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4 years ago

The color of my heart is black, it was burnt to black by you who possessed that shining gold smile. Yes, your smile might be gold but your words were always so cold, so cold that every time I remember them, chills run down my spine and the only way to ease myself is to see red. Red on the wall, red on glass, red on my hands

“Really, why am I like this?”

I couldn’t even remember a time when I was happy. It just seemed like every day was filled with nothing but hardships and temptations and the days only got worse when I met you. Yes, those moments with you… I could not think of a single word to describe my moments with you. I could not even grasp your concept of such love since to me, there is no such thing as love. Since all my life, All I saw was ha hared is definitely what you should call love. Hope is the parent of disappointments and despair, and that misunderstandings only bring pain. So you trying to understand me is a misunderstanding in itself since I don’t even understand myself.

There you go again, showing off your red lips that has only told me nothing but red lies. People really are cunning… so cunning that their forced smiles make them look like they are really happy. But in reality, it only makes them become delusional. So delusional ha when you try to put the colors together, they just don’t mesh anymore.

I sometimes feel that you wanting me is just all in your head. I mean, with your wanting, it seems as though you’re slowly becoming like me… This might be karma chasing after me again but I can’t bear you becoming like me so I might sing of us breaking up. This is my first and last confession to you; goodbye.

Although right now, I may not show any feelings in this goodbye, I might actually regret it. I might actually miss you. I might actually admit that at some point in this relationship, I loved you enough to figure out that you being with me was a mistake so I had to let you go. Someday.. when I’m at the edge of my sadness and loneliness. I just might. Someday. But until that someday comes, I will just return to where I came from, back to my black world. The world before you came.

As I watch you retreating figure, I’ve come to realize that the shadows on my face were all created from the light I called you. And now that light has disappeared once more. I am left in nothing but black. I hope you find someone better than me since I am just “a bastard who never knew how to love”

 #Sad_Vibes

And so, I pull out another entry from my old writing journal.

I wonder if people would enjoy reading a few other stories I have there

 

 

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As I watch you retreating figure, I’ve come to realize that the shadows on my face were all created from the light

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4 years ago

Wow this is inspiring

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4 years ago

I wonder how it's inspiring

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4 years ago

I'm inspired cause I feel the passion in this article

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4 years ago

Passion of being foreign to love or having admitted to have loved someone in the end?

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4 years ago

Passion of being foreign to love

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4 years ago

I'm happy you saw that ^-^ thank you

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4 years ago

That's why I told you to leave your boyfriend🙄🙄 Look how hurt you are now. You definitely need someone like me🙄🙄 kidding🤣🤣🤣

I am meaning to read all your articles but sadly it takes lot of time to reply to all the comment on my article. I will definitey find some time to read all of them😓😓 they are sooo big and nerd vibe come from them..why can't you be a little lite. Always deep...soooo deep..

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4 years ago

This was like from 2014, man- i didn't even know my boyfriend back then 😂😂😂

Sorryyyy I grew up with nerd internet friends that write more extremely than I do so tbh. I'm not even sure if this is super nerdy already or just so-so

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4 years ago

It's nerdly....deeeeppppp....I bet you wear glasses and look like nerd too😑😑

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4 years ago

https://read.cash/@Hanzell/timed-sketching-7f956499

You tell me 😂😂😂 though I've already lost a bit of weight again

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4 years ago

Being in a relationship with the right person will bring sunshine and colors to your life but if you are in a relationship with a wrong person and become in despair this will probably the color of your life "black". I once loved black, my world is black not because I love the wrong person but because my mom doesn't want in the beginning.

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4 years ago

It's different though when someone forces their way into a relationship in hopes of teaching you love. That's where this came from. But why didn't your mom like in the beginning?

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4 years ago

She doesn't want me, she doesn't want my existence. She thought I was the reason of her misery. But good thing we are okay now and in good term.

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4 years ago

I can empathize because of the same situation with my father but it's good that you've at least gotten on equal terms with your mom. I hope your relationship with her gets better though

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4 years ago

Yeah, at least we did not cut ties because of the things that happened on the past, that would be the saddest part of parents and child relationship. I am still thankful we are doing good now. I hope you too with your father.

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4 years ago

Oh, I've cut ties with my father. More like he started to do so and i did the finishing blow. He was toxic and i didn't need any more strain on my already bad mental health

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4 years ago

Oh, sorry to hear that. Actually, we are the same I don't have a father too he left my mom when she got pregnant that's why mom doesn't want me at first, she blames me for all the misery she had. So I cannot empathize or don't know how to console you with words because I myself don't know how it feels to have a father. I also don't have the interest to look for him, like why should I? he left me in the first place.

