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Hello there! Anyone here working in hungary? A Filipino...
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If you are to do a big step to change your life what would that be and why?
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Realized that there has been a lot of changes thats going on in my life. I feel overwhelmed.
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Trying to clean up my SD Card to give space for my plans... Wew!
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What do you think about a person you know who have not paid their debts to you? Do you directly scold or shame them? I am asking not because someone owed me but because I owed some people certain amounts and I am having a hard time to pay it back. I am always afraid they might be needing it already I still I got nothing to pay but I got no intention to run away. Its just that, I feel so little everytime I needed to reason out. All those reasons were true, yes, but I know they would be thinking that they do not care about my reasons as they needed their money so I decided to stay silent and pray that no one would chat me at this moment because I still cannot pay them. I pray that they would have bountiful blessings so they won't remember my borrowed money because I am having that anxiety everytime I check my phone. I pray to God I get pass this...
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What if someone sent you a message saying,"Are you happy without me?". Who would come to your mind?
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Good day everyone! Its a monday which means work again hahaha back to reality after a longggg vacay!
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It is 31st in our country just a few hours from 2026 and suddenly I felt crying so I went to my room and cried my heart out... Just realized, God I survived!
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Hey, hello its me... What if you receive a message like this? Who will you 🤔 think about?
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How was your Christmas?
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Hi, after couple of years I finally got the access to my read.cash plus the wallet imported. It really do wonders if you know how to save your seed phrase!
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Wazzup here! I hope you guys are doin great! 😊 As for me, I am looking for any side hustle that you guys can offer. Anyone? Any platform to write a content?
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Gabay Ko, Titser Ko **SIGAW NA HINDI MARINIG** Sa panulat ni ***Bb. Lorilai Persingcula Santos*** Ma'am, Teacher, Miss, Cher, at Sir... Ilan lang yan sa mga tawag mo sa kanila.. Kilala mo pa ba sila? Yung guro na nagturo sa'yo kung paano magsulat? kung paano bumasa ng letra? kung paano gumuhit at magkulay noong bata ka? Kilala mo pa ba sila? Sila na kinatakutan mo noong una. Na akala mo ay istrikto pero hindi pala. Kilala mo pa ba sila? Sila yung taong nagalit sayo noong nagkamali ka. Yung pumuri sa'yo noong minsang sumagot ka ng tama. Yung taong pilit inintindi ang sulat mo kahit hindi 'to mabasa. Yung taong nagbigay sa'yo ng gradong palakol para mas matuto ka pa. Yung tumapik sa balikat mo kasi pumasok ka nang maaga. Yung naging kasama mo sa halos ilang taon ng buhay mo. Ang dami nyong alaala 'di ba? Ang bilis ng panahon, tama ba? Natatandaan mo pa ba? Yung mga panahong inaaway ka ng kaklase mo at sumigaw ka ng "Ma'am, si Ano nga!" Sila yung walang sawang nakinig sa paulit-ulit na sumbong mong masakit na sa tainga. Natatandaan mo pa ba? Kung gaano kalakas ang tawa mo nung minsang nagbiro siya? Natatandaan mo pa ba? Yung araw na umiyak ka at nilapitan ka nya. Pinunasan ang iyong pumapatak na luha. Natatandaan mo pa ba? Na minsan sa buhay mo ay binago ka nya. Kahit ilang beses kang nagkamali ay pinatawad ka nya. Natatandaan mo pa ba? Noong nagsinungaling ka sa kanya upang matakasan mo ang salang ikaw ang may gawa? Natatandaan mo pa ba? Na minsan wala kang takdang-aralin pero pinagbigyan ka nya. Paulit-ulit nyang pinapangaralan ka, gawin mo yan, gawin mo yon, ngunit nagbingi-bingihan ka. "yes, sir. " "yes, maam" panay ka oo pero ginawa mo ba? Ginawa mo ba? Ginawa mo bang makinig sa bawat pangaral nya? Pangaral na minsan ay iyong minasama. Ginawa mo ba? Ginawa mo ba ang parte mo bilang estudyante niya? Ang mga proyekto, takdang-aralin at gawaing pang-upuan na akala mo'y wala nang katapusan. Nagrereklamo ka at pagod ka na, gusto mong magpahinga, sawa ka na.. Bakit? alam mo ba? Alam mo ba ang bawat sakripisyo nya? Kung ilang beses syang nagpuyat para sa aralin na ituturo niya? Kung ilang beses syang tumanggi sa lakad ng tropa kasi nga marami siyang ginagawa? Kung ilang beses nyang napabayaan ang pamilya nya kasi lesson plan ang hinarap nya? Hindi mo ba naisip na baka may anak siya? Na imbes anak ang inaasikaso sa araw-araw ay ikaw ang kaharap niya? Alam mo ba? Alam mo ba na baka isa ka sa dahilan kung bakit hanggang ngayon single sya? Papasok ng maaga, wala pang sikat ng araw, at uuwi na pagabi na kung kailan lumubog na ang araw? Paano pa makikita ang makakasama sa habang-buhay? Alam mo ba? Alam mo ba kung ilang beses niyang tinago ang kalungkutan niya? Na magkunwaring okay kahit minsa'y sa bahay may problema Hindi niya ito pinakikita.. Hindi niya pinahahalata.. Alam mo ba? Alam mo ba kung ilang beses niyang tinago ang kanyang pagluha? Ang bawat emosyon na ikaw ang may dala? Alam mo ba? Alam mo ba kung ilang oras niyang tiniis ang ngalay ng paa? Ang pamamanhid ng kamay sa pagsulat sa pisara. Sa bawat guhit ng yeso na minsa'y pumupunta na sa mukha niya. Alam mo ba? Kung ilang araw niya tiniis na magturo kahit paos siya. Kahit ang sakit na ng lalamunan niya. Nagtuturo siya. Nagtuturo siya para matuto ka. Kailan mo makikita? Kailan mo makikita ang halaga nya? Kailan darating yung araw na mamahalin mo sila? Yung mga gurong walang ibang inisip kundi ang mapabuti ka. Kailan mo makikita ang pagkukulang mo? Pagkukulang na minsan ay binabaliktad mo. Na nasa guro mo ang problema at wala sa'yo. Bulag ka ba? Bulag ka ba na makita ang kabutihan na mayroon sila? Na minsan kang pangaralan, ngunit loob mo'y sasama pa. Hindi ka bulag. Hindi ka bulag para hindi makita na tao rin sila. Hindi ka bulag para hindi makita ang bawat pawis na kayong mga mag-aaral ang dahilan. Hindi ka bulag para hindi mo makita ang lungkot sa likod ng bawat ngiti nila. Hindi ka bulag upang hindi makita ang bawat sakripisyo nila. Pakinggan mo sila. Subukin mong pakinggan ang bawat sigaw. Ang bawat salita na hindi maisatitik. Tingnan mo sila sa mata. Mata na pinipilit na hindi mapikit.. Upang makita ka nila. Upang makita kung gaano ka pwedeng magbago. Na may pag-asa pa.. Na ang buhay mo ay hindi patapon. Na hanggang mayroong 'sila,' ikaw ay mahalaga. May nagmamahal sa'yo. Ang bawat araw na pinapasok mo sa paaralan ay may patutunguhan Na ang tagumpay ay hindi imposible. Tulungan mo sila.. Tulungan mo silang iangat ka. Tulungan mo silang marinig ang tinig nila. Respeto at pagmamahal lang ang kailangan