Don't Kill Me Papa!
In the name of you my father. I will love you still even if you throw me out because of anger.
I just want to play.
I just want to be with my friends.
While Mama is busy having a good time with her friends.
I on the other hand is busy with our play.
I love you Papa,
I love that I was born in this world as your son and you as my father.
I will be forever thankful with Him
Coz He gave me to you and He gave Papa to me
We are not that fortunate when it comes to our living
But I don't really know why you are always sad but I am happy even if we have nothing
We have each other Papa, even Mama
I think that's already enough but why Papa has to always get angry about it
He will go home like we're not existing and will just do whatever he wants
Sometimes he will hurt Mama even I
It hurts, it hurts but you will hurt us more
Stop already or we all die
Papa, you are not the Papa that I know before
You become a monster and you see us like a pig
We are your family, I am your son
Papa, Papa please wake up
It really hurts, stop hurting me
Stop giving me more pain or I will leave you Papa and Mama
Please come back to us my Papa
Please be the Papa that I know before
My Loving Papa
My hard-working Papa
My Papa who loves me
My Papa who will never kill me.
I can just imagine the kid that was being beaten by his own father. The pain when he hold the kids feet and smash to the ground. Where his head is facing down. Maybe the kid is thinking the same while he is being thrown to the ground like he is some kind of doll. Maybe he was happy when he see his Papa that's why he thought he is just playing with him. He didn't even thought that his Papa has a plan to hill him.
For sure you all watch the viral video of it? When I first saw it I really feel my blood boil into anger. The kid died seeing his father as a monster. He died afraid like a monster will snatch his life. Her really did, that's the saddest part. Call mr evil but I wish for that man to be killed the way his child died in his arms. If possible, give him a slow death. Let him experience the pain that he will only pray that he died instantly.
Please make him suffer. For that kid.
Do you think that child will still forgive his father if ever they saw each other on the afterlife.
But forgiveness is for those who's really asking for it.
That man is a monster so he didn't deserve it.
If only I am the devil himself, I will be the one to punish that man.
He belong to hell.
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**Lead Image from Google** https://www.google.com/amp/s/news24online.com/amp/news/india/bottle-scotch-son-kills-father-mercilessly-a06cc775/
Date Published: 12 PM 04-30-22
7:47 AM April 30, 2022 - Friday
Crazy Love I'll be Waitin'
I'm a bit crazy when it comes to love
I do anything just to get what I want
I don't give a damn if someone get hurts
As long as I'm happy and I did what I can
Even if I'm crazy I give my all when it comes to love
I don't leave some for my self
I will give my all from my heart and my soul
As long as my man is happy it doesn't matter even if there's nothing left for me
But why even if you give your all to them
They will still give you a heartache?
All I do was to love them but they give a wound that is hard to heal
Do you think I will experience that love that everyone ia dreaming?
A happy ending
A lively wedding
A child who's singing
A love that growing
I will give my best when it comes to love
I will fly high just to give you what you want
As long as you love me the way I love you
And you will never leave me when you discover I'm a fool
I will wait for you darlin'
Even if my hair turns gray
I will never surrender I'll wait
Until 50 or until my last breath
I'm crazy but that's how I am...
"The Papin Sisters" - Horrendous Story of Christine and Lea
Uncared mother and abusive father, thats the kind of Family the Papin Sister has. I don't know the feeling of having this kind of family but I have my imagination, so I know that it is disgusting.
Papin Sister case is one of the most gruesome murder case in France. This caught the attention of so many people in France. Some even adopted this crime into a play, film, songs, artwork, book and essay. The impact of this crime into the community was huge that they debated about it to the ground.
📎Family and Life
The unseparetable sister **Christine Papin** and **Lea Papin**, they have another sister **Emilia Papin** who was allegedly abused by his own Father. This three sister was the daughter of **Clémence Derré** and **Gustave Papin** they got married year 1901, October. While this two was still in the dating stage, Gustave heard a rumor that Clemence is having an affair with her employer. Buy they still continue their relationshit and they even decided to get married. But because their relationship was full of doubt their marriage didn't last long. While Emilia decided to leave her family and go to the convent to be a nun her other two sister work as a live in maid. They worked in different Le Mans house, they can't be separated and should work always together.
📎Working History
In the the City of Le Mans, a beautiful two storey town house was standing tall in rue Bruyère it was owned by a wealthy family the Lancelins. A retired lawyer René Lancelins, Léonie Lancelins his wife and their daughter Geneviève Lancelins. This is where Christine and Lea was working as a domestic servants. As an employer the Papin sister was treated well. From the food that they eat, the comfortable room where they are staying and they are paid in the standard wage in that time. And because of their dedication in their work, being hard working servants that helps the household, the Lancelins family was envied by every French family in the upper class household.