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4 years ago

I can see why the tragedy but it feels like not having a fater figure was better than partially having one? Because by the time i was in college, we never really talked anymore, we became strangers then eventually he also left and left so many of his unfinished obligations behind

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4 years ago

Yeah, it's better to let go or let that toxic person in your life doesn't help you to grow but gives you more misery.

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4 years ago

Wowvut looks like poem That's creative

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4 years ago

Thank you so much, i appreciate the comment

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4 years ago

Nice article...subscribe done plz subscribe me dear..?😍

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4 years ago

Okay

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4 years ago

😍😍

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4 years ago

My heart is black too. ❤

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4 years ago

Aww how did it turn black?

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4 years ago

Why do I feel like someone wrote my thoughts?

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4 years ago

Was it that accurate? These were based off a song I liked and a personal experience though

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4 years ago

yeah and its amazing how you put all of these feelings into words. No matter how many times I read this, every line reminds of something and someone ackk

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4 years ago

Omg don't remember that someone- abort mission and think happy thoughts! That person doesn't deserve to be remembered

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4 years ago

Trueee but really you're a good writer. I love it how you made me relate with your own experience

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4 years ago

I wonder if the rest of my writings could make you feel the same emotions 😂 yours really usually have a lighter tone so the emotions don't come across to me enough

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4 years ago

Is that so? I actually don't know how to assess my own writings hahaha

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4 years ago

I've been judging my friends' writing for years so i can tell as much already and that's what i get from your writings

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4 years ago

Maybe I could also learn from you

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4 years ago

I wouldn't mind that, i already follow some of your writings anyways 😂

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4 years ago

Great. I'm also happy to have a valuable and honest commenter to my articles. Thanks!

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4 years ago

😂😂😂 now there's no more reason for me to be shy about commenting

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4 years ago

Oh hahaha you don't have to be shy, I'd rather read some constructive criticisms on my articles or hear some other perspective rather than the 'thank you, nice work and keep it up'

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4 years ago

I'm shy because I'm way too straightforward with how i comment 😂 already got blocked because of that before

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4 years ago

Geez don't worry I won't take your comments personally rather I'll use it as a tool to improve my writing skills and hopefully to have a wider and deeper understanding. Just be yourself and I'll also be honest with what I actually think and feel, is that cool?

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4 years ago

That would be really cool. I also need someone who would correct me since my friends are way too busy now to go through the things i used to write about

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4 years ago

Oh about that I'm afraid I won't be able to come by here often when our classes officially starts. But I'll still try to give time. Let's help each other grow. Anw, I've checked your link twitter acc but it says that the account does not exist lol

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4 years ago

That's perfectly understandable since you need those classes, after all. I'll just be here since I'm still waiting for my diploma.

Ahh i keep forgetting to update that but I'm so lazy to use Twitter so i probably won't look through Twitter messages anyways

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4 years ago

Woaaah great I wish I'd finish my bachelors on time too uwu

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4 years ago

I wish you the best of luck then. Hooe you can find work asap after too ;-;

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4 years ago

Waah thanks, also rc is a great help. You know writing while earning uwu

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4 years ago

You can still keep rc as long as it's still around by that time

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4 years ago

Hoping for that too

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4 years ago

Wow.such a great writing. I was about to ask you if it's for real. Then the last part answered my question, oh so it's just from your old writimg journal. Haha

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4 years ago

It was partly true, partly from a song I liked but then my light vanished completely because of reasons

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4 years ago

Oh.. a good listener has a good interpretation with the song...esp if you will really feel the meaning of it... to the point that you can make story out of it..

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4 years ago

Look for the song black by g dragon . https://youtu.be/kuUt1dll8lQ That's where I based this off. I got the one with the English translation

And songs are initially stories to begin with? They just vary based on how people see it. I had more but they're mostly too sad to think about posting here

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4 years ago

Sure.. i love listening to music. It's my stress reliever

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4 years ago

Was thinking of turning this idea into a challenge all of a sudden 😂

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4 years ago

Haha..I'll bet on that..

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4 years ago

Write pronpts based on your favorite songs

Anyways, did you like the song?

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4 years ago

Later pglaabas ko.. d pwd gumamit headset sa work. 😅

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4 years ago

Ohh nasa work ka pa pala 😅😅😅

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4 years ago

Oo.. maya before matulog nlng..haha.. pakinggan ko yun..na intriga ako sa article mo..haha

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