a year since I discovered noise.cash and I've been using this account for a year. I also have 782 subscribes here, this is what I feel sad to let this go. I'm afraid to start with noise.cash again because maybe no one will pay attention to me WHAHAHAHA. I share a lot of nonsense, rants and stupidity on this account. I feel bad to let go of this account since I've been using it for a long time.
***I thought about creating a new account***
***For the first reason****, after a few months of being active,* ***I still didn't receive free tips*** *from noise.cash, my income decreased more with noise.cash then and I was also ashamed of other users that I didn't reciprocate what they gave and when I wanted to support someone I posted I couldn't because I didn't have money or free tips. It makes me lose the desire to post because when noise.cash ignores me, which he used to do it before, it hurts.*
*Second,* ***I also want to change my username*** *to be the same as my username here. The username '****Hhearty24****' I used my real name, I don't want to use it anymore. I prefer to use my username here '****Herzy****'. Where did I get my username here at read.cash? well that's another language of my real name '****Herz****' means* ***Heart****, then I just added a '****y'*** *because I just want it.*
*The only thing I fear is that I might just be banned from noise.cash if I create a new account again, but because I like to take risks, I don't want what ifs eat me, there are only two things that will happen, I won't be banned or I'll be banned, and any of 2 happen my only choice is to stop or continue. So I made decision to create new acct.*
**A month of using noise.cash again as '*****Herzy*****'** https://noise.cash/u/Herzy
*https://noise.cash/u/Herzy*
It's been a month, a lot of people welcomed me to noise.cash since it's new, WHAHAHAHA I feel like I'm a newbie on that platform. I did not expect that in your first month there, I will immediately have 51 subscribers and someone will notice me there WHAHAHAHA. I'm happy that on my first day again, noise.cash noticed me right away, I didn't lose my smile the whole day.
*Hey noise.cash thank you! Thank you because you gave me hope to earn from you. Thank you because you and read.cash are the only social media acct I have left. And because of you, I'm never bored without socmeds. Because of you, I have made new friends and there are people who sympathize with me when I am going through something. When I gave up using FB, all I can say is that I became more positive in the world because of the positive posts of users.*
*****Here I am again, I will start from where I started*****.
**Thanks be to God for another article I did today**
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
1 Month Old Baby Janus!
Good day People!!! Here again, little by little, I can hear the water dripping on our roof, it's rainy season! It's time for storms to enter. Do you feel it? It's just cold to us or is he cold to you too? Charot.
*That photo was taken from my brother, he just sent it to me earlier, it's sad I wasn't there*.
It's been a month since my nephew lived in this world, **article**. https://read.cash/@Herzy/welcome-to-the-world-my-nephew-99891b51
Time flies WHAHAHAHA, next time I'll hear "***Tita ,Tita ,enge Lima***" WHAHAHAH I used to do that when I was young. When it was a baby, it was nice to take care of it, but when I grew up, it would become a sakit ng ulo, charot.
He's really small, so I'm really afraid to carry him, so since he was born, I haven't been able to carry him, because he's so small, it's scary me to carry him. Especially since I'm clumsy person and I'm not really used to carrying a child since I don't really like children. I'll just carry him up if he has grown up. Sometimes it's weird to look at his clothes on him because the clothes are big on him.
*Sometimes my brother is annoyed to us because his son's name is Janus but sometimes we call him Junas, because we are piss off my mom because she posted in her FB when Janus was born and then the name she put is Junas. His name is manly and then mom made it girly WHAHAHAHA. Then mom's friends thought Junas was Janus' name. I don't know why she is confused by Janus's name, she always says Junas.*
Since we moved here, that I share to you guys before July end, **article**. https://read.cash/@Herzy/3rd-time-moving-this-year-734e6aac
The baby is here almost every day. I don't have any complaints about that because I prefer it because it relieves mom's stress from our financial problems. I don't really like children but I'm also happy that he's here. Only now he is not here with us because it is raining,It's just a shame that we couldn't go to kuya's house because of the annoying rain.
**He is already drink milk from a bottle**
He is only one month old but he is already drink milk from a bottle. My kuya said his wife is too lazy to let the baby drink at night sometimes and she always drinks cold water and the child ends up coughing, so they decided they just makes him drink from the bottle. That would definitely be difficult for them, It would be too expensive. Since he has been drinking from the bottle, he has gained a little weight unlike before.
*Baby, your aunty will give you a present at 1 year old na ha, I don't have money yet hehe. One year is still a long time, but I'm already worried about what I'm going to give him in his one year, so I can prepare, right? Hmm, what should I give Him as a present?*
**Thanks be to God for another article I did today**
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!*****!
—*Herzy*—
The Beginning to Whatever I Want
***GOOD EVERYONE!!! HAPPY FIRST DAY OF AUGUST PEOPLE AROUND THE READ.CASH WORLD!!!*** How was your journey in July? Messy? Up side down? Happy? Is it fast? Is it slow? Sad? Exciting? Roller coaster? What was your journey in July, if it was happy, I'm happy to know that, I hope that we all have a happy July, however I know that life is not always happy. If you were sad, I hope this August will be more joy than the sadness and depression you felt in July.
*A million thanks to God for another month that has passed in our lives and another month He give to us that allow us to have a chance to do what we need to dk. May the Lord be with Us always.*
*****It feels so good to do what you want to do and this is the beginning again to whatever I want to do*****.
***BUY SCHOOL SUPPLIES***
Since it's already f2f again next s.y. we have to buy school supplies again, I'm excited to buy, I miss buying school supplies like before! I haven't made my list of what to buy yet, I'll think about it tomorrow because after I write here, I still have to fix my room or else I won't be able to sleep.
***ADVANCE READING***
I want to do advance reading, I did advance reading in July but I want to focus more on advance reading this month, the funny thing is I didn't do advance reading to be an honor this year but I just wanted to change my daily routine. And so that I don't look like a fool in the room, we all know that there is no google in f2f WHAHAHAHA, so even if I don't listen fully to my teacher I can easily understand our lesson if I'll do advance reading.
***TREAT MY SELF BEFORE THE SCHOOL YEAR STARTS***
I'm already thinking of a treat for myself which is before s.y. start I'll buy milk tea, I'll go to the supermarket to buy junk foods, I'll buy a Tang Daladan because I like it more than soft drinks, then I'll watch Netflix series all day. I really have a plan watching Netflix series with my friends but one of our friend is not here, I don't know if it will continue but if my friend still game to my plan for sure it will be fun even if it's just the two of us but if not I will just keep going by myself. But I really hope she still game.
***LEARN GO UP BY SB19 DANCE***
WHAHAHAHA the feeling that even though I don't know how to dance I'm determined to learn Go Up dance, maybe one of the reasons why I want to learn it is because I miss the Go Up era WHAHAHAHA. I practiced it in July but I didn't pay much attention. I wasn't in the chorus of the song yet, then WHAHAHAHA gags I danced like a fool but it's ok. As long as I know the step it's ok, WHAHAHAHA. I have accepted that I'm not really good at dancing, but I want to know how to dance.
It's nice to live in a world where we can do what we want to do. This is the beginning that I will focus more on my self improvement. So WHAHAHAHAHA I deactivated my socmeds and because I need my messenger I can't deactivate it so I restricted all my friends who can chat with me, even you! Sana mabasa mo ito re hehe, tampo pa rin Ako charot! I hope na wala kang chat sa akin hehe, alam ko namang wala kang chat sa akin assuming lang ako charot!
Inuna ko Muna dymaldal Dito before cleaning my room, if you don't know we just moved to our new home, actually this is the third time we've moved house, so here I am cleaning up. I'm late for cleaning because we just finished cleaning the house. I last cleaned my room so I have no choice. Even though I'm tired, I have to clean my room because I have nowhere to sleep. https://read.cash/@Herzy/3rd-times-moving-this-year-734e6aac
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Yes! I finished it!
Good day people!!! Another article that will give me the opportunity to ask you, how are you? What is happening in your life? Did you have a good day? I hope you are doing well!
