@Hanzell
Black
The color of my heart is black, it was burnt to black by you who possessed that shining gold smile. Yes, your smile might be gold but your words were always so cold, so cold that every time I remember them, chills run down my spine and the only way to ease myself is to see red. Red on the wall, red on glass, red on my hands “Really, why am I like this?” I couldn’t even remember a time when I was happy. It just seemed like every day was filled with nothing but hardships and temptations and the days only got worse when I met you. Yes, those moments with you… I could not think of a single word to describe my moments with you. I could not even grasp your concept of such love since to me, there is no such thing as love. Since all my life, All I saw was ha hared is definitely what you should call love. Hope is the parent of disappointments and despair, and that misunderstandings only bring pain. So you trying to understand me is a misunderstanding in itself since I don’t even understand myself. There you go again, showing off your red lips that has only told me nothing but red lies. People really are cunning… so cunning that their forced smiles make them look like they are really happy. But in reality, it only makes them become delusional. So delusional ha when you try to put the colors together, they just don’t mesh anymore. I sometimes feel that you wanting me is just all in your head. I mean, with your wanting, it seems as though you’re slowly becoming like me… This might be karma chasing after me again but I can’t bear you becoming like me so I might sing of us breaking up. This is my first and last confession to you; goodbye. Although right now, I may not show any feelings in this goodbye, I might actually regret it. I might actually miss you. I might actually admit that at some point in this relationship, I loved you enough to figure out that you being with me was a mistake so I had to let you go. Someday.. when I’m at the edge of my sadness and loneliness. I just might. Someday. But until that someday comes, I will just return to where I came from, back to my black world. The world before you came. As I watch you retreating figure, I’ve come to realize that the shadows on my face were all created from the light I called you. And now that light has disappeared once more. I am left in nothing but black. I hope you find someone better than me since I am just “a bastard who never knew how to love” #Sad_Vibes And so, I pull out another entry from my old writing journal. I wonder if people would enjoy reading a few other stories I have there
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Wow this is inspiring
I wonder how it's inspiring
I'm inspired cause I feel the passion in this article
Passion of being foreign to love or having admitted to have loved someone in the end?
Passion of being foreign to love
I'm happy you saw that ^-^ thank you
That's why I told you to leave your boyfriend🙄🙄 Look how hurt you are now. You definitely need someone like me🙄🙄 kidding🤣🤣🤣 I am meaning to read all your articles but sadly it takes lot of time to reply to all the comment on my article. I will definitey find some time to read all of them😓😓 they are sooo big and nerd vibe come from them..why can't you be a little lite. Always deep...soooo deep..
This was like from 2014, man- i didn't even know my boyfriend back then 😂😂😂 Sorryyyy I grew up with nerd internet friends that write more extremely than I do so tbh. I'm not even sure if this is super nerdy already or just so-so
It's nerdly....deeeeppppp....I bet you wear glasses and look like nerd too😑😑
https://read.cash/@Hanzell/timed-sketching-7f956499 You tell me 😂😂😂 though I've already lost a bit of weight again
Being in a relationship with the right person will bring sunshine and colors to your life but if you are in a relationship with a wrong person and become in despair this will probably the color of your life "black". I once loved black, my world is black not because I love the wrong person but because my mom doesn't want in the beginning.
It's different though when someone forces their way into a relationship in hopes of teaching you love. That's where this came from. But why didn't your mom like in the beginning?
She doesn't want me, she doesn't want my existence. She thought I was the reason of her misery. But good thing we are okay now and in good term.
I can empathize because of the same situation with my father but it's good that you've at least gotten on equal terms with your mom. I hope your relationship with her gets better though
Yeah, at least we did not cut ties because of the things that happened on the past, that would be the saddest part of parents and child relationship. I am still thankful we are doing good now. I hope you too with your father.
Oh, I've cut ties with my father. More like he started to do so and i did the finishing blow. He was toxic and i didn't need any more strain on my already bad mental health
Oh, sorry to hear that. Actually, we are the same I don't have a father too he left my mom when she got pregnant that's why mom doesn't want me at first, she blames me for all the misery she had. So I cannot empathize or don't know how to console you with words because I myself don't know how it feels to have a father. I also don't have the interest to look for him, like why should I? he left me in the first place.
I can see why the tragedy but it feels like not having a fater figure was better than partially having one? Because by the time i was in college, we never really talked anymore, we became strangers then eventually he also left and left so many of his unfinished obligations behind
Yeah, it's better to let go or let that toxic person in your life doesn't help you to grow but gives you more misery.
Wowvut looks like poem That's creative
Thank you so much, i appreciate the comment
My heart is black too. ❤
Aww how did it turn black?
Why do I feel like someone wrote my thoughts?
Was it that accurate? These were based off a song I liked and a personal experience though
yeah and its amazing how you put all of these feelings into words. No matter how many times I read this, every line reminds of something and someone ackk
Omg don't remember that someone- abort mission and think happy thoughts! That person doesn't deserve to be remembered
Trueee but really you're a good writer. I love it how you made me relate with your own experience
I wonder if the rest of my writings could make you feel the same emotions 😂 yours really usually have a lighter tone so the emotions don't come across to me enough
Is that so? I actually don't know how to assess my own writings hahaha
I've been judging my friends' writing for years so i can tell as much already and that's what i get from your writings
Maybe I could also learn from you
I wouldn't mind that, i already follow some of your writings anyways 😂
Great. I'm also happy to have a valuable and honest commenter to my articles. Thanks!
😂😂😂 now there's no more reason for me to be shy about commenting
Oh hahaha you don't have to be shy, I'd rather read some constructive criticisms on my articles or hear some other perspective rather than the 'thank you, nice work and keep it up'
I'm shy because I'm way too straightforward with how i comment 😂 already got blocked because of that before
Geez don't worry I won't take your comments personally rather I'll use it as a tool to improve my writing skills and hopefully to have a wider and deeper understanding. Just be yourself and I'll also be honest with what I actually think and feel, is that cool?
That would be really cool. I also need someone who would correct me since my friends are way too busy now to go through the things i used to write about
Oh about that I'm afraid I won't be able to come by here often when our classes officially starts. But I'll still try to give time. Let's help each other grow. Anw, I've checked your link twitter acc but it says that the account does not exist lol
That's perfectly understandable since you need those classes, after all. I'll just be here since I'm still waiting for my diploma. Ahh i keep forgetting to update that but I'm so lazy to use Twitter so i probably won't look through Twitter messages anyways
Wow.such a great writing. I was about to ask you if it's for real. Then the last part answered my question, oh so it's just from your old writimg journal. Haha
It was partly true, partly from a song I liked but then my light vanished completely because of reasons
Oh.. a good listener has a good interpretation with the song...esp if you will really feel the meaning of it... to the point that you can make story out of it..
Look for the song black by g dragon . https://youtu.be/kuUt1dll8lQ That's where I based this off. I got the one with the English translation And songs are initially stories to begin with? They just vary based on how people see it. I had more but they're mostly too sad to think about posting here
Sure.. i love listening to music. It's my stress reliever
Was thinking of turning this idea into a challenge all of a sudden 😂
Haha..I'll bet on that..
Write pronpts based on your favorite songs Anyways, did you like the song?
Later pglaabas ko.. d pwd gumamit headset sa work. 😅
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