November 03,2021..

Disclaimer:

Untangled, because I have too much to think already, to choose for the title of this article. So let's just be it.

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I felt worried, no! I feel pressured. At the same time, I feel stressed to the point that I can't concentrate and make a final decision. I can't make any works to do, as I am being undecided right now. Why am I worrying this much?? Gosh I hate this kind of feelings😅.

4 more days to go and it's my son's first birthday already. I am worrying about his cake, lol. I know this sounds nonsense or funny in some ways, coz there's actually a lot of ways to solve this matter, so why stresses myself too much? But because I am eager to bake a cake for my son. This eagerness is driven me crazy. Half of my mind say's, YOU CAN DO IT! BELIEVE IN YOURSELF AS YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT! but half of my mind say's, YOU WILL FAILED AGAIN, YOU BETTER DECIDE NOW OR ELSE YOU GONNA RUIN YOUR SON'S PARTY! I was like da** self, what's on your mind and why you have to put some pressure in yourself. You can bought a cake in so many bakeries out there, so you shut up and stop acting like a child, go and decide right now 😅! It seems like there's an evil 😈and an Angel 😇fighting and arguing inside my head, lol sorry about the emoji's. But I know my determination will make things possible. So fighting self 💪. ( Cheering myself 🤣)

My son's birthday themed was Astronaut, so I am planning to decorate his cake using that theme. I grab a picture from Facebook for reference, but I'm not gonna copy that design, I will try to make my own. And since I haven't tried to decorate a cake in such creative ways, this is a big challenge for me. Specially that my knowledge about decorating is only little or I can also say, I have no knowledge about decorating, and at the same time I didn't study about baking and decorating cakes too. But I won't worry about the batter for the cake, I am confident about that. The decorations and designs is the one that I'm worried about. So now I think you guys already knows why I felt pressured like this today. But since I was this kind of a person who always push myself to do more. To discover more, even it's stresses me out, I didn't hold my back for this, not now!

I want some challenge, I want to try everything until I succeed. That's me! So if you seen me holding my back then that's not me, it's an impostor hiding inside of me 😂.

So to help me get some ideas, I tried to watch some tutorials in YouTube but it makes me more stressed lol. I thought it would help, but after watching some tutorials, I regretted it 😂. Sometimes, more ideas, more suggestions, more choices, the more it confuses you. So to release some pressure I went outside from our room, to look around as I felt that the pressure is slowly choking me 😅😂. Have you felt that way too?

I saw this chocolates from my son's party bags, and this gives me some idea. I can actually use this chocolates to decorate my son's birthday cake. I suddenly feel excited, as my imagination is working. Some ideas pop up and that gives me some hopes. Hopefully I can make it this time,so please cheers me up guy's. 💪

Authors message:

Sorry guy's, if this writing looks boring ✌️.I didn't mean to bore you, I just write to release some thoughts in my mind as it's getting heavier inside 😂.I just want those thoughts to come out,so some ideas will pup ups and makes my imagination work to help me keep working.I don't want to get stuck from thinking as I needed to move.

My son's birthday is coming. My little one is turning to one.😍 Thanks to God for his guidance, protection and love.

Keep safe everyone!

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