*I can't imagine that I can finish our laundry!*
I just finished washing our clothes, I was the only one who did the laundry because mama had just recovered from her fever, it was not supposed to be in the plan to do laundry today because mama just got better, however, we have no more clothes to wear, so no choice, we have to do laundry. I don't want mom to relapse , that's why I made a decision and I represent my self that I will be the only one to do the laundry, even though I don't know if I can handle washing our clothes.
I just keep in my mind that, ***if my mama gets sick again, it will be more difficult for us.***
It's really hard when you are the only daughter in the family, I have no one to help with the housework if mom is not available, anyway, Let's look at the positive. I don't want drama today hehe.
**I'm so proud to myself today**! for someone as lazy as I am, it's amazing that I was able to finish our laundry without mom's help. Weird right? It is not normal for a child who has finished a lot of laundry to feel happy, because first you will feel tiredness than happy.
But I'm really happy today,I am happy that I got another achievement today. This is the first time I've done laundry that I'm the only one to do that, because usually mom and I do the laundry and then I get tired easily, but now I don't feel the tiredness so much.
It's really worth it to exercise even if it's only 3 times a week, I won't get tired as quickly as before. Look, I still have time to have fun and be happy that I finished what I had to do.
***But of course I will never forget to thank Him.***
*A million thanks to God because He gave me enough strength to finish what I did today and I can let my mom rest for today*.
I want to reward myself, What I want to reward myself is that tomorrow I will just lie in my bed all day, charot, it's not possible,I can't do that I have a plan tomorrow and that requires my body to move. That's why I hope it won't reflect tomorrow what I did today, I hope my body won't hurt tomorrow. I also hope I don't get sick because I got a little wet from the rain while doing laundry.
So that's just a little rest, and it's time to hang clothes. After hanging up, I'm sure I'll fell on the bed and sleep immediately. I will really admire myself if after the work I did today I still have the strength to stay up, tsk,tsk.
**Thanks be to God for another article I did today**
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You Are Important!!!
Tonight I don’t want to sleep without telling this to you,
***You Are Important!***
***You*** Are Worth It!
I hope everyday you always realize your worth as you are, that you are not “*eto lang*” you are too much for that. Even in times, when you don’t even feel it because of the people around you, you are important. It's not as much as what you see and know but many people appreciate you.Many people admire you, your mindset, your abilities and as you.
*So don't down yourself. Don’t be afraid to live as you, it’s worth it to live as yourself.*
***Don't give up and don't lose hope. Even if it is hard, don't stop to live, to breathe.Rest if you need it but you will not give up, ok? Desisyon ako, kaya don't ever ever give up.***
Don’t be afraid to take chances and step into your dream just because of the ability you think or they think “*iyan lang*”, hindi "*lang*" ang kakayahan mo, trust that you can.
And most of all, you must never forget,
***You are important to God!***
The first Father who loved you so much. Even sometimes you can't help but doubt His love for you, but if you trust everything and love Him with all your heart, remember that everything works for the good of those who love God.
He will never and ever allow us to experience hardships and problems that we cannot tolerate,fight, and find the solution.
***So if you think you can't, NO! YOU CAN!***
Just don't forget to rest, sometimes that's what's missing, we forget to rest so we think we can't do it anymore. You’re human, you can feel tired too, you deserve to breathe at times when you don’t feel your value in life.
As I said you are important to God, so don't forget that He is waiting for you, He is waiting for you to call Him. He is waiting for you to ask and entrust everything to Him, even though He knows your requests before you ask, He still waiting for you to call his name every hour, day goes by. It is okay to cry, especially in front of our Father, our God. You are free to cry as long as you don't forget that with every tear you shed there is hope in your heart.
Good Evening! Good Day! It's really hard to have a new life, there so many things that I need to change on my self, so I can't really focus here. I'm so busy in my real life. So how are you? What's up? I'm not really good when it comes to greetings WHAHAHAHA.
This article is so funny for me, I really have no intention of writing an article but because I was stunned in my room, I was locked up in my room earlier because there was a visitor in our house, introvert thing hehe. While I was stunned, out of nowhere I held a pen and paper, wrote of what entered in my mind and there I wrote an article.
Also about the lead image, if you will ask me what that writing system is, it is called ***Baybayin***, the ancient writing system of the Filipinos. *I missed writing Baybayin!*
Before I end this article I want to say, ***Thank you to my sponsor!***
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My Last Report Card as Grade 9 Student
***Good Day People!!!*** How are you? How's your day? What the things you do today? I have a lot of questions but I will cut it into three questions as if you can answer my questions.
I was annoyed this morning. Who wouldn't be annoyed at 12 am I fell asleep last night then I woke up at 3am. You know why I woke up at 3am? Our neighbor alarmed his cp, when his phone alarmed I could hear it, I could hear it because only wood divides our house and their house, which I guess his phone was close to me because when I touched the wall, I felt the vibrate from his phone on the wall. And last night our neighbor was drunk as expected, he didn't wake up to his alarm. Who wouldn't be annoyed, if it took 2 hours for stop his phone to alarm. Ending I also did not sleep for 2 hrs.
***Even though my morning had a bad start, it suddenly disappeared***
Fortunately, I woke up at 10 am, I almost forgot that today we need to get our report card. I'm not nervous about my grades anymore hehe, because we have advance recognition before the report card is taken.
My smile was really awkward there, because when I did the pictorial I'm with my former classmates and they made me laugh.
***I want to share to you guys not my honor but His honor, my Father, the Lord God.***
When I passed the module I was so nervous because honestly I wasn't complete in my activities. But when I passed, the funny thing was that at the same time as I passed my activities, my teacher told me that I was with honor and we had a pictorial.
Then I thought
*"Huh? I just passed my activities today but I'm with honor right away? What is happening?"*
*"Does that mean my grades are already done?"*
If yes, I already blamed myself for doing my activities because my grades were already done even though my subject teachers hadn't seen my activity yet, just kidding. Of course it's my pressure to still do those because activities makes my lazy world live WHAHAAHHAHHAHHA.
I'm really shocked by my grade in english, like one of my weakness is english or should I say when it's comes to languange I am weak, so even filipino sub. is also my weakness , I don't know how should I react for this, I don't deserve this grade, especially when I remember I did not do the Integraative asssessement, which is very important because it serves as the test every quarter. I also don't expect that grade in math, I'm shock our math teacher will give that to me.
Hehehe but actually our math teacher told me that our grade in math was actually done, even though I hadn't passed my answer sheet and he didn't let us take the test.
***This is my first time to have 99 grades. But when I saw it I also saw the pressure to have this grade, pressure that this would be added to the expectations of others.***
But of all the grades I got in the 4th quarter the most satisfying grade I have is the tle subject, don't get me wrong I know all my sub teacher give grade for what we deserve but for me my grade in TLE the most serious computation and deserving grade for me, I'm not really wondered why grade down because I really expected that, because I knew when we're f2f class I was a bit quiet when it came to recitation.
***A MILLION THANK TO GOD***
*Whatever honor or achievement I have, I am not really honored because this Honor belongs to the Lord God, He made everything for me. And I always thanks to Him for achievement He always give to me.*
***To everyone who has been with me on my journey as G9 student***
*Mama, papa, my siblings, my auntie, grandma, my teachers, my friends, my classmates and everyone around me I want to thank you, with your help I was able to finish my journey as a grade 9 student.*
Hopefully in my Grade 10 as always my wish is to enjoy, learn something and do my best as a student. Like I said to myself when I started the 9th grade,
*'Even if I only get a line of 8 grades as long as I know I've learned something and that I enjoy the school year, I'm fine for that.'*
I don't accept congrats, I do accept money, here's my BCH address. Thank you!
Just kidding hehe, it's nice to come back here after my busy days as Tita.
But I crying right now because while I write this article I see the light at the edge of my phone which means my screen monitor open a little bit, and it makes me worried what will I do don't have enough money to buy new one, this the sign ba to let go my social media life? If yes, there is a part of me curious if one day I just wake up I don't have phone anymore, I hope that I will not going crazy if that happens WHAHAHAHA.
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—*Herzy*—
Welcome To The World My Nephew!
***Good Day People!!! How's your day?***
***Today in our house was full of joy and happiness, everyone was happy with the arrival of the new angel in our house.*** *****My first nephew who born today.*****
**Everyone is shock last night**
*Yesterday* morning my brother's wife's stomach hurt and they checked up in the morning but the doctor said it was just an inspection. Additional, we really expect that in August she will give birth based on ultrasound.
