I lost my hard earned money

Lately, I felt a bit down and I am starting to pity myself again. My thoughts are black and I am not talking about it with my boyfriend. I don’t want him to worry. In time I know that everything will be alright.

So here’s what happened today. I have a pouch with a money in it which I just put outside. That’s the money I am getting from selling vegetables and other farm produce. I have been doing it since last year, I mean leaving my pouch outside in our terrace on a round glass table. A separate plastic blue glass is also on the table where I put the coins so I can easily get a change.

I was busy the whole morning cleaning the house from inside and out then proceeded to wrap in newspaper the young fruits of the bittergourd plant. After that, I took a bath cleaned a few more spot outside. I had to go to my boyfriend in the field to get him from there at 10:30am, and so I went and found him at his brother’s house cooking bananas. Since they don’t have “bagoong”and calamansi I told them to get at home and be back. I used the bicycle when I went back there and ate the banana with them. Me and my boyfriend went home at almost 12noon with our tummy full and happy.

We ate last at around 2:00pm and had a nap. At around 3:00pm we went to the garden to make a new ‘house’ (expansion) for our bittergourd plants. By this time, we left our phones in the terrace along with the pouch with the money inside. I know and I clearly remember that the money is inside the pouch before we went to the garden. I saw it! My nephew was inside of our house. Nobody came. I have been leaving my things in our terrace since the day I came here. Laptop, cellphones, and money but nobody was stealing it.

When we came back from the garden, I checked my pouch, and to my surprise, the money are all gone! The two smart phones are still there along with a keypad phone, and the money inside the blue glass. I went to my sister to ask if she borrowed it. She said no and told her that my money is missing. She usually borrow money from my pouch every time she doesn’t have change. We checked everything but the money is gone. I felt sad. It was a hard-earned money. Months of tending our banana farm and vegetable garden. All gone.

I don’t feel angry. I always told myself in the past that it is just a money and I can still earn it. My boyfriend is a bit angry to whoever took it. We don’t have a clue. I just hope that the money will be use to buy food or medicine. I just think that my money helped someone in need. The person may have done the wrong thing but I still hope and think that somehow my hard earned money had at least helped him or her. This is my first time losing a money.

By the way, yesterday when we went to our banana field where we also planted a few pumpkin, we found out that there are also missing fruits and we saw a cut in the stem and the person used a knife to cut it. We don’t use sharp objects when we harvest it. I just told myself that at least my pumpkin had helped a hungry person to have food in his/her tummy. I hoped so.

From everything that happened today, I know that this is still a blessing. I don’t feel angry but I do feel sad. I give and help everyone that is in need to the best that I can do, but I think it isn’t enough maybe. Everything will be alright in time.