Why I failed to rescue these kittens?

March 17, 2023

Annyeong chinggu!! How are you today?

Actually, I am not fine. My anxiety was up to the highest level earlier this morning because of these kittens. While going to work, a heard a cry of a kitten. The sound is really a cry of a baby one. I tried to find it and I found it on a gate. It seems that the kitten is trying to sneak out. The places it is staying is a busy road. There are lots of vehicles around and even people are in and out. I am afraid the kitten will meet an accident so I tried to get it.

I was being careful but the kitten was too scared to trust me. Instead of giving me a chance to hold her, she run and hide in the motorcycle. I still tried to hold her and I even talk to her but she doesn't allow me. She was so afraid and she got angry. Then she got a chance, she started running fast and hide in the pot of plants. I still tried to get her, but she started scratching me and she even wants to bite me. I take a rest from time to time because my goal is to get her but she didn't give me a chance.

This is her, hiding in the pots of plants.

this is the closer view.

I still stayed there hoping she will calm down but the more I get near, the more she feels my existence and she become really aggressive. While I was trying to get her, I heard another cry of a kitten. I started looking for another kitten because I saw that the kitten I was talking about was just breathing and doesn't make a noise, so where the hell is the other one. Then I saw a yellow tail showing in a gate. She was there crying. I can understand what she was saying and she was saying to me to leave them alone.

This is her in the gate.

This is the closer view of the kitten. She is looking at me.

Since the other was all stress out and aggressive, I really told God to take care of them instead. I fail to rescue them because I am late at work and I can't stay for them. Even if I tried a lot of times, they don't allow me. They are aggressive. I gave up and left the place.

Here at work, I can't stop thinking about them. Just recently, I witness a kitten hit by a van. I saw it on my own eyes. I was trying to rescue the kitten that she ran so fast. Now, another kitten incident and I am having anxiety now. You can say I am a weak person, but I am, I am really weak when it comes to cats and dogs. If I can help them, I will help them. And I can't move on when I failed to do that. It really affects me.

I am sharing it here to relieve my stress because if I will just sit in the office and worry, I can't be okay. I need to be okay because I have lots of work to do, but the feeling is getting heavy. I can't rescue all the animals I see on road and I always fail. I just leave it all to God.

All images are mine

All original content by @Grecy095