But that night, my older brother's wife rushed in because she was about to give birth. When I hear that I really excited to see my nephew WHAHAHAHA, at the same time confused.
I can already hear a crying child here at home. The last time we had a baby in our house which is my youngest brother was 11 years ago, and I was only 4 years old that time. After 11 years we have a baby again in our house. Thank be to God the birth of my brother's wife went well.
*****Congrats to my brother and his Wife*****. I don't expect that he's small and so cute. Although I'm not really fond of children but I can't help but to smile when I see him WHAHAHAHA, maybe that's how we really are when we see a baby and the cute we feel warmth.
***I'm happy but I have worries for my nephew***
I'm Worried that the child can't be taken care of properly, my older brother is only 17 y/o and his wife is only 15 or 16 y/o, I'm not sure hehe. We're not close even though we're almost the same age because maybe I'm an introvert so we really don't talk much when she just asks me something I'll talk to her, I really don't know how to talk to her if I don't know what to say to her WHAHAHA.
***TODAY*** is the time to be happy but I can't really help but to worry especially at a young age they will be parents.
*There is no delay in it, all their life they will be parents for now on, there is no stop button if they say they are tired for being parents.* Hopefully even at their age like that, they can raise their son well hehe. Hopefully wag masundan because they will have a harder time if they do that.
***WELCOME TO THE WORLD MY NEPHEW***
*Hmm, now that you are a baby I hope you will be healthy as the days come. As you get older I want to say that the world is chaotic, many unexpected things will happen, there are times when you will experience misfortune but in all that I hope you will be strong and learn to trust in the Lord God.*
***Thank be to God for another article I did***
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—*Herzy*—
My First Blog For This Month, My Life Update
*This is the first day of July, time so flies seems like recently, along with the speed of time the speed of your change.*
*Happy events have been replaced by sad memories.*
*Today is the beginning of July*
*1 is the beginning of the month*
*12am is the beginning of the day*
*The awakening of man is the beginning of the adventure*
*But until now I still don't know where to start and how to start, start to forget you.*
STOP NA ANG KADRAMAHAN KO.
I'm just really tired today and what a kadramahan thing I can think of again.
***First busy day of this month***
Hasyt finally we moved in AGAIN, I told you in my article 5 months ago that we moved in, article and Now we moved in again for the reason that the owner of the house will live there again. This is smaller compared to the house we used to rent before but thank God we won't have to worry about where to move because the owner has to live in our previous rent house. https://read.cash/@Herzy/we-are-moving-house-3ed44943
*Here we go again it's time to clean and organize things*
We just moved last night and this morning I helped my mama to clean and organize our belongings. It's very tiring like bring the things here, bring the things there. Think about where the equipment will be moved. Up to the second floor, down to the first floor. Fing something here, Fing something there, it because papa eh when they moved our belongings they just put somewhere to the durabox, bag and basket our material so mama and I could find the tool for fixing the house.
***Organize my new room again***
WHAHAHAHAHA wherever we move my mom always put space that will be my room, so my two brothers are complaining. My mom said I'm only daughter so I really should have a room.
*Worth it even tedious*
Worth it because even if it's small, the one we just moved in fits our belongings and doesn't get crowded. We arranged well and tonight we will be able to sleep well and wake up well with Our belongings.
***My plan to sleep around 9-10 pm will be ruined for three days.***
But it's okay because it's for God, sleep late for God is better than sleep late just scrolling in my fb newsfeed. I need to sleep late in three days because from now on July 1 to 3 is our International *Thanksgiving of God's People or Special Pasalamat ng Buong Bayan ng Dios (SPBB)* in Tagalog. Today, tonight I will sleep peacefully and happily because I have learned something new again about the words of God.
*Thank God I have to write another article* but I don't know what to title in this post WHAHAHAHA.
Well I really don't know what topic I made for this video char for this blog I just say what I want to say.
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Vacation Time: It's Time to Focus on my Self
Good Day Guys! How are you? Finally I finished my activities and I can rest. I lost almost 2 weeks because I was confused about the activities I should do and I shouldn't do when I join f2f class, so I had to focus for almost 2 weeks to finish the school activities.
And after my hell weeks I'm finally coming to the vacation. I have a lot things to think to do. Am I the only one or do you also have a lot of plans for a vacation, Travel? Learn something? Eat something? Do some activities with friends? Or family? Self improvement? Like that.
My vacation today is I want to focus on myself, Let's admit it's hard to focus on myself during school day, the pressure won't go away. Like when I want to do something to change my lifestyle but I can't do it because I just think about my responsibilities at home and school I don't feel like doing it right away. I lose the purpose and will to change my lifestyle.
To tell you the truth I have a bad lifestyle and that's what I want to get rid to myself. I don't want to come to shs or college. I have a lot of bad habits. Like sleeping late and waking up late, not doing work on time, and many more.
**Things to practice this vacation**
***Sleep around 9-10pm and wake up around 6-7am***
This is the one I neglected to maintain, I no longer have activities to sleep late so I need to get used to going to bed early again, my eyebags is so big because during the whole school year I was always sleep late.
***No coffee***
Just this summer, one day I felt heart palpitations because maybe I had too much coffee so I avoided drinking coffee for a while.
***Exercise Atleast 30 min***s
On June 25, my friends and I played a pinoy game, I missed being a child. So I share that idea to my friends and they agree to be a child for at least one day. While we're playing larong pinoy, I gets tired easily, it's not just me, they're also WHAHAHAHAHA. Then the next day my body hurt, so I was really determined to exercise, I was really lacking in exercise.
***Do household chores***
Hehe Sometimes I'm guilty that I'm lazy to do chores, maybe I'm to much spoiled by my parents so sometimes I don't do housework anymore that later on I’m used to not doing chores. I know it's wrong and I really don't want to be burden to my parents anymore.
***Use phone maximum of 6 hours***
One thing I can't do this day since I need my phone to do activities and have update to school matter. Right now I don't have the reason to use phone except I use phone in read.cash and noise.cash. I really need to stop being addict in phone because my eyes are even more blurred, I haven't bought any new glasses yet. So when I use cp, my eyes hurt because I don't have glasses. And I plan to deactivate my socmeds at the end of this month WHAHAHAHAHA. I will bye bye from now to my friends online.
***Take a bath everyday***
WHAHAHAHAHA I'm guilty, even taking a bath, I'm still lazy. I don't know why it's hard to take a bath when I don't have to do anything and all I have to do is lie down at home. I lose energy to take a bath when I don't have things to do.
***Drink more water***
I lack water in my body, I don't know, even when drink water I always forget to do it. Like when I just eat that's the time I drink water, maybe that's why I don't gain fat eh I'm dehydrated.
***Planning***
I really want to learn how to plan and schedule what I'm going to do for a day because when I don't have a plan for a day when I go home, I'll just lie down all day, especially now that I don't really have anything to do. For not having a plan for a day makes my day is meaningless and not productive.
***Study atleast 1 hour a day***
I also want to become a habit of studying in a day, in 1 month I want to improve my skill of explaining. Based on my meditation on myself I find it's difficult to explain my self. It's hard for me to explain my thoughts, my ideas and my point of view on something.
I know it won't be easy for me to do but I hope the Lord will allow me to do it. I won't do it all right away in one day, but I thought I'd put them step by step first, like to practice have good sleeping habit then next. I also have a bucket of things I can do for this summer. I don't want to just about using my phone the whole summer. On June 25, I made one of my bucket list which is playing the larong pinoy with my friends.
WHAHAHAHAHA I can finally focus on myself, I just passed my school activities and a while ago our adviser messaged that I was with the honors pictorial hehe.
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—*Herzy*—
My Self Love Letter Challenge Part 1
Good Day Guys!!! How are you guys? What are you doing before you read this? Chismosa lang ang peg.
Earlier I wanted to write a letter but I didn't know who I will write to. So I decided that I would just write the letter for myself again. But the letter that I will make is not just myself. But my different parts of myself.