But off course not is all well in the Lancelin household. Just like in what you see on a movie where that household has a "know your place" vibe. They are not allowed to talk to René Lancelins, in their seven year stay there until when the crime take place they never spoken to him even once. Even Léonie won't talk to them and their means of communication was through paper, she will just write an instructions to the sisters. And just like others, Léonie was also into perfection as she wants everything and only the best in her territory. She also has this "white glove test" where she will test every furniture in the household to check if it was cleaned to perfection where the dust is her best enemy, it was her routine that wa performed everytime.
📎Crime
Year 1933, February 2. The sky was gloomy and surrounded by dark clouds. The rain was continuously pouring like it will pierce the roof put of the house. Lea and Christine who was alone in the house, while the Lancelins family was out. Léonie and her daughter Geneviève was in the city shopping and René was meeting Léionie's brother.
They are not suppose to go home and Papin Sister's didn't expect them to went home after shopping. They should go to where her husband is which is in her brother's house but something happened and they went back to the house with their shopping bags.
While the Papins sister is still busy doing some errand, one of them went ouside to go to the repair shop and get the iron. One of their work was to iron the clothes of the Lancelins, once they plugged the iron suddenly the fuse blew. And because they have no knowledge in repairing it they just decided to wait until morning to look for it as long as the Lancelins would not return home.
They didn't know that Léonie and Geneviève wa on their home and will arrive anytime soon. And when they arrive they tell them about the iron, that it was broken and the the electricity was out because of the fuse blew. This made Léonie angry and rampant of rage.
Christine maybe feel mad too because of the reaction of Leonie, she then get a pewter jug and then she use it into Leonie's head Christine smash her. Geneviève saw what Christine did to her mother that's why she immediately come to her and also attack Christine. This made Christine mad more and they say that Christine shout this "I am going to massacre them!!!"
Lea heard Christine shouting amd rushed from the attic and also join to Christine and attacked Leonie. Christine still shouting "Smash Leonie's head into the ground and tear her eyes." Lea did what Christine said while Christine move closer to Geneviève also to gauge her eyes into her face.
Leaving the mother and daughter without their eyey and because of it they can't do anything to defend themselves. Lea and Christine get a hammer, a knife and a pewter pot and use it to Leonie and Geneviève that killed them. After killing them they remove the clothes of the two and then cut their buttocks and thighs. And after cutting them Geneviève that time has her menstruation and use it amd basted it into Leonie.
After the murder the two clean themselves and hide in their room. But before doing it they locked every door first in the house and after that they went back to their room and lit a candle and waited for what about to come.
Rene who was waiting in Leonie's brother house returned home with his friend after his wife and daughter didn't show up for dinner. And he was surprised when he return home and the house was locked with the lights off. He immediately contacted a police and force the door to open.
And when the door was finally unlocked they found the two sisters in their bed, lying in their birth suit . They confess to their crime that it was a double murder but they also claimed that is was self defense and Christine said "It was her or us." While Lea on the other hand told the police that she will be deaf and dumb from now on.
📎Trial
After a number of trial the court convicted the two sister as sane and guilty and Christine Papin was sentence to death while Lea Papin get a lighter sentence and considered as accomplice. Christine Papin was executed with guillotine year 1933, September 30 at Le Mans. While Lea get a hard labor for 10 years.
And while Christine Papin was waiting for her execution she became unstable and tried to gauge her own eyes. Because of what happened they put a straitjacket into her to prevent her from injuring her self. But she still find a way to kill herself, she starved herself and year 1937 she finally say goodbye to the world.
And Lea Papin after spending her sentence for eight in the prison and also because of her goos behavior year 1941 she was finally released. After her released she went home in her mother and lived with her quietly under different name.
We don't really know the real story regarding the murder of the Lancelins and only the Papin Sister who knows what's really happen. It can be they are really defended their self or they really intended doing it because of the treatment of the family with the two sister. But whatever the reason is we can't be the judge here and just call them names. Only God can do that because he's watching us.
Sources:
Lead Image
https://allthatsinteresting.com/papin-sisters
Information
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christine_and_L%C3%A9a_Papin
"The Otaku Murderer" - Tsutomu Miyazaki
**Tsutomu Miyazaki** a japanese man in his 20's was branded as a Serial Killer in Tokyo and Saitama Prefecture after murdering 4 little girls age between 4to 7 year old, but the murder didn't stop there because he also committed necrophile (sexual intercourse of a corpse), cannibal (eating human flesh), vampirism (drink blood to his victims) and rape to his victims.
