And now I can return to writing this. though this chapter wasn't as good as the previous ones but I'll still try to edit eventually
These are the first chapters in the case that you didn't get to read that
Chapter 3: I never noticed her before
Chapter 5: Shame
John’s appearances were still limited to thrice a week in the entirety of his year as a 13 year old. The rest of his days, however were spent, once again on “training” with the sex doll and at times, with some of their female workers in the brothel. His duties in the mornings were eventually passed on to one of their new hires. It seemed as though fate had listened to his plea for once. The more people he had come to service, the more he felt that he should not associate himself with Ying Yue. He was tainted, damaged, and it will only get worse in the preceding years. His services, of course, did have its perks such as the tips. It was the only silver lining that John could come to see, and the fact that within a year of service, he was already halfway with the amount he needed to buy his freedom from the wretched establishment.
“It shouldn’t take long now” he repeated to himself in the times that he would be left in his room to rest. He never did rest at times, but instead, he would be counting the tips and the small pay he receives from Mo Chou. He needed to make sure everything was exact, that nothing, not even the smallest of yuan would escape him. He wanted to be free. He so desperately wanted to show himself to Ying Yue as he was, no more masks, glasses and hats to cover whatever it was Mo Chou had been protecting from the public ever since he became Mo Chou’s “precious gem”. Not a moment passed in that year that he did not wonder what Ying Yue would be doing, or if she ever thought of him. He had hoped that by the time they would meet again, he could bravely tell her what had happened during his absence without feeling revolted by his own body. He had hoped that one day; she would be the one to accept him openheartedly like how she did in their limited time together.
The day John turned 14, his nights spent servicing customers and regulars at their establishment were changed from 3 nights to 4. It was fortunate however, that he was given the 3 days off to rest. He was allowed to roam the city then, yet John chose not to. He couldn’t bear the thought of getting intoxicated with this temporary freedom he was given, thus why he spent his days of freedom often locked in his room or by walking around the gardens of their establishment. That place where he spent most of his time strengthening his body with those ridiculous weight lifting activities; as well as the actual gardening for the area. It seemed only those memories filled that place yet it was the only area in the brothel that he actually felt at peace in. What an unusual case he was indeed.
In one of John’s walks in the garden, the strangest event happened. In one of the bushes hid a crouching Ying Yue who had caught him by surprise. Why? Because she was not allowed inside the brothel; both by her father and by Mo Chou. What’s more was that outsiders were not allowed inside the premises in broad daylight. He was about to ask her what she was doing inside but she ended up speaking first
“Sir, do you happen to know if there was a John that works here? I came here to look for him”
John couldn’t believe it. Ying Yue was actually there, she was looking for him. Did this mean that she thought of him too? As soon as he spoke, just the words “I am john” he immediately noticed the shock. He was then reminded of the fact that he never revealed his features to her, not once. John merely laughed to himself and asked her to follow. Through the halls and a few flights of stairs they went until they reached his room. None dared to speak, fearing that they might be caught but once they were in the isolated room, john was greeted with the most comforting embrace he’s ever received in his life, and it was probably the first one he’s ever received as well.
“I found you… I’m happy your voice hasn’t changed that much yet…”
He could only nod in agreement and as much as he wanted to return her embrace, he could not. It seemed he was completely wallowed up in his shame.
First of all, thank you very much. In fact, you are discussing your issues very nicely. You will continue to discuss in a way. If Shaheen wants to convey any issue to the people completely, it is easy to understand it and convey it there. Thank you very much. You continue to discuss the issue in this way and you can share it with us. I hope to say something very good.