***Dear My Eyes***
I'm sorry I'm using you too much. I'm sorry sometimes you have to cry because of how I feel, you are the only one who sees everything. Thank you for showing the beauty of the world, because of you I appreciate everything in the world. I promise I will rest you on time and I will use you right. Of all my body parts you are my favorite, every time I look in the mirror you oh my eyes, you are the first thing I look at.
***Dear My Smile***
I hope that no matter what trial comes, I won't lose you, ok? You are my ally in every trial that comes. I'm sorry sometimes if I use you to cover up how I really feel. Don't leave me ok? I need you every day. Thank you because you are beautiful, some of people have lightened their mood because of you. Because of you, I can escape the anger of my parents WHAHAHAHA The moment they see you, they are already smiling.
***Dear My Heart***
Be strong! The world is chaotic. You can't avoid being hurt, but it's okay. Don't lose hope, just keep beating. You will have many more emotions to feel in the days to come, and I hope you will not let yourself lose your love for God, for yourself, for your family, for your friends and for all. Thank you so much for reminding and teaching me how to be humane. I don't believe you are my weakness because for me you are my strength.
***Dear My Hair***
You are one of my confidence, I love the way you are, I do not regret that you are straight.I hope you're as long as before,
Are you angry because I always cut you before? Please grow up, pramise I won't cut you anymore. I hope you are happy that apart from cutting you I still keep you natural. Because I'm afraid that something bad will happen to you, so I never do rebond, dye and anything else to do with you. Of all the girl things I do styling you is what I like to do.
***Dear My Health***
I'm sorry if sometimes I put you aside to do what my body wants. Maybe if you could just speak you scolded me many times, right? Opo, from now on you are my first priority. I'm ok not being beautiful as long as you're good ok? Love you, always stay healthy ok? I'm always worried about you, don't be weak because if you are weak I will be weak too.
***Dear My Self Esteem***
What now? When will you be whole? When will you be strong? When will you show up? WHAHAHAHAHA I know it's hard to build you but hopefully I can build you fully and strong. It's hard of not having you, it's hard to live without you. So whatever failures and mistakes I make, don't leave. Don't let that break you, will you? Can you hold on until I can build you fully and strong?
**Dear My insecurities**
Forgive me if I don't let you dominate every time you go out. But did you also know that you, insecurities are my strength? Because every time you come it becomes a way for me to see the beauty in myself. It becomes a strength for me to show myself and the things I should not be ashamed of.
***Dear My Fears***
Will I really live with you? Why I live every day with you? Maybe you're so annoyed with me because every time I feel you I always tell you "What am I scared of? Why am I scared?" Because of your constant presence, I am learning against you. That way I can live with you. Thank you, because of you I don't just act without thinking but sometimes I have to fight you.
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—Herzy—
A Few of My Favourite Things
**Good Day Everyone!!!**
What a strong thunder earlier!!! I was really scared earlier huhuhu.
Because of my fear earlier I wanted to lighten my mood, and I remembered the article done by Expelliarmus30, here's the **article**. And I think this article will make my mood light. https://read.cash/@Expelliarmus30/lets-talk-about-my-favorites-4a372c7f
Who wouldn’t be happy when we talking about our Favorites right? So let's start
I just really need to get rid of my nervousness, and I still have school activities to do.
*Favourite Animals?*
**Dog**, I'm really close to dog, to the point that sometimes I'll fight with the, yes, it's true. We have a dog her name is Sanya and she often my enemy hehehe. And as of now I've never been bitten by a dog even though I always tend to hold a dog even though I don't know them then sometimes I tease the dogs hehehe. But I also want to try to take care of cats but in my case, when we feed thorns or leftover food the cats outside, our dog complains and cries right away. She always jealous.
***Favourite Color?***
When I was a child, yellow was my favorite, but when I became teenager, **black** is become my favorite color. Well I said it many times in my previous articles that black is my fav.
***Favourite Wattpad Story?***
**I Love You Since 1892** by binibining mia, of all the stories I've read, ILYS1982 is the only one I read it again and again and again, even it hurts me WHAHAHAHA. I'm stupid right? Even though I know I will be hurt in the end, I always bring back to him char! It's a great story to the point I had trauma when I first read it. When I first read it, it took a few months before I decided to read the rest of her work.
***Favourite Place?***
I'm not a outside person and I'm just a taong bahay so what did you expect? My favorite place is **Our house**! That's my comfort zone but like what others says sometimes we also need to leave our comfort zone so that we can grow. So I plan to go somewhere alone on vacation, I just want try to leave my comfort zone.
***Favourite Social media?***
Do you still need to ask? I think you know the answer? **noise.cash** and **read.cash**, do I have to explain why? WHAHAHAHA We know the answer. But the things I really like in read.cash and noise.cash is I see more green flags post unlike other social media I always see red flags post, makes my mood bad.
***Favourite Food?***
I have many favorite foods but I chose my top 3 favorite foods that even if I eat every day, I will never get tired of eating it.
**Squid**, My all time favorite food ever since I was a kid, squid is my most favorite dish, no matter how it's cooked as long as it's squid, I like that.
**Banana chips**, I like it better than junk foods. I remember before when someone was selling banana chips near in my aunt's house, when my mother came home from my aunt, I was just surprised that she bought banama chips because she knew I wanted it, eh, even didn't say she need to bought me that she still bought me because she know it's my favorite. It's just nice to feel that your parents remember your favorites, right?
Mango, when it's mango season I eat 10 or more mangoes a day, pramis WHAHAHAHA. Sometimes they asking me if I'm pregnant because I'm always looking for mangoes but I just really like mangoes.
**Favorite Movie?**
I'm not fond of movies, I've only watched a few movies and for me the movie I like the most is **Divergent** and I like movies like that. Sometimes I really don't want to watch a movie because I get hung up.
***Favourite Song?***
I can't choose what is my favorite but all **Sb19 songs** are my favorite, I don't get tired of playing their songs over and over again. Because I'm so addicted to Sb19, my family has already memorized Sb19 songs WHAHAHAHA.
That's it guys, I want to sleep but I have things to do before sleep pa. Hasyt thanks God the thunder and lightning stopped.
How are you guys? I hope everyone is well.
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
A Letter To Someone
*Dear love*
**Good Day, my love! How are you?**
Here you are again, you are disturbing my mind. *It seems like not long time ago when I met you but why your presence hit me so hard?*
When you were just starting, I was watching and always updated on what you were going to do, and I always cheering you. Sometimes I feel really stupid when you're there WHAHAHAHA. *Is it normal to have crush on you? Is it normal to feel how you feel?*
***I witness how you like her.***
I witness how your hate for her has become love. *But I know when you first met her you like her, the way you describe her I know you don't really hate her.*
When you courted her, yes, I couldn’t help to feel butterflies in my stomach first. Who wouldn't if I could see how you make an effort in your courtship. I am also a witness how you act when you're jealous.
*But in every scene like that there is a little pain in my heart.*
When she said yes to you I witness that, you were happy that day. I even witness your first kiss.
She become your girlfriend. I am happy because your efforts has been repaid, *but deep inside I am jealous.*
***Sometimes I wish I was just her.***
***I hope I experience that too.***
*Why are you so sweet?*
*Why is your gentleman?*
***The more I know you the more I can no longer avoid falling for you?***
***In your pickup line that even I know It's not for me I'm falling....***
When everyone here turned their backs on you, *I'm there, crying with you.*
I sympathize with the pain you are feeling. *When you were feel down did you know how many times I wanted to hug you?*
I'm hurt when I see you crying but I can't do anything, all I can do is listen to your feelings. That every time I see you struggling as if I just want to go to them, to her and I will explain to them all the truth. But I can't do that. I can't just even hug you and be in your side when you cry, so how can I go to her and tell her the truth.
How many times have I wish you'll be mine, I just wish you loved me. I hope you see me too. There's a part of me that wants to snatch you from her and you just love me, I'm sure I won't hurt you.
*Maybe you're wondering who I am, my love?*
WHAHAHA Even if you don't know me, I know you very well in everything that happened to you, I'm watching you. In your favorite color, day, food, and even your secrets I know. From your feelings I know all that. In your happy and painful experiences I know all that.