Tsutomu Miyazaki was a member of a wealthy family. He was born Itsukaichi, Tokyo year 1962 August 21 and the eldest. Because Miyazaki was born premature he had a birth defect that preventing him from bending his wrist upward, that said his joints was fused together. Their family was well known figures in Itsukaichi aside from his great grandparent and grandparent history of serving this town as council they also owned company, a regional newspaper.
Miyazaki was raised by his grandparent and a nanny which is a man because his parents was busy managing their company. He studied in Itsukaichi Elementary school, but his experience in his school was not that good because of his experience in bullying, but instead of telling to his family he just he just kept to his self this maybe one of the reason of his crime that was about to take place in the next paragraph.
High School, he is a star students in Meidai Nakano High because of his good grades, this school was also one of a prestigious school and was connected in Meiji University. But him being a star student didn't last long because his grades suddenly drop for unknown reason and out of 56 students his rank drop to 40. This affected his plan in attending Meiji University and become a teacher. He didn't receive a customary admission that's why he decided to attend i local College and take photography technician.
Year 1980, Miyazaki decided to move into Itsukaichi in his parents house just close to his father printing shop, he is sharing to with his sister. In Miyazaki's mind he has no interest in his family business even if it can make him a well known figures in Itsukaichi there's no way he'll take over his fathers job.
Miyazaki is experiencing depression and he only wants his family to listen to him, even his sisters won't listen to him and the only person he is close is his grandfather. And when his grandfather die year 1988 May, his depression become severe and isolated his self from others even his own family. Miyazaki even eat some ashes of his grandfather as he wants a keepsake from his grandfather.
A week after his grandfather, he decided to peek at his sister while she was bathing. But he was caught and was told to leave but instead of leaving, he attacked his sister instead. And when their mother learned about of what happened, he was given an earful saying instead of spending time with his videos he should work more, and because of this he also attack his mother.
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The Murder take place between year 1988 and 1989. And the Saitama Prefecture which has very few cases of which a victims was children was shocked when this happened.
**1.) Mari Konno** - a 4 year old kid, she vanishes like a thin air while on her friend house playing. It happened year 1988, August 22. Konno's fathers continue looking of her but failed and that when his father decided to call the police. Little did they know, Konno was already in the hand of Miyazaki who was abducted Konno and brought into his car a black Nissan. He drive the car westward od Tokyo and then stopped in a wooded area that was under the bridge.
He wait half hour before murdering Konno, after killing her he still had sexual intercourse to her corpse and them dispose Konno's body in a hills just close to his home and then leave with Konno's clothes. No one discovered Konno's body even if her body was already decompose. Because Miyazaki later return to where Konno's body and then cut her hands and feet and hide it in his closet.
He again had sexual intercourse with Konno's lifeless body. After it he also burned the remaining bones of Konno's body and then ground them and even send it to her family like he is taunting them. In a box, together with her teeth and clothes and then a postcard saying;
**2.) Masami Yoshizawa** - a 7 year old kid who was abducted year 1988, October 3. Yoshizawa was spotted by Miyazaki while he was driving in a rural road. What he did to lure Yoshizawa was offering her a ride which Yoshizawa accepted without thinking much. Yoshizawa was brought in the same place where Konno was killed. And did what he did to Konno, killed, sexual intercourse with the corpse and also remove the clothes and bring it with him and then leave.
**3.) Erika Namba** - she was abducted on December 12 the same year. She was also a 4 year old kid who was after playing with friends was about to return home. He was spotted by Miyazaki sadly and was forced to get in his car and then drive and arrive in Naguri Saitama. He forced Namba to remove her clothes and rook a picture of her while in the back seat. He killed Namba after doing it he tied her hand and feet, he cover her body using a bed sheet and then put the lifeless body of the kids in his car's trunk. Miyazaki drive the car and then when a wooded area was spotted he dispose her clothe there. And then in a parking lot, he also leave Namba's body there. After 3 days Namba's body was discovered and then December 20 they receive a postcard with a message that word was obviously cut out in a magazine saying:
**4.) Ayako Nomoto** - a 5 year old kid who was lured by Miyazaki. Year 1989, June 06 spotted the 5 year old kid and convince the little girl to take a picture of her. The girl was easily convinced and then led into his car where he murdered Nomoto. He also covered the body with a bed sheet and then placed the body in the trunk od his car. He then brought her body in his apartment and spent 2 days with it doing necrophile. Taking pictures of the corpse with different position and also filmed it. Miyazaki decided to cut Nomoto's corpse because it is starting to decompose. He leave the torso part of Nomoto's body in cemetery while the head was on the hills close to his apartment. While the other parts, hands was kept he also drink her blood and then eat some part of her body. But he returned to where he disposed some parts or Nomoto's body thinking that it become the lead of his crime, he hide them in his closet.
