We fell out of love

[October 24,2021|Sunday]

"Dad, my girlfriend told me that she fell out of love."

With an aching chest and a heavy heart, I sat on our creamed couch as I saw my dad sauntered with a cup of coffee in his hand. Umupo siya sa tabi ko habang sinisimsim ang kape.

"What did you say again, son? Your girlfriend fell out of love?" he queried as he placed the coffee on the marbled table in front of us.

I chewed on my words and it felt like thorns in my throat. It hurts and it stung. Nagtama ang mga mata namin ni Papa at kita ko ang paglandas ng awa sa mukha niya.

"Pa'no nangyari 'yon? I mean, you were both happy last weekend when she paid a visit here in our house and now, she was saying that she fell out of love?" my dad said in a clipped tone.

"Maging ako rin po kasi ay nawawalan na rin ng gana," I whispered in a weak voice.

A deep sigh left my dad's mouth as if he's weighing things on what to say next.

"How come the two of you fell out of love?" he asked again.

"Kasi hindi na masaya katulad nang dati, pa. Alam mo 'yon, magkasama kami pero sobrang tahimik na namin. There's an invisible barrier between us that made us cold and distant, until we were just hurting each other in the process."

After spitting those words, I could feel my own tears forming at the edge of my eyes. I saw my dad ruffled his hair and a playful smirk touched his lips.

Agad akong nairita nang makitang ngumingisi lamang si Papa habang nasasaktan ako.

"Why are you smiling, dad? Are you happy that your son is hurting?" I said irritably as I threw him an icy glare.

"No, son. I just remembered what I did to your mom when we were like at your age."

Mas lalong lumawak ang ngiti ni Papa.

"No'ng nawalan kami ng gana ng mama mo sa relasiyon namin, nanligaw agad ako ng ibang babae at gano'n din ang mama mo. Nagpaligaw siya sa ibang lalaki," sambit niya at walang mababakas na emosiyon sa kaniyang mukha.

"I sent flowers to my new lady. I even wrote hundreds of poems to express my love for her. And there, my happiness that was once gone just came back. Nakita ko rin ang mama mo na masaya sa manliligaw niya."

Bigla akong naguluhan sa sinabi ni Papa. I mean, how did they end up together if they found themselves happy in someone else's arms?

With creasing brows, I asked him. "So pa'no pa rin kayo nagkatuluyan ni Mama after everything?"

I saw how his pair of ears reddened as he rubbed the back of his neck.

"Kasi iisa lang naman ang mama mo at ang babaeng nililigawan ko. Sinabi ko lang na nanligaw ako ng ibang babae 'cause your mom changed into a better version of herself," wika niya.

"Since our previous relationship was getting toxic and unhealthy, we had decided to have a brand new start and that includes changing ourselves into the best version of ourselves."

There, I saw tears filling at the corner of my daddy's eyes.

"Hindi talaga natin maiwasang mawalan ng gana, anak. Syempre, may mga panahon talagang hindi masaya at nagkakasakitan na lang kayo. But let me remind you that we enter in a relationship because we need each other. Hindi 'yong nandiyan lang tayo pag masaya. You want a long lasting relationship? Then stay! Nag-away kayo? Then stay. Hindi na masaya? Still stay! Kung gusto mo talagang tumagal ang relasiyon niyo, be matured enough to handle everything. Dahil ang relasiyon ay binubuo ng dalawang imperfect na tao. Walang relasiyon na walang away. Pero may relasiyon na kahit nag-aaway, hindi naghihiwalay."

Matapos magsalita ni Papa ay 'di ko na namalayan ang pagtakas ng mga luha sa mata ko. Every words he uttered cut deeper to my bones. Bigla ko na lang naalala si Rose, ang girlfriend ko.

Nakatitig lamang ako kay Papa habang naiiyak at maging siya ay naluluha na rin. Now I know why my mom is so smitten to my dad because he's indeed a real man.

"We can fell out of love even if we love that person too much, son. Because love is not just about glitters and rainbows, it's a constant war. It's just a matter of who will keep on fighting with you, who will surrender and who would pick up the next battle with you. So, kung alam mong kaya mo pa naman siyang ipaglaban, then fight for your love. Mag-umpisa ulit kayo ni Rose. Pero kung ayaw niya na talaga, then let her. At least you've done your part. Kasi alam mo anak, masarap sumuko sa laban na alam mong binigay mo ang lahat kaysa sa sumuko ka na agad kahit 'di pa nag-uumpisa ang laban."

Tuluyan na akong napaluha sa sinabi ni Papa. Agad kong tinext si Rose para ayusin namin ang aming relasiyon at para makapag-umpisa ulit.

Thanks God, because after a month, we finally found our tracks back in each other's arms. Nanumbalik ang saya sa pagitan namin ni Rose. At mas lalo pang sumaya ang aming pagsasama.

Kaya sa mga may relasiyon diyan na napapagod na, huwag kayong sumuko. Dahil ang totoong relasiyon ay 'yong dinurog ng pagsubok pero pinagtibay ng panahon.

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