I used to cooked new menu, I mean new dishes before I give birth, but I get stopped preparing our food after I give birth as I need some rest. I used to search, watch some tutorials in YouTube just to serve my new family a new dish, a new taste, as all of us are already getting tired with our every day menu. I want to try new taste too, so I put efforts on every cooking I do. Actually cooking is not my passion, and it's really a stress for me as I need to think every day about the food that am I going to prepare for us.
Today I went to YouTube to find new recipe again for our tonight's viand. Until I found a new recipe that was too simple and easy to prepare, it also don't need more ingredients so it really caught my attention. After watching, I wrote down all the ingredients that I needed and I go to our kitchen to check if we have them all. But upon checking, we don't have onion, parsley and tomatoes. And since nobody will look for my son, I decided to bring him outside. I actually don't want to bring him outside, but I have no choice as I need to cook our food before my son woke up after his afternoon nap. The time was 2:30 p.m the sun is still up but it's not that really hot. I bring umbrella to protect my son under the sun. We walked for about 15 minutes and I already feel tired as my son is quite heavy, but I had no choice as there's no tricycle also inside our village so I have to carry him and walked. We went home immediately after I bought what I need, I am sweating and struggling because I don't used to carry a child with an umbrella. I can't found a comfortable position of how am I going to carry my own son lol. So I was sweating so hard and some people are looking at us as they saw that I'm struggling. I really feel ashamed, but I don't mind, I'm wearing face mask😂.
When I'm still single, honestly I don't like carrying anything, even bag's I don't like it. I only bring wallet or small purse with me whenever I go out, I also don't like bringing umbrella, weather it rains or shine, I don't bother bringing it. So right now as a mom, I'm really struggling (struggle is real) and that's also the reason why I don't bring my son outside unless someone will accompany us or we really need to go to the clinic for his vaccine. Ok enough with reminiscing 😂.
Upon arrival at home, I bring my son to sleep, and luckily he fall asleep immediately as if he also gets tired 😂. When he fall asleep, I immediately prepare the chicken, cut the onion and tomatoes and since the nearest store where we went don't have parsley, I don't bother adding it my recipe. I used butter instead cooking oil for frying the chicken, for the good smell. I fry both sides for about 20 minutes,then I put the chopped onion and cover it to simmer for about 10 minutes, then I add the chopped tomatoes, little bit of salt and pepper to taste then simmer for another ten minutes, then I turned off the fire. When I tasted it it really taste good.
I thought everyone will like it, as I do. But sometimes you really can't predict the mood of a person. This is also the reason why I stopped trying my best in preparing our food, as I felt that my efforts are not appreciated or useless as not all the person at home eat what I prepare. This actually happens many times, but I don't know why I keep on repeating doing this to myself. I know it sounds childish as I know that everyone of us has a different tastes. Maybe you like it, while the others don't like it, and I should not feel bad about it, but I just can't help.
When we were about to ate our dinner I was so excited to let them try my food, but when I went inside our kitchen I saw one person frying a Sunnyside up eggs for his/her own viand, and that immediately changed my mood. I asked if the food is isn't enough, and why still need to cook, but she/he just answer me that he/she just want a Sunnyside up eggs for his viand. I really felt disappointed again and get speechless, but I had no choice but to pretend that I'm okay. I suddenly felt tired and exhausted, I know I should understand but he didn't even try to taste what I served and that really hurts me.
If you were me? How would you react with that kind of behaviour?
Anyway thank you and I hope you guys had a great day today. Stay safe and healthy.
November 24,2021 22:00
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Oh! This feeling hurts so much, after suffering to prepare a nice food and it got rejected or neglected. It the reaction came from a visiting member, just let go. If it's someone that stays regular in the house, you could try a little bit to know his/her own view. Maybe he/she didn't just bothered to taste it because it's not a regular meal there. Try and let him/her there room for changes or tasting new food. You said you don't like carrying anything...hahah🤣, that's me too. Even school days, I'd just pick and small exercise book and off to school. I dislikes load and its unconvinces