Oh, I remember, my love. You don't exist in this world, ***you're just a Fiction Character*** that even if I had to pray a few more times I would have you I know It won't happen. Because you are just a Fiction Character and I'm living in this world, In this reality.
*There are so many people in this world, of all I will love, why you? why in a Fiction Character like you I'll fell inlove?*
***I fell in love with you, who only made in the human imagination. I'm Inlove to a character in the beautiful story I read.***
WHAHAHA I'm so emotional na.
*My love, I'm happy that the love story of you two had a happy ending.*
*I'm glad you're happy with the last page of your story.*
*Love,*
*Reader.*
Good Day Everyone!!!You know I'm just really sleepy so I'm wrote that I don't know I can write WHAHAHAHA. I sleep late again, my mother will be angry again if she see me that I'm still awake so good night guys! Have a nice night/day!!! I hope everyone is safe!!!
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
First Day, First Rants Of June
*First day of the month we should start happy but how can I do that when I know that I and my classmates in f2f will no longer in f2f.*
Good Day Everyone!!! I know most of you are happy to welcome the month of june and excited to set up a goal for this month. Too bad, I can’t join in the fun and excited you feel today.
I immediately apologize because I will ruin your mood because of my rants for this video, char for this blog.
*I was stressed stress since morning, you know why?*
Laziness attacked me right away after I wake up, it's really hard to get up when it rains, like I want to sleep again but I have to get up because I will still be doing my modules. And thanks God my worries about my modules win than my want to sleep.
Then when I start answering my mods, I remember that we have observation in Math next week and my teacher assigned me as leader of group 1. I really hate to be a leader huhuhu, but I don't have choice because desisyon sila eh, charot. Our math teacher has already given the group's math problem in advance so that we can think about the answer carefully.
I don't have a problem with the Math Problem, I solve right away after 15mins I guess, my problem is who will present? I'm not really good at explaining so I don't want to present and it's hard to explain to my classmates how to present our solution.
That's why I really don't want to be a leader, I always think about what to do and then when you ask my members if there is a suggestion to do something good in the group activity, they will just answer "Ikaw na bahala." "Sabihan mo na lang kami ng gagawin." Honestly, what I like especially in math when in groupings I hope my groupmates can gets and understand what I answered in activity. That's more important to me, than I'm the only one who understands what I answered and then they'll just follow what I say. I don't like that.
And then I'm really stressed with Math Observation then I'll just know that the other section will replace us to attend the F to F class next week. I'm still stressed with math and then I'll just know we can't continue our math observation, give me back my stress..... 🙂
We only have 3 weeks to wait after that the school year is end, why they stop us to go to school? It just a little bit eh, they don't let us finish the school year.
Why?
*Why when I can already talk to my classmates?*
Just like what I said before the students in our section are from different sections so we don’t really know each other. I have to wait 5 weeks (this week is our 5th week in f2f) just to be able to talk my classmates. I thought it was really the same as before, when the first week of school the whole section was really quiet, pakitang tao lang. But after the 2nd, 3rd, and 4th week, they are still silent, like during recess, they are all hold their phone, no one wants to chatter.
But this the week,just few of them hold their phone and the others already chatting with our classmates. I can already see the vitality of our room, unlike a few weeks when our room was sluggish.
But I Guess I'll just be happy with other section who will also experience F to F. Ok I'll accept that we are no longer with f2f, let's let the other sections experience the fun of F to F. It's true that other sections should also experience being able to take classes at school but I still can't help feeling sad. Still I can't forget that I resisted my desire to sleep and I was stress and then the observation could not continue hmp. But our observation on TLE will continue next week 🙂. CSS our TLE so we can make the observation in the computer lab without disturbing the attendees of Face to Face.
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
*—Herzy—*
Physically Beautiful, Spiritually Dead
**Meet Azaria.....**
She has 850k followers on **Instagram**, 900k followers on **Facebook** and 1.2m followers on **YouTube**. She is a *content* *creator, vlogger, tiktoker, and an endorser*. She is very famous, almost everyone in the Philippines who has a socmed account knows her. Her face is anywhere on social media flatforms. Almost everyone wants to be Her. She posts her picture tagging the famous brands like Louis Vuitton, Chanel, Gucci, etc. ***Everyone admires her.***
Women admires her because of what she have. She has the most expensive and limited edition jewelries. And men admires her, because of her sexy body on her pictures, and her white-fair skin, satisfying their earthly body’s lust. I don’t know how many men stare at her half-naked photos.
*In just a few minutes*, his posts have garnered thousands of likes. Almost everyone who comments says “*Sana all*” because of the luxurious life she has.
*She has designer’s bag, dresses, and sandals given by her mystery man.*
She posted things her boyfriend gave her. She who is perhaps the most envied by women because of the good course of her life.
**But...**
*She never posted a pic of her boyfriend.*
She always apply nude eyeshadows on her eyes, and sometimes glittery shades.
She puts her false eyelashes, red lipstick, rosy blushes on her cheeks. She doesn't even have to use IG Filters just to look pretty, unlike normal people like us.
At your first glance at her, her aura immediately screams
“*I’m living a princess’ life that you can’t have*.”
She goes to night clubs, expensive restaurants and travel spending thousands of money in just one night.
She always hold her phone, clicking the camera on ***everything she have, everything she do, and everything and everything and everything.***
**But...**
***One Day***
A fan asked her once, “*omg you’re so beautiful. You’re so blessed by God in everything. How to be you po ate?*”
She replied, “*Girl, I am not blessed by God. I worked hard for all of these just by myself! Hahaha! You just need to be born with it, and figure out how to live with it.*”
And suddenly I was turned off. I admired her because she’s pretty.
But after knowing na she’s so self-centered and not acknowledging God, everything turned upside down. I was disappointed when I found out that.
***After a few months***
***An issue arose about her***
*Guess what it is?*
*Can you guess it?*
The real reason behind the things she have is a **SUGAR DADDY**.
The issue being her as a sugar baby ruined her career as a social media influencer. She even got imprisoned after scamming her acting sugar daddy by taking the money on his bank acounts without his permission. All of a sudden she lost everything she had and all of a sudden all people admire her gone, she only got hurtful words.
I felt sorry for the outcome of what he had done. We should contented of what we have. Don’t use other people just to look good on social media and make people admire you.
***This work of Fiction***
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
I Watched Your Smile, The World I Chose Is Beautiful
*It's* ***fun*** *to watch your smiles.*
You smile so **beautifully**.
My Day Without Your Smile is incomplete.
A smile that my eyes want to see.
Maybe that's the first thing I like about you, **your smiles**.
Smile that even when I close my eyes I can still see.
In just one smile the surroundings stop.
A smile that relieves **my anxiety**.
A smile that relieves the **pain of my heart**.
Smile I don't want to lose on your lips.
I'm happy to be with you every time you smile.
I'm happy to help you smile.
Do you know that I'm really worried when I don't see it?
*Even if I look like a fool, I'll do everything to see your smile again.*
I'm glad you showed me first your smiles.
Sometimes I get annoyed with your smiles.
*Because of your smile my eyes can't stop from always looking for You.*
Every time I see your smiles one thing I always say in my mind.
"*The world I have chosen is so beautiful*"
**But...**
The world I have chosen has another chosen World.
*But it's okay, I'm happy to see the smile only He can make.....*
*I'm happy to be your Bestfriend.....*
Good Day Guys!!!
Because my mind was floating I just let what came into my mind I'll write and that's what I wrote WHAHAHAHA. I just want to writing something light and then because of music I play my mood changes WHAHAHAHA..... I'm not Inlove or heartbroken but I'm carried away by what I'm listening to WHAHAHAHA...
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
My last year in elementary was not boring, thanks to Wattpad!
Good Day to All! I hope you are in good shape!
Yesterday my friend and I talked about the past and I couldn’t help but reminisce when I was just starting to read a novel on Wattpad.
**It’s story time**
*Let’s go back to the year 2018.*
When I was in grade 6 I was transferred by section, I went to section 1. From grade 1 to 5 if I was not section 2 I was section 3. You know I was so nervous and anxious when I found out that I was going to be in section 1.