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There are no crimes that cannot be discover. Even if it been ages since it happened, I'm sure someone will still discover this kind of crime.
Miyazaki's crime was discovered and it bring panic to otaku world. He was apprehended year 1989 July 23 month after his las kill. And year 1990, March 30 his trial began. After the trial he was sentenced to death year 1997, April 14. He was hanged year 2008, June 17 at Tokyo Detention House.
⚠️H • A • R • U • K • A _ H • I • M • E⚠️
Sources:
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tsutomu_Miyazaki
Lead Image
https://allthatsinteresting.com/tsutomu-miyazaki
2021, A better year or Another disastrous Year
When I was a child all I want is to be able to spend every holidays with my family. As in complete, even if some of the is a far from home they will still take time just to spend their Christmas and New Years with us. Who wouldn't want a complete family when celebrating a very important day of our lives right.
Eat together, sing together and dance together. A happy family and a complete family. With sisters and brothers, with uncles and aunties, grandma and grandpa with cousins and all the relatives we know. And the famous line we know say "The more the merrier" is what I believe. It's not happy anymore if the one you always with every Christmas is gone or absent. Especially if you are used to that.
But last year, 2020 it's impossible to do that all. To be complete and no one is absent. This Pandemic that we are experiencing now has really a big impact to our lives. I hate this year, I hate this Pandemic coz because of this we can't be together with our relatives. Off course we are afraid that while traveling they get that virus, we don't want that. That's why we said, we can celebrates it next year which is 2021.
The happy dance, sing a song together and eating with them, we need to postpone it all. For our own safety, for their own safety. We don't want to spend christmas and new year in the hospital so we have no choice but to obey it. I miss my cousins, we just contacted them via Messenger thru video call. Even in that way, we still happy to spend it with them.
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I wish this year is different, I wish no more pandemic that stopping us from enjoying it. No more disaster that may affect not just our mind but also our houses. Because this New Year I am hoping that this year is our New Beginning for a safe and prosperous years.
No more tragedy, no more hopeless day. I just want everything to go back to normal. I want our happiness, I want our freedom back. For this to happen, let's pray hard and ask him for his guidance, I know we can all make it. This year is a better year, let's put that in our mind and hope for the recovery of our own land to the other land.
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HAPPY NEW YEAR, may we have a blessed and happy new year, from me to you, your family and your special someone.
LOVE, let's spread love, kindness and understanding to everyone especially those who need it.
HEALTHY MIND AND BODY, may we have a healthy mind without thinking anything. Just the happy us and the happiness that we can give to everyone.
HAPPY THOUGHT, don't think too much just think of the joy that your family gives to you.
Just a thought......
When you are in a relationship seems like everything was perfect. You are full of love and doesn't have problems. Even if you have problems you don't think of it that much because in your mind nothing's beat the happiness that you are feeling, right now.
You have a light of thinking, never occur in your mind that you'll be heartbroken someday. Because, who in their right mind will think negatively when it comes to relationship right? Especially when your heart was filled with so much love and positive view in life.
That's why people get depressed when they experience a heartbreak right? Coz they think their love will last until forever, it is strong and any problem you'll face will be solved together. Without thinking that someday they will face the same problem that others experience.
You all know that even if you are married and you started with so much love, there still a day where you will feel suffocated in that relationship. Especially if that relationship was on the safe side, you know it's like perfect. They never fight or had a quarrel, in relationship quarrel between lovers is normal. It's only mean one thing, that you love each other.
There is no perfect relationship, but even if you experience that pain, I hope you recover from it and then find someone again that you will feel love again. Don't be afraid to try having a relationship again, if you have moved on, then remember, love is not bad at all.
This may leave some scars, but it will also leave some learnings to you. Think of it as a lesson that make you stronger. With a mindset that "I experience worst than this but I'm still alive and strong, so no one can make me ever feel down anymore!"
With that in mind, you'll be more stronger that every problems or even another heartbreak will never make you depressed. You will fight for it and in the end you will have your own version of happily ever after.
Find your love until your destiny finally arrived.
I noticed that my comment was not automatically moved as spam na. I am so happy that I want to dance a happy song, how about Macarena? I wish that @TheRandomRewarder will notice me now I miss him so much, did you miss me too bot?
It's been a week I think since I last post my article here. I even unpublish my recent article coz I think I am receiving a downvote or unlike. What's wrong with them targeting me. I'm not doing bad things here that against the rules of read.cash.
Anyway, I miss writing an article here. I just feel discouraged when I notice that my comment was mark as spam but now I think I will continue it now. I just really hope that he will notice this.
Thanks.
