The apple of my eyes 😍

I've been writing a lot of poems dedicated to my one and only mini-me, my daughter. She is so dear to me because she's the only one in this world I can call "Mine", my daughter, I am aware that I am just her mother and I don't own her but just at least I can call her "mine". Something I have holds and hopes.

I keep writing the poem how lovely she is to me but haven't shown an image of her in here, I just wanted to protect and not to expose her much. But I would like to share, my wallpaper. She is my wallpaper.

I am trying to shoot her for her upcoming birthday next month to have some good photos since we didn't go outside for so long because of this pandemic. It's hard to shoot her because she is so naughty, she moves a lot and I cannot get the perfect angle I want for her, I wanted her to pose like how I pose but it's hard to instruct her because she doesn't listen and just keep messing around.

She came to me unexpectedly, if you happen to read one of my poem which is " You are my sunshine", the story lies in there. When I saw the two red lines of the pregnancy test, I was so scared and I was crying literally because I am not ready to become a mother so as her father. I lead a complicated life, I don't even understand yet myself and now there's a sudden responsibility coming. Despite the fear, confusion, and cowardice I had felt I had a strong ground to take responsibility for my actions and not harm the baby inside, I never think of getting rid of her. I don't want her to feel how miserable it was being an unwanted child, I don't want to repeat the history because it was my history.

I never thought that having her would be the means to understand and to have a purpose in life. Having her made me realize a lot of things, and help me understand myself. She seems to be the answer to all, that there's more to life than being miserable.

She is turning three years old next month, then it would be 4 years ago since I cried out like a fool right after seeing those "two red lines"😆

I write this one because I read @Jihan wallpaper contest, I write because sharing my wallpaper, my daughter is something I am so proud of. Maybe I just love her so dearly 😆😍. If you want to share your wall paper to check out Jihans link below.

https://read.cash/@Jihan/wallpaper-contest-efed6d81