As I expected I was nobody in the room, I knew someone in our room but I didn't close them. If you see me in our room I'm super duper quiet like I don't seem to exist there. It's good that I had someone to talk there, thanks to her blurry eyes and she approached me. We asked to write something and then she couldn't see the one on the front so she talked to me if shee could borrow my notes so shee could copy them, and that's how we become friends.
Anyway, let’s get back to the main topic. One day our class president sat next next to me and then she talked to my classmates. She's holding a book, and guess what book she's holding?
**Hell University!** WHAHAHAHA I also mentioned in this article, that Hell University is the first story on Wattpad I read. At dahil marites ako, I listened to what they were talking about, they were talking about the storyline of Hell University. And because I was curious about the storyline of Hell University, when I got home I immediately searched Hell University on google and I found it and I read it. And that’s how I started being a Wattpader. https://read.cash/@Herzy/hell-university-63691c2f
**The effect of being a Wattpader**
***I became close to our class president.***
Our class president was one I admired back then. I'm really impressed with the talent and courage she has, as far as I remember she is the only high honor in our batch. I learned a lot from her, she was one of the reasons why I matured even a little WHAHAHA. She is my source of great stories, when I don't know what to read she is the one I ask.
**I became closer to the friend I mentioned above.**
Before, when we just needed to ask each other, we talked, but when we become Wattpader, even if we talk about nonsense, we still continue to talk and talk and talk.
Because of being Wattpader, I influenced her to be Wattpader. And because of He's Into Her became our call sign is '*Taguro*' and '*Parrot*', ***guess who's the Taguro and Parrot in the two of us?***
That's our old conversation HAHAHAHA. These days we are addicted to Wattpad and this friend of mine is always imagines something about the characters on Wattpad. And because I'm a good friend, I don't want her to look too crazy, so I sympathize with her. Charot!
***My other classmates became close to me as well.***
I was no longer nobody at school, I already had classmates talking to me. Almost all of my classmates read the story on Wattpad. I also found out that one of my classmates in grade 4 was also reading on Wattpad. And I was annoyed with that man because he always spoiled me with the stories I read.
And because of this article I just I realize that I was bad then, because I call my classmate "Cholo", which is the name Cholo is the name of Candice's dog in the story The 4 Bad Boys And Me, because he's small and his hair is still curly so I named it after him, oh yeah my reason is so nonsense WHAHAHAHA. I'm really sorry for him it's to late to realize how bad I was in that part. But he knows that the name Cholo is the name of a dog and he has no complaints about that WHAHAHAHA. But I'm still bad.
Did you know that too? Of course you don't that all my classmates know Hell University, Pramise they know! I remember then, when our teacher asked us who the supreme was, before our teacher had finished speaking, they said "Ace Craige". Then ma'am's reaction like what are you saying? What are you talking about? Then my classmates laugh. But when ma'am repeated the question and the question was complete, we answered correctly the question of sino ang supremo ng katipunan?
***Wattpad takes away my boredom***
This is the reason why I started reading a story on Wattpad to get rid of my boredom at home. While my boredom was gone, I learned something more. Another reason why I like reading stories is because you can learn a lot from reading. Because of Wattpad I learn to laugh alone WHAHAHAHA. I learned to be happy even when I was alone. For me Wattpad is not just an app but a world full of magical words.
I'm really thankful because I met Wattpad otherwise maybe nobody will stay in school until the end of the school year. My last year in elementary was fun even though at first I was sad that I was transferred to section 1, who wouldn't if you were away from your section friends right? I'm also not the person who is easy to approach other people, I'm not a matopic friend so I'm often really quiet because I have nothing to say eh. But because of Wattpad, my classmates started talking to me.
*****Thanks to Wattpad because my world became colorful when I met this app, I met alot of fiction characters and stuck in my heart and became my inspiration in life.*****
Based on my list there are about 70 stories I've done reading. I would have planned to make an article on the stories I read on Wattpad but it's a lot stories, I will think about whether I will do it.
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
Funny Old Conversations With My Friends
**Good Day to All!** How is everyone? Are you alright? How about me? I'm not okay as if I want to resent what I read in the old conversation we had with my two friends.
**Last night**, I wasn't sleepy so I decided to read old conversation again. Just like I did last week and because of that I found what I had been looking for a year, here's the article. https://read.cash/@Herzy/i-finally-found-the-story-i-have-been-looking-for-a-years-dedbf495
Now I read our old conversations in the GC of my two friends and just last night I regretted reading in that GC. At the same time I laughed a lot at what I read in our old convo.
I diligently scroll to get to the very top of our gc noh? Oct 28, 2019 pala nagstart ang GC namin WHAHAHAHA.
We were bad then, weren't we? Abs is still alive but we are already preparing a tombstone and coffee for her WHAHAHA.
Abs is really our trip to plan things like this. Because abs is always offline, kaya siya laging napagtitripan WHAHAHA. We borrowed kemekeme in bumbay just to contribute to the burial of Abs eh WHAHAHAHA. It's just funny that even Abs also went along with L and I's antics. Are such conversations normal? WHAHAHAHAHA. Sorry Abs you know we love you right? so please forgive your friends for going crazy sometimes.
Gosh am I really the one chatting like this? I have nothing to say but it really embarrassing. Maybe because of we are NBSB(No Boyfriend Since Birth) we are becoming like this huhuhuhu.
It just started by saying "Walang Tayo" we ended up like this. Gosh, what am I saying? Wow, we used to have a call sign babe ha. How can I say something like this? I don’t remember ever saying anything like this. It's really embarrassing. There are even worse conversations here but I prefer not to share, because maybe when my friend sees it, I'll say goodbye to the world sooner. Warning WHAHAHA whatever we are saying there is pure nonsense and untrue ha.
I showed our conversations as well as our worst conversations and then that became her reactions. Who isn't? I am also ashamed of myself. Self what the hell are you doing huh? I don't want to accept that I used to say things like this WHAHAHAHA.
It's fun and embarrassing back in the past noh? It was fun to read our antics and embarrassing to read the nonsense I said before. It's ok self, we're really going through being jejemon WHAHAHAHA.
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
I'm Tired Of Being What You Want Me To Be
It's tiring, it's tiring to do everything *you* want.
It’s tiring to be **smart**.
Tiresome to **be well**.
It's tiring to be **happy** with everything you ask me to do.
It’s exhausting to be **perfect** in your eyes.
When will you find what I **want**?
When will you see the real **Me**?
When will you get tired of interfering with what I do?
I'm tired of you *controlling* me.
In my **dress**, in my **hair**, in the way I **speak** and in my **actions**.
Is everything I do you always have something to say?
*That should be this and that*
*And that should not be this and that*
Why am I to blame if I can't obey you?
Why is it my fault that I don't live up to *your expectations*?
When will you see that I am not something you can control?
I have my own **Life**, I have my own **mind**.
**Yes**, I know sometimes I need the opinion and advice of others.
But the opinion and advice you give me is too much, *you control Me.*
You get *angry* when I cannot follow what you want me to do for **myself**.
**Myself**, I will the one who make the decision for myself.
That's none of your business.
I don't like it anymore, I'm tired of this.
***That's enough self.***
It's time for you to **choose** yourself.
It's time for you to **do what you want** for yourself.
It's ok to listen to others, as long as it doesn't affect your happiness.
It's ok not to listen to others, as long as you don't step on anyone and you're doing the right thing.
You do not need to be **perfect**.
And **obey all they want**.
*****All you have to do is love yourself.*****
I'm not sad, I was just carried away by the story I was reading last night so I wrote it WHAHAHAHA.I just want to express my sama ng loob even though what happened to the character didn't happen to me.
How are you guys? I'm busy right now because we have groupings and then I'm the only one doing the activity. When it comes to reporting on Monday, if no one reported it and I was still the one who report this, I will really report this to our teacher.
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
Attend The Wedding Of My Inspiration
**Last week** I had a headache so I'm sorry I didn't update for a week because I rested myself by using the phone.
*I'm sad, I can't make my goal anymore, yesterday was mama's birthday but I didn't make my goal to buy her a cake because I don't have enough money. I only disappeared for a few days, and then the BCH went down badly.*
Btw let's focus on my topic for today's blog.