I see, my comment was still automatically moved as spam, how many days do you think this will last guys? Weeks or months? I wish everything go back to normal na 😣
Small or Big, Achievement is Achievement
"***Celebrate every achievement you achieved, small or big an achievement is still achievement that is worth to celebrate.***"
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I can't remember if when exactly did I join here in read.cash, but i my profile I am now 1 month user here. Being here is one of the best thing that ever happen to me since my Mom gave birth of me.
My time here is so worth it, I am so thankful I discovered this site. Because of this I get to earn a bucks which is used and helped us in so many ways. Being here is a gift, maybe it's my fate that I discovered read.cash.
I am sure you are wondering why I am blabbing here so much such nonsense or what I'm talking. This one is important to me because in my 1 month stay here, I gained 20 subscribers and now a views on my articles which is..
I don't have that much of a subscriber compared to other user here, off course they are older user here while me is just a months old so it's obvious. I started writing stories, a kind of morbid stories it's all fiction and I love it when some comment on my article. But I stop writing a story because I only have few readers and so I switch into True Crime Story which happened way before I was conceived.
I started searching a Crime Story in Google and found a lot of stories about it. There I found out those unimaginable thing that can happen to a human. Their victims to ne specific, their way of killings are so brutal, unhuman and bloody. Some even commit their crime at young age, I discovered a lot in google and I shared it here. But off course I am not just copy pasting those article. I used my own word in explaining it, like I am just telling a story. I type it all from the top and put all the sites or references where I get all those information.
If you are one of my subscriber you will know those story I shared and those crime stories that happened a long time ago. If you think that getting information in google was more easy to write , then you thought wrong. Because I spent an hours just to type those article, not just 1 hour but more. It's more easy to write a story than doing that rewriting. It's easy to write when it came from your mind that when it comes from those with references.
And I am so happy because the @TheRandomRewarder noticed my article, I get tip everytime I published one that's why I was inspired and so excited to write article everytime even if editing is so hard. I hate my keyboard cos I always have a typographical error, I wish I have a laptop.
Anyway, I was so happy with that achievement and I just want to share my happiness to you, I hope you don't mind. I wish to have more views but I can't write right now, seems like **@TheRandomRewarder** is mad at me coz my latest article didn't received any tips, also all of my comment was moved automatically as a spam. I don't know what to do so I will just wait until evwrything's okay. I wish everything go back to normal.
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Good Luck to me and to you, more article to come and may the Bot notice me again.
*********All of the Photo that used was from Unsplash*********
As a Mother
I am just crying while watching my daughter fighting for her life. If only I can switch with her I will, I will be in her place just to stop her suffering now.
Being a mother is really hard. Especially if you have no one beside you. I don't have someone to lean on. If only I know who is the father of my child.
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I was 18 when I got pregnant. I only have a mother who is always busy with her own life. If you did'nt see her in our house i'm sure she's just with her friends, with their boy toy.
As a child who is always seeking for attention of a mother, but can't get it because she doesn't care. All i can do is find it to someone else. Yes, I become rebellious and I do anything just to make her notice me. But sad to say, I get nothing.
So I just continue doing it and just go with the flow with my so called friends. They introduce to me anything that can make me forget my loneliness. They are just like me, attention seeker.
Alcohol, drugs, smoke, party all night and anything that can make a person high. But I still stop myself when I think I can't take anymore, I know when to stop. I started when I was 16, and my Mom? Still the same as ever, she never care.
I meet different people while doing this. Different stories and different baggage of their own. Being rebellious is not always because we are a brat, it's because we have problems and this is the only solutions we have.
Thinking all of it will just make my mind crazy so I'll just do this. I have the right to do this right? This the only thing that I can think off to stop thinking and stop caring for my Mom.
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The sound of a beeping machine stopped Allison from going down memory lane. She immediately stand up when he heard it.
"W-what's going on? She stopped the doctor that is about to go inside the room but she was ignored.
"Oh God, please please, not my Baby she's the only one I have please! She can't do anything but to cry and pray and wait for them while attending to my baby
Her tears won't stop and she was helpless and hurt as she watch her baby fighting for her life. "Please!!!!!!"
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One time, it was my friends birthday. She was having a party and we are all invited. Off course I came, it's a free drink so I can't really say No to her. I am thankful to her because she's really good to me. And I can spend to their place because her parents are always flying into somewhere for their business trip.
The party started at 8pm, booze all over the place. Some are busy dancing and some are having the time of their life. I was just on the corner sipping my drink, I suddenly feel lazy to drink more so she just watch everyone doing their things. She was pacing out when suddenly someone covered her vision of view. And as he look up, he saw someone she doesn't know.
"What do you want?"
"Hi, I'm Luke by the way." He move his hands to her but she didn't accept it.
