Inggit

Warning: It's just another random story of mine..

Normal sa tao ang mainggit sa iba, lalo sa mga bagay na meron ang iba na wala ka. Iba't ibang level lang, may mild, may gitna at merong sagad sa kaibutaran ng laman at balunbalunan ang inggit sa katawan...at yun ang hindi na tama.

When I was a kid, never akong nainggit sa iba. Dahil pinalaki kami ng parents namen na kapag wala wala, kapag meron eh di thank you. Makuntento ka sa bagay na meron ka, ganyan kami nireremind ng parents namin kaya wala kami nung "bute pa sila may ganito, bute pa sila may ganyan". Kaya masaya kami kahit andaming wala at kulang when it comes to material things.

And that's the trait that t I hate the most. Well, no one's perfect. All of us are working in progress, we need to change for us to be a better person. Pero tayo ang magsisimula non, kahit ano pang sabihin saten ng ibang tao, kung hindi naman tayo kikilos para mabago yung sarili naten, walang mangyayare.

Let me share with you the story of my old friend. She's my former officemate when I was in the corporate world. We became close easily. That was the time when I'm so soft-hearted and easily open my heart to anyone. Okay naman at first, but as time passed by, even my co-department noticed her attitude. She loves to wear make-up at pag nauubusan sya sakin ang hinihiram nya. I don't usually wear make-up kaya matagal maubos saken, not until I met her char. At first okay lang, hindi naman ako madamot, hanggang sa araw-araw na lang, at buong pouch ko na kinukuha nya. At sa inis ko eh binigay ko na lang sa kanya yung lagi nyang hinihiram and dun nya narealized na hindi na maganda ginagawa nya.

I thought okay na, Then habang nagiging close kami mas lumalala. Nagsimula na syang pansinin savings ko, sahod ko, tax refund ko, and even mga loans sa SSS and iba pang money matters. Yun yung time na ngstart na ko maging cold sa friendship namin, I started to avoid her, coz every time na magwiwithdraw kami lagi syang nakasunod and nakatingin sa screen. Yes, sinisilip nya ang sahod kong di namankataasan lol hahahahaha.

Even my tax refund. Kapag nalaman nyang mataas yung saken, magtatanong sya ng computation sa HR and Acctg. Bat daw mas mataas ako eh ang dami kong OT.. I don't even know how's the computation because it doesn't matter to me. I don't want to stress myself with numbers and hindi ko ugali silipin ang Tax refund ng iba lol.

I saw the toxic traits in her. Not only me, even some of our colleagues. Lahat naman tayo may bad traits eh, depende na lang kung gaano katindi. And siguro lang yun kasi yung pinakaayoko eh, yung may inggit. Naipon na lahat ng issues sa kanya hanggang magresign sya and iunfriend kami lahat sa social media. Nung nahimasmasan sya eh nag iinvite sya ulit, but nah. I chose to cut ties too because I don't want to have communication with her. Some say I'm cold, well I don't care what they say, my inner peace is my priority. I don't want to dwell with toxic people, it's draining. Mahirap gamutin ang inggit ng isang tao, lalo if di naman sya willing magbago.

Social Media nowadays is one of the reasons I think bakit may mga taong naiinggit. Kasi halos makikita mo na lahat buhay ng iba. Achievement nila, career, mga naipundar sa buhay... pero nakakalimutan ng iba na filtered ang social media. Sino ba ang gusto ishare ang failures nila? Sino ba ang may gusto na ikwento ang mag behind the scenes nila in life? All of us have our own battles and hindi natin alam ang laban ng bawat isa, so bakit ka maiinggit? Naiinggit ka na sya may ganito o ganyan pero alam mo ba kwento behind that?

It's all about contentment. As human being it's normal to crave for more. It's okay, do your best in life to achieve what you want to achieve, but don't envy other people's achievements. Gawin nating inspiration na magagawa din natin yung nagawa nila.

I have a friend na kahit na marami na syang napundar, malaki naman sahod nya..lagi pa ding "bute pa si ganito, at that age may ganito ganyan na.." It's normal but not too much. Even sya mismo eh marami ng accomplishments, nasisilip pa din nya yung iba. Kasi she's not contented. Minsan kakatingin natin sa iba, hindi na natin naaappreciate yung bagay na binigay satin ni Lord kahit hindi naten hiniling.

Let's focus on ourselves, on our own growth para maiwasan natin silipin ang buhay ng iba. ^^