So, how about me?

A few days from now, we will all be celebrating the coming of a new year. Have you made up your new year's resolution, or you'll still stick up with the old one? As for me, just like the previous Christmases and New Year, I will do the same and be with the same people. I cannot deny the fact that I am still waiting for the greatest plot twist in my life. I am waiting that not until we use the new calendar, there's still a chance that someone or something good will come.

It was not that long that I had someone I met online. We had a good conversation we clicked easily and honestly, I really thought that he could be the possible plot twist that I had been waiting for.

We shared a lot of common interests, aspirations, and goals in life. I could say that I enjoyed exchanging ideas with him. He's not someone who talks about nonsensical ideas but he's someone who utters words carefully and is very admiring.

After two months of talking online and I fell in love with someone I only see virtually. At first, I was confused because I knew all along that it was unreasonable. How could someone be in love with someone whom she never met personally? But, I decided to bravely accept my feelings and be open about them. Life's too short to have regrets in life.

We talked every night and that specific night of the 10th day of December, I bravely took the chance to tell him all about my feelings. I am afraid of rejections but, I experienced a lot of rejections in life so probably this will sting just a bit if it doesn’t go right.

One of the reasons that I fell for him is because he is showing some signs. I don't know if it's just me but I feel like those are signs that he also has feelings for me.

I could've waited for him to confess first but I cannot make this connection and attraction belong if, in the end, nothing’s gonna happen. I just want to know where this connection would lead us. I don’t want to settle anymore for any talking stage. I’m so done with it.

Unfortunately, the feelings I had were not reciprocated. But, I’m fine. I understand where he is coming from. I don’t understand after reading his message I feel ashamed and disappointed in myself again, wherein the first place it was I, who decided to confess, and now that I am being rejected I feel so low of myself haha.

So, this year, to all the people who I’ve lost or stopped talking to for any reason, maybe we’re friends or we had something romantic connection before, I just hope they’re doing fine. We might not be interacting anymore but I still wish the best for them.

We’re back at being strangers again but I’m really glad that he shared a bit of the time of his life with me.

So, so much for plot twists. It doesn’t happen after all.

Images are mine.

Thank you everyone 👇👇👇👇👇👇👇👇