"That's not my question!"
"What if I say, I want you?"
"Pissed off!"
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It's saddening my comment was moved automatically as spam. I can't write an article coz it might just be ignored by the bot. 😞
I always post an article, I sometimes interact with other user that's why I can't understand why my comment was marked as spam. Did I do something wrong 😥 I want to end this year with so much happiness but I think it won't happen anymore, do you think this is the reason why I'm not getting any tip? 😥
But anyway, Happy New Year everyone let's be safe.
A Change for a better Future
I always used COINS.PH as my receiving wallet here in read.cash, I can send my money there and then CASH IT OUT in our local money remittances that's closed to my place. I don't have stable job, I just rely on my Mom's pocket that she's getting in her small business.
We sometimes run out of money, and some necessities but still, we just move forward and continue living. We, or I never thought even for just one second to kill myself even if sometime we don't have anything on our table, I don't have a suicidal tendency because in my mind "Why would I end my life, if I can still see good thing here in the world."
Amidst all what's happening now in our world I never ever thought of doing bad things just to put some foods in our table. That's why, I am so thankful in this site, this READ.CASH because of it I can have some extra money to used in buying foods and necessities that needed.
In my month of staying here I earned a total of $109.16 or 5243.01 in Philippine peso. I'm sure this amount is small to others but to me who has nothing and doesn't have job as of the moment because of pandemic this small amount is a very big help and we can put foods in our stomach.
But right now, because I'm reading a lot about bitcoin.com where they say they can gain profit when the price of BCH rise, am I right experts? Right now I am using bitcoin.com wallet because of the good feedback that bitcoin.com has and still getting. I actually started yesterday so the tip that I earned from the bot was transfered there.
And so far I'm enjoying it, I mean it's amazing how fast this wallet when sending BCH from read.cash. I actually didn't wait for an hours like 3 to 5 hours, in coins.ph I always feel that the money I send won't arrive on my coins.ph wallet because it's too slow. I feel like anything can happen in my money, I have so much of "what if."
So, from here on I will try holding my earning of BCH in bitcoin.com and then wait for it to gain profit, I hope what I'm doing is right. Because most of my earnings was already cashed out, in fact I send another 1080 pesos in LBC and will use that to buy fruits and foods for New Years Eve. I will prepare spaghetti and one dish, in the grocery here just a walk from here they are selling those "Tipid Pack" for spaghetti with Pasta and Sauce and we can just buy the ingredients and then done.
So back to me holding bch, I will start sending my money in bitcoin.com and hold it. If ever I need money I can just send it again in my coins.ph wallet to withdraw it. I just hope that the bot will still tip my article. If you notice, if before I post article here for like 3 days or 4 days after the one I published, I post an article here everyday now. Because we need money and good thing is, the bot still like my article, I wish this continue until next next day.
Remember, lack of money can't be your reason to commit crime or to commit suicide. If you can still avoid doing that then avoid it, think of your family first don't just think of yourself. You're not on your own pal, even if there's no one in your side now, just look up at the sky and there you will see that this world is so beautiful to leave just like that.
HAPPY NEW YEAR AND WISH YOU ALL THE BEST
Spirits of Christmas
Hours from now, all of the People in this World will reunite and celebrate the birth of our Creator Jesus Christ. I want to take this opportunity to great you a MERRY CHRISTMAS. May you have a blast today.
Let's forget our problem for this day and enjoy this moment. Let's celebrate it with our Family, Relatives, Special Someone or a Friends and off course, with our Lord Jesus Christ.
Let's not fight today, forget those petty quarrel with your Boyfriend / Girlfriend and just make love, this is a good day to make love and make babies.
Let's stop the greediness and help those less fortunate. Shower them with kindness and give them foods. Food that can fill their stomach.
Even if we don't have a grandiose celebration, even if we don't have the grand feast or even if we have nothing in our table, as long as we are with our family and the spirit of Christmas is in our heart, it will still feel complete. Our Christmas Yes!
Once again, MERRY CHRISTMAS and may the LORD BE WITH US. 🎊☃️🎄🎄🎁🎉
Mama, Papa Am I your child?
I am living with a lie
I feel I have no one wish I die
Messy life, always down
Still fighting, tho it's hard
But light of hope is soon be gone
My existence was a lie
I heard them talk they didn't know
I am crying,
But still their voice
Is echoing over and over
Do you think I was loved?
No! Because I was never theirs
The mother I know is not my Mama
The father I know is not my Papa
Now I know why am always excluded
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I want to feel loved even for once Mama, Papa. Can you make this child's selfish wish come true? Even if I am not from your blood.
