I feel very reluctant to write about this today, I still have a heavy heart remembering everything that happened at my last board meeting with colleagues. It's been a week since we had a meeting, but I can't keep this incident in mind. They hurt me, they did, they pushed me against a wall with their wrong judgments and accusations, yet I could not retaliate, no, not in words or deeds. I wouldn’t fight in any way, that would mean exposing myself to them more.
How can other people think they have the right to decide for me how I live my life and how I spend my money? How can they accuse me of being selfish or not sacrificial enough with my money?
I thought I would hear compliments and congratulatory messages and words from them, I mean my colleagues, but instead they came up with malicious allegations against me, they came together to tannish my reputation by calling me unpatriotic.
What leads to this situation?
It pains me to know that those whom I have helped in the past and whom I have sacrificed for are the ones fighting me. It hurts to see how jealous people can be if you succeed. These are partners I have personally set up in business with my money and property in the past, but they can't bear to see new things happen in my life. All the good news of the success I have shared is always getting rejected instead of being praised.
Every organization has a constitution and a duty to work. Even if this is a Christian organization, we have a structure and job working conditions. Such an obligation is an agreement between employees and the organization. It is through this agreement or agreement that I work as a pastor in my organization. This agreement includes payment and behavioral ethics. In it, the organization is obliged to pay the house rent for all the ministers, and a monthly allowance of $20. That is my working condition in my organization. $20 is the money I take home every month, and this money is used to maintain my local meeting. But I have never been bothered with the monthly payments as I have my own business and I work online as well, although transfers have greatly affected my business by restarting wherever I have been transferred.
Now, you have a picture of the conditions I work in, why would my colleagues be fighting me for achieving a financial goal?
As mentioned above, the organization is responsible for paying rent for my house, the only thing I get from the organization. I am a servant of God, and I do not engage in the ministry for financial gain. The problem now is that the organization has been reluctant to pay the rent for this time and wants me to pay it instead. But I told them that I could not because that's the only thing I get for leaving my hometown to go wherever I was assigned. Seeing the negative impact that the situation could have on the organization, the payment was sent by the head of my organization. Two weeks later I bought a brand-new car, which I immediately testified about in our ministers' forum.
Last weekend was our board meeting, I was expecting to receive congratulatory messages from colleagues but instead, my purchase of a car has been the subject of much discussion. A colleague raised an argument as to why I did not pay the rent when the organization said they had no money, instead I bought a new car two weeks after the payment was made. They accused me of not being sacrificial when I had the money to pay the rent. Worst of all, our leader joined the allegations.
How do I deal with this?
First of all, it is the organization's responsibility to pay the rent, and that will not change even if I have millions of dollars in my bank account.
Secondly, I have my cross to carry, which is my family and my problems I cannot pass on to anyone else.
Thirdly, my local assembly is all on my shoulders. They are a concern and a place to sacrifice. I care about them and give them the help I can at any time. I have paid for the local assembly hall with my own money, and I have been taking care of the assembly hall for over a year now at my own expense. My assembly is still young, only one year and two months old, and our numbers are still less than 100. Most of these people are poor and need support. That's why they came to join us in the first place. But how do I support these people when all the money from our meeting is sent to the head assembly? I will not break any constitution, so I keep things that way no matter how much money we need in our meeting. Instead of looking for the head assembly to meet our needs in the local assembly, I took it upon myself, running the meetings at my own expense and caring for the needy among us. I think this is enough sacrifice for me. All of these things that are done in my local meeting remain in my assembly, not to mention in our board meeting, it's between me and God.
When I bought a piece of land for my building two years ago, this co-worker who sued me did the same. At the time, I was working at headquarters with my senior minister. The guy and his wife said at the time, that if they were at headquarters they would also buy a piece of land, and that I needed a transfer. When some of my colleagues were happy with me, the couple were angry and jealous.
I do not take any of those things to heart, and if I do, I will not be able to help anyone. Even these very jealous colleagues came to me to teach them business, I not only taught them but also gave them financial support to start the business. Today, they still struggle to succeed in business. I gave them a lot of support when I was transferred last year. I gave them the leftover goods that could cost a good amount of money and left the store for them to continue with.
I will stop here so as not to cultivate a feeling of hatred for anyone. And I will leave it to you readers to leave your decision on this matter.
God will bless you so much blessings because you are a good person. I am very proud of you and of your achievements in life. Always remember, only Him can judge you.