MAY 14, 2022
***The day my inspiration since I was a child got married.***
Do you want to know who that is? even you want to know or not, I will tell you who it is pa rin Whahaaha. My inspiration is my AUNT, my dad's younger sister.
**How she became my inspiration?**
**First**, she gave me the dream of getting many medals when I was a child but I didn't do it either because I was so shy. However, when I was in elementary school, I could say that my grades were good and sometimes I was in the top or with honor in our section.
**Second**, she gave me the inspiration to graduate. In my family tree mom's side and dad's side my Aunt is the only one I know who graduated. Seeing that she can buy what she wants, she can travel, and they will also have their own house can give me the desire to graduate and be able to do and buy what I want.
**Third**, I don't want to went to nothing for giving me a load to be able to continue my study even with a pandemic. So when I'm lazy to study I always think of the people who help me to study and one of the things I think of is my aunt.
Also because of my aunt and grandmother, I got used to eating vegetables, especially amplaya WHAHAHAHAHA.
That's why I am very grateful to my aunt. I hope that no matter what trial she faces, the smile will not disappear from her lips.
This is the first time I have attended a wedding
It was fun to witness the wedding of two lovers. My aunt's wedding theme is cool because we are all black and then my aunt and her husband are white. I really like the theme because my favorite is the black color WHAHAHAHA.
In the photoshoot with the bride's family, my stomach already felt a butterfly, for the first time I saw my aunt and dad become sweet. They're not normally sweet Whahaha, that's why my grandma cried, who wouldn't cry when you see your two children hugging each other that you rarely see, right?
It’s just sad that I wasn’t walking down the aisle (tama ba aisle ba tawag doon sa red carpet?) I was supposed to be the herald bearer but the organizer didn't let me walk, because my name was not on the list. Anyway, I don't even think about it anymore because I'm happy that my Aunt's wedding went well.
I believe that I really inherited from my papa hehehe, when we just heard the emcee said that the parents will give a message for the couple. You know my dad did? Dad left the venue. Dad didn't want to give a speech in front so he left. WHAHAHA he's really in a hurry to leave. Now I know where I inherited shyness.
I hope that my Inspiration will be happy and stable during times of trouble. I'm so happy and I'm proud she is my aunt HAHAHAHA. May the Lord keep you in the new stage you two are about to tread.
Hopefully it will continue to not hurt my head to be active again here and in noise.cash.
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
I'm Not Feeling Well Today ft. My Sleeping Habits
Good Evening Guys! I hope you are well today! I hope your day is the opposite of how I feel today!
Hasyt, since yesterday, my teeth have been hurting and when I woke up today, not only my teeth hurt but my head also hurt. I still don't want to get up because of my headache but I have to eat breakfast because I might get After I ate breakfast later even weaker if I don't eat.
After I ate breakfast later I went back to sleep because my head really hurt and the pain I felt increased because my shoulder also hurt. I just woke up at lunch, at lunch my teeth, head and shoulders were still sore. I've taken medicine but still nothing huhuhu. So to sleep again after eating lunch I decided to take a walk first, just in case my headache goes away somehow. Maybe if I just lay down all day my head hurts even more so I went for a walk first. But when I came home I also slept hehehe, I really can't stand my headache.
Thank God because somehow my head and teeth don't hurt so much anymore. This is the consequence of me sleeping all day I can't sleep tonight. I really plan not to write an article because I really want to relax in case I can't sleep, and you know guys, read.cash is my sleeping pill WHAHAHAHA.
Let's just talk about my sleeping habits and I hope after I write this I can fall asleep na.
**LET'S START!!!**
**~~Light On~~**/Lights Off
It used to be light off but now it's not, because I'm not comfortable sleeping with the light turned off especially since I'm sleeping alone on our 2nd floor. But our light here is not directly focused on my room, our light is on the side of my older brother's room (but he is not sleeping here now) so even if the light is on, I am not dazzled.
**~~Light Sleeper~~**/Heavy Sleeper
I inherited being a light sleeper from my dad. As in, I wake up quickly when mama, papa and my younger brother go up to the 2nd floor, I wake up immediately. But sometimes it's hard for me to wake up when I'm really tired but my normal sleep is light and then it's even harder when I wake up from sleep I have to wait a few minutes before I go back to sleep. It took me a long time to fall asleep, unlike my mother who just leaned over and fall asleep right away.
**~~Fan~~**/No Fan
Who doesn't want to sleep with a fan, right? unless you're allergic to air and when you feel cold, you're not really going to use a fan right? I use to sleep with a Fan because I have electric fan eh but I can also sleep without an electric fan ha.
One Pillow/~~More Pillows~~
Hmm... If you count your pillows I use three. One on the head, one on the foot and one in my arms. I'm the person who it hard to sleep without a pillow to hug, pramise!
**~~Early/Late Sleeper~~**
Both because sometimes I sleep early and then sometimes I sleep late. When I don't sleep in the afternoon I go to bed early. When I really really like what I watch or read, I sleep late. But it rarely I go to bed late because of my hobbies. It's only in sleep I regain my strength, eh, will I refuse to give that to myself?
Thin/Thick Blanket
Normally I use a thin blanket, because I'm the person, even though it's very hot, I can't sleep without a blanket. I’m not comfortable that I don’t have a blanket covering me. But when the weather is cold, of course I use a thick blanket, because I get cold quickly. I can withstand the heat but when it comes to the cold I can't.
With Socks/**~~No Socks~~**
I'm not used to wearing socks when sleeping. I don’t remember me wearing socks while sleeping. Maybe when I was a kid I used to sleep in socks when I was sick.
**Pajamas On/**~~Comfy Clothes~~
What I was wearing that day was also what I was wearing WHAHAHAHA. I'm not used to wearing pajamas when I sleep. As long as I can sleep well, whatever I'm wearing is ok.
~~Music On~~**/Music Off**
This is a music lover. It's more relaxing to sleep with music. I play music when my brain doesn't want to stop thinking, when there is music it distracts my brain, especially when my favorite song is the song and then I duet the song until I fall asleep.
That's all for today's video char! For today's blog pala!
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
Gallery Raid: Mother's Day Edition
Happiest Mother's Day To Everyone!!!
*My cover photo was taken on my Mother's birthday last year.*
How is your Mother's Day? Me, mama and I slept all day WHAHAHAHA. I would like to give her a gift for today but I don't have any money, besides I'm still saving for her birthday on May 18. Only Greetings and saying I Love You all I can give to my dearest Mother.
I've been wanting to gallery Raid for a long time but I can't do it, I don't know why? Now I will do it but Mother's Day Edition.
***And here is the list of photos I will show:***
Oldest photo with my mother
Newest photo with my mother
Mama's photo that she didn't know I had
Funniest photo of her
Best photo of her
Most memorable photo with my mother
My top 3 photos with my mother
**Oldest photo with my mother**
I don’t know how old I am of this or what year this photo is. This is the oldest photo with my mudra, it's a pity the cellphone wasn't uso when I was born, I wish I had a pic on my first day in the world. Ang saya saya ko sa photo noh? WHAHAHA. I can't tell you anything about this photo because I was young then so I can't't remember it very well my memories in that year. I just got this photo on mama's fb before.
**Newest photo with my mother**
This photo was taken outside the swimming resort that day. We arrived early, the resort opened at eight o'clock then 7:30 we were already there so we had to wait for 30 mins While waiting and I couldn't do anything I just hugged mama WHAHAHA.
**Mama's photo that she didn't know I had**
It's a pity I had so many photos before that he didn't know I had such a photo of him in case I deleted your photos. Puro mga epic photo pa naman iyon whahaha, if my cellphone doesn't really fill up, I won't delete it. I don’t know why I took this picture. Because for me, it's just sweet to look at like this, mama and papa are like dog nd cat eh. This simple gesture makes me feel butterflies in my stomach HAHAHA. Sanaol sinusuklayan ng buhok.
**Funniest photo of her**
Ag cute ni Mama dito WHAHAHA.... I won't get tired of looking at it. Is there anything more to say? All I want to do is pinch mama's cheek there. Just looking at this photo, my day is complete! I remember I couldn't do anything that day so I just messed up with Mama, so I just took a picture of her because I was so bored that day.