Do you know I'm always crying because of how my known siblings treat me? They taunt me, laugh at me without reasons, whispering like I am not near to them. But it's okay, as long as I know that you love me, am okay with it.
But my wish was never heard. Because I was not theirs. I am not their blood, I am just me, all alone, crying begging that even for once, I get their love.
I am thinking of a solution if how they will notice me. Am sure they will notice me now. Am sure I will finally be loved. Am sure they will look at me as their blood.
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Mama Mama, Papa Papa!!! Can you love me now? Can you treat me as your child now? Am your blood now?
I don't know why ther were looking me like that. They are not smiling and I think I did something wrong.
They are not moving, but their eyes become bigger. It's as if I eat their fav'rit cat, but off course I did not
Mama, Papa why? Did I do something wrong? Am your blood now, we can be a happy family now right?
I move closer to Mama, but he push me. I hug my Papa but he shove me. And that's were I know, I really did something bad.
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I feel scared
They are crying
I do nothing
I just watch them
And my tears start to pour
I can't get their love
Is something wrong with me
Maybe I need to die first
Maybe they will love me if I die
They will be happy, but I'm gone
I blink my eyes
I let myself cry
I wipe my tears
It stop now
I can end it now
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I look at the knife in my hand. It has a lot of blood. I do everything but I never get what I want. So I better stop it now. I gaze at them, I smiled but they were crying. Even in my death, they won't give me their love or even just their smile. They are pouring all of their emotions in crying. I wish they will cry at me like that in my coffin.
I smiled, I hold the knife. And before I struck the knife in my neck, I look at them first lovingly -- and as my eyes is closing while my blood is bursting. I saw them held my little brothers head, unaattached to his body, pale as if the blood was sipped from his body.
Mama, Papa
11/16/2020 9:47pm
I am not a devil, I just love doing it
I fear of becoming a devil myself, I am a daughter of a killer. He's not just your ordinary killer, the way he killed is beyond your imagination. Everytime he has a new victim, he will bring it to our basement and that's where he will torture the victim.
Our house is very far from the others, you won't see any house in our surroundings. We are hidden, so no one will know if we killed someone here.
I never tried to kill someone yet. He's waiting until I became 18, I don't know what I'll really feel about it but I want to be afraid of that day when it comes.
He norture me until I learned how to hold a knife, ax, a gun, ice pick, kunai, archer and spear, and become an expert on using it. I am not using it to a person but I am practicing using animals. A dogs, a cat, a pig, a venomous snake and any animals that you know.
I haven't tried it to a human but I'm sure that is soon to come. I am really afraid but, the look from my father the way he cut a human bodies is so jovial. And I think, I can't wait to that day to come. Yes I am afraid but I am also looking for it.
I still remember when I first lost my virginity I was 15. I ask my father if the pain I feel are the same with his victim's feeling when his cutting them. And he said "No, they won't scream everytime I cut them if it's like in this little pain that you are feeling now." I just look at him, he's above me, I am looking at him and his doing his things.
Well I counldn't agree more because after the pain, all that is left is the delicious feelings everytime he will thrust his harderned lenght to mine. It is just a one time pain, while those victim, it will hunt them even in hell, the agony, the torment it will all pleasureable to my father. "Ahhh, this is not pain at all father this is heaven!" I was
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5 days before my birthday.
Finally I will just need to wait for 5 days, I am so excited that I'm trembling.
I am ready, the hunt will begin at dawn. I am so lucky because this season there are so many people that is hiking to the forest. And I will kill them one by one. I will use all the weapon I have. But my main weopon is a dagger. I want to feel how is it when I stab them in the throat.
I like the throat, I often saw my father doing it to his victim. The blood bursting into his face, once he thrust his ice pick. He will stab it until it reach into the back of their neck and they will all scream to pain. 5 ice pick into their neck attached while the blood is flowing down to the body.
The expression my father's making is making me cum. And I will come into her while undressing my clothes and he will dip his hand into their blood and he will smudge it into my body while thrusting me from my behind. I can't wait to do it again and this time, the blood of MY victim will be used.
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A nightmare, if only
November 12,
I was just looking on my Mom's face, she's still beautiful as ever. She's preparing my food to eat before I go to University. They say I really look like here especially the eyes. As I'm looking at her I tell to myself, "I will save you from your husband of devil!"
When she looks at me, I was all smile because I dont want her to see the miserable me, that is caused by his husband. I was all smile but my smile disappear when open her mouth.
"Baby, I need to be away for 1 month, I need to stay there because of work. I'm sure I can leave you here with your Daddy right?"
My face become pale because of what I heard. I can't say anything, my eyes just grow bigger and my lips trembled and I feel like vomiting.
