[September 25,2021|Saturday]

I haven't written or published an article in the past few days because I was drowsy and my body is too lazy to write and think about what topic I should write about.

I asked my brother what a good topic I would write about because nothing really enters my brain and I also have a very bad headache because of math. I thought I wanted the subject of math, but I was wrong. I really hate math since my teacher started discussing the topic. I really prefer to go face-to-face in the online class. My vision is gradually fading because of lack of oxygen in my head.

While I was lying on my bed, my older brother came into my room and said "write down the fact that you are always alone" and he left as if nothing had happened. I didn't go around anymore and I did as he suggested.

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Am I the only one who likes to be alone? Or am I such an introvert? For me, it's fun to be alone because what I can do expands and I find out more about myself. When my older brother or mom wants to come into my room to tease me, I always just drive them away and say "I'm busy, don't piss me off." They will just come out and laugh even if nothing is funny.

I only go out of the house once or join friends when I go out. They almost always tell me I'm a white lady because I'm too white and I don't look like I'm in the sun anymore. Sometimes we also go to the videoki bar to sing (obviously videoki bar nga diba). My friends always sing sad songs because they are always broken in their crushes, but they don't run out of crushes because they really have a list of what the names are on.

The things I do when I want to be alone are ..

Watching kdrama & Netflix

Most of us are addicted to Kdramas or movies. When I want to watch a Kdrama, I really lock the door of my room because I don't want to be a nuisance and I don't want to watch the whole thing because of the thrilling scenes. Sometimes I even scream and tweak myself because I can't stop the fun when I see the two stars kiss haha ​​lol! Kiss lang bawal yung Ibs, so iniskip ko talaga,I'm a good child haha!

One of my favorite dramas is "True Beauty." My aunt is addicted to watching it and she never stops being funny when watching every episode. Sometimes I just see that his eyes are swollen because of the tears. I just laugh because it's true that this drama is really tearful but mixed with comedy. 

I wrote in my diary

I write every day about the things that happen to me such as my happy moments or moments that I am very stressed, because through that I have realized how I can be happy and who is stressing me every day. It also helps to identify myself, sometimes I read what I wrote when I was in 7th grades and I just laugh like a fool alone, sometimes they even knock mama in my room because they heard my loud laughed 😂

When mama read my diary, she also read what was happening at school, and I also wrote there about what was happening to me when I saw my crush. Haha, at that time, I just wanted to disappear as if nothing had happened, so much embarrassment. When mama read that, she cried with laughter and asked who I was referring to as my crush. Haha

Watching podcast

I do this every day to expand my knowledge of life and it is also important for me to listen to podcasts or documentaries because I am learning more to pronounce English and my accent, I am not very good at english or speaking english but from watching my podcast about life or advise has expanded my knowledge and I can speak English directly and seamlessly.

Sleep.Sleep.Sleep

Most of what I do is sleep; I sleep all morning and stay awake at night; that's my routine before class and it's something I always do, but when I have an online class, I don't sleep much because of the amount of assignments and activities I'll be doing.Sometimes my cousin asked me if what I was doing wasn't boring because I was just asleep and didn't come out of my room. I just didn't answer them because they already knew what I was going to answer. My saliva will be wasted if they ask me over and over again, and I will tell you over and over again, "I want to be alone."

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Author's note;

For me, it helps to be alone when I have a problem or I'm busy. I really want to be alone because you will be free to think and you will discover different talents that only you know. But it also hurts our mental health. Yes, I admit, sometimes I have a hard time interacting with a lot of people because I'm used to being alone.

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