**Best photo of her**
This is the best photo of her I have on my cellphone. My mom is really beautiful, isn't she? This photo taken when we went for the first time in intramuros with our family. Dyk? We almost got lost in the intramuros. We didn't know that the intramuros were big
Most memorable photo with my mother
This is the most memorable photo of me and mama, do you know why? because finally my mom meet her mom and dad, and everyone meet my mom's parents Fiona and Shrek hehehehe kidding. I'm sure mama will pinch me again of she read this WHAHAHA, charot charot lang ma.
Serious mode na, this is the most memorable photo for me in my gallery because this is the first time I bought a book. The first time I bought and Mama was there to accompany me. Even though Mama was busy with her work, she came with me to buy a book. One of the things I like most about Mama is that she supports me in my hobbies, being a wattpader, book addict, drama addict and many more hehehe.... She doesn't stop me from doing what I want but she still reminds me of my limitations.
**My top 3 photos with my mother**
There are so many photos oo me and mama, it's hard to choose ha.
HAHAHAHA it's hard to choose, oh that's it. Mama and I are cute here.
Hasyt I miss watching a variety show on our city's anniversary. This photo was taken while watching the variety show and waiting for the fireworks. This is the last variety show for the city's anniversary before COVID-19 come.
Namiss ko din toh. These are the days when she takes me to her work at the Mall and after she works we hang out in front of the mall which is a Park before going home.
Happy Mother's Day Again to All !!! When I finished, I realized how many memories we had with my mother, when I look at these photos again, the memories come back to me. Its Fun to go back to the past. I also intended to write a message for my dearest mother but I prefer that only Mama knows the message I want to tell her.
**THANKS BE TO GOD!!!**
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
Get Up From Sleep Just To Answer Questions ʘ‿ʘ
***Good day everyone!!!***
*Good Evening din guys*! I just woke up, I fell asleep around 7 pm and then my mind woke up a bit and I thought that I haven't done my article for this day yet.
*****Para saan ako bumabangon*****?
To make an article HAHAHA.... Literal na bumangon talaga Ako sa pagkakatulog makagawa lang ng article.
Because I don't have a topic in my mind but I have to write because one of my goals is to publish an article every day and I don't want to break my goals. So because I can't think of any topic or I just don't want to think? Hehehe, I'll just do the most popular type of article here in read.cash if you can't think a topic,Answering Question is the answer!
***Who Are You?***
I'm ****Herz Whitelead****, not my original name but the word ****Herz**** is my first name when translated into English and also the word ****Whitelead**** is my last name when translated into English, guess what that is WHAHAHAHAHA... but maybe someone who knew me at noise.cash (if there is one who know me) know the meaning of Herz because my real name is my surname in noise.cash. Anyway I'm 15 y/o and I'm 3 year high school (grade 9) so expect sometimes my works are a bit childish and ignorant, I'm still young so I still have many things to learn in this world. What else? I love color black, pero dati color yellow ang favorite ko.
*****How would you describe your self?*****
I inherited my dad's tall, thin and dark body..... I inherited my mom's nose, pango. I'm a moody person, sometimes or always they said I'm weird because sometimes I'm happy then a few mins/hours I'm sad then just a few minutes I'm happy again. My mood changes quickly, I'm also quick to get angry or frustrated but magaling akong manginis.
***What are you passionate about?***
****All about stories****, I remember when I was child I used to listen to my dad's stories and then when I learned to read I secretly took my brother's book, because the book in elementary school have stories there so I took my brother's book then I read the stories in the book. To get my lice in my hair before my grandmother was need my aunt lent me her book. So it's no wonder that I became a wattpater whahaha. Moreover, when we were still living in our grandmother's house. Me and my Lola love to watch movies and kdrama together. Even when I was young, I really wanted to read, listen and watch stories until now.
***What are you most grateful for?***
I'm ****alive**** now, I ****eat**** ****3 to 4 times a day**** and ****I don't have any serious problems****, I'm grateful for that. In just waking up in the morning, I'm so thankful to God. Other person only eats once a day and I eat 3 to 4 times a day, shouldn't I be grateful there? Of course I'm grateful for that! I have problems but I can solve them easily. And as of now I don't have a serious problem can break my whole body and mind.
*What are the most important things to your life?*
****God**** of course,He was always first of all. I wouldn’t be here today without Him. I can't do anything without Him in my body who gives me strength, healing, hope and knowledge. Everyone will judge you and leave you but not Almighty God.
**Do you love yourself? why or why not?**
Of course ****I love myself****, there is no one who will love me completely except God and myself because they are the only two who really know my personality, but sometimes I forgot to love myself. Have you also experienced that? Loving c myself will not be the way for me to be selfish. But one of the ways I show my love for myself is through my love for others, because that way my heart is eased, I am happy, I have learned something new, and I am giving freedom myself to let go of my fears and anxieties.
Good Night Guys! I can sleep without thinking. I'm going back to sleep, Hello! Hello to those still awake! Time check 11:25 pm already! Sleep Well sa matutulog na kagaya ko! May God protect us!
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
I Finally Found The Story I Have Been Looking For A Years
**Good Evening Guys!!!**
*I've been in a good mood since last night. While I was sleeping, I was still smiling. Who doesn't? After a years I found the one I was looking for, isn't that funny? Of course that's fun!*
So last night my friend and I were talking through messenger, then she shared with me the convos she gathered when she back read his old messages. Dahil gagaya gaya ako, I imitated her. I back read our convo after that I felt pure shame. Ang corny at jeje ko pala talaga noon.
Then I also back read to my convo with Abs, gosh, I'm so naughty pala before noh? Well, I'm just naughty with my friends WHAHAHA. Actually I'm the craziest in the circle of friends but I'm also the quietest, WHAHAHAHA In short, I'm the alien in the circle of friends.
Next I backread was my conversation with parrot, at first I felt pure shame not until I read this.
First I wondered what Devihell School was because it wasn't familiar to me but I read that story based on what was I said in the chat, then I had a suspicion that this was the book I was looking for a long time and then I google the title. After that I feel like I want cry.
Last year I was still looking for the that story. I read it in year 2018 and then I just searched it last last year, so it's hard to remember the title. I can't even remember the names of the characters so it's really hard to find. And also this is an underated story, so it's really hard to find, unlike famous stories, it's easy to find. All I know is the events in the story. I've searched for all the possible titles or clues to find it but I still can't find it.
I literally cried last night pramise! Tears of Joy! It's like a mother found her missing child again after a year of searching. I'm OA right? How Not. My eyes and brain hurts just to find this story then later I'll know in my convo with parrot I can only see it. Why did I just now think of back reading?
As far as I know in this story *"Devihell School"*
****Devihell School**** is a secret school where students have a lot of hidden secrets, secret nga diba syempre itatago talaga yun hehehe. As expected, Girl will enter there and her life will be in trouble. Girl and her friend were forced to look for a new school because the school they were attending closed. I can no longer remember how they got into Devihell School and how they found out about that school. Anyway, At that school he would meet 5 men with powers, and I wouldn’t be able to describe the other events very well.
*Why do I want to look for it even though I don't often like its genre?*
**First**, because this is one of the ones I read when I started reading on wattpad, I read it in 2018. These are the times when I still love high school love stories. I feel like I’m lacking being a wattpader if one of the stories I end up reading I can’t remember and I can’t find. What's worse, I also read book 2 of this story but why can't I remember the title?
**Second**, of course I want to read it again because I can't remember that story very well and I'm curious how did I end up read book 2. Also I'm curious again about this, especially since it has powers involved, which I don't really read that genre very often.
***Gosh it is a test?*** When I already set a goal, I found this story. My Goal This Month is here. One of my goal is to use my cellphone less and go to bed early. It's like I want to destroy my goal right away just to read it. No Herz, Goals First Ok, healthy first. Maybe I'll just read it 20-30 mins a day. I hope this saying “Just one chapter”but I end up reading the whole story is doesn't work to me. Thanks God I solved one of the things I always thought, I found the only story I finished until book 2 but I can't remember the title hehe.
**Thank You For Reading and Don't Forget That**
*****I LOVE YOU !!!*****
—*Herzy*—
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