This is just a joke, I'm sure I just heard it wrong. No!!!! This is not happening. "Mom, I want to go with you, bond with you and please can I come with you?" I'm pleading at here like my life was dependent on it.
But it's really dependent on it, I don't want to be leave alone here with that devil. I'd rather sleep on the street that be with him. I'm sure he will just used me until he was satisfied with his pervy things.
"No baby, you have school, so you can't even if I want to, and not argument okay."
I'm doom, this will be another nightmare.
I want to get my things and go to place that is far from him, everywhere as long as no Him.
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My Mom leave just this morning, she really leaves me with my father of a devil. No he's not my father, there's now way he will be my father because he is devil.
I was startled when the knob suddenly move, someone is forcing to open my door. I just crawled in the corner of my bed waiting for whatever may come.
And then the door open, his face smirking like he had won a million dollars in a lottery. And I was just eyeing him, waiting, trembling and crying.
He walk closer to me and caressing my hair, he even touch my ears pervertly. "Don't cry baby, we're just two here you can cry anytime you want that will make me more arouse for you." The devil ravish my mouth, I feel like he wants to eat it.
He's forcing me to open my mouth but it won't budge, never. But he grab my hair and I just groan because of pain. And that's where he move his tongue to my mouth. It's like he's sucking my breath and he want me to die from suffocation. I was gasping when he stop from ravishing me I was piercely looking at him.
I was caught off guard when he suddenly throw a paper bag to my face. I just look at it and I was about to throw it into his balls when he speak.
"I want you to wear that, and when I call you downstairs you will go down, if you don't obey it. I will do something and you won't really like it." And he leaves like nothing happened.
I was still gasping for air because of the intense feeling i am feeling, frightened and wanting to fight but can't do because I'm afraid.
And that's where I heard the sound of a car parking in front of our house. I stand fast to look at it and that's where I saw my father welcoming his visitor which is all man. And then I look to the paper bag that he throw to me, I open it and look what's inside, a skimpy dress with a white and red design just like of a nurse and a nurse cup.
My tears fall down as I saw it all, I know now what's gomma happen but I wont't ket it happen, never. I get the knife that I hid in my bed and struck it on the side of my neck. The blood rushing it to flow and the pain...
Ahhh, I can't feel the pain. I ended it and I am happy.
Fight Back...
November 10,
I get a knife in the kitchen, firmly holding it like my life was depended on it. Today, I got the courage to fight, I will not forever be hopeless. If I want to stop this I need to brawl.
I carefully hid the knife under my pillows, where he won't discern it. I need to do this, I have the right to do it. Because id I don't do it, he will forever wreck me, until I gave up my life.
The clock is ticking, any moment now he will be crawling in my bed. I need to be wide awake, I won't blink a bit, I want to see his demon face, once I wallop the knife and his blood flows.
I plan to stab him 10 times, compare to the number he do me, it is nothing. But I want to see his face impair written in his demonic face. It's payback time, I will let him experience the pain I felt whenever.
I'm ready to be swallowed by darkness, ready for the outturn. I won't held back anymore, I had enough. I will do to you what you did to me. I am shaking yes, but not because of petrified, but because....
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"I'm living with the nightmare,"
I was looking at him while he is thrusting aimlessly. Pleasure written all over his face, I am hurting but it is nothing to him. He's nothing but a pig, I'm crying from agony, I'm... Will I be ever able to fight back? Just how long will this suffering will last, I can't take it anymore. I want to end it....
Living Dead
Is it really worth it to live? Even if you have so many problems in your life?
You didn't even resolve this one problem, and there is another one.
One problem after another, it's okay if you have someone you can hold on.
But what if you do not have? Is it really worth it?
I want to be a rain, so that I can all have the reason to cry.
Pour every feeling I have inside, heartache, lonelines in sight.
Rain rain rain, I want to be a rain. Drops every bitterness I have.
And leave without a trace. As if you didn't exist.
I am a Living Dead.
A change for the worse
November 09,
I am once a happy kid, I smile a lot, I play a lot, I have a lot of friends and I am getting a long with them.
I started to change when that monster came into our life.
He's a monster, worse than Satan. I hate him, I wish he die in a worse possible way too.
I am planning to kill him, I want him to suffer, but I am just me. I can't do anything so will I just leave him?
No!!! I want him to suffer, how can I make him suffer?
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Every night, when Mom's asleep. He will go to my room, removed my blanket and touch me everywhere.
I will just cry because he will kill mom. His dirty hand, his dirty hands is all over my body. I can still feel it, it's disgusting!! I want him to suffer! Will you make him suffer.?
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That day, he successfully stain my purity. I ended up crying all night. I feel like breaking, my body is aching my life is now changing...
Not for the better
But for worse.
@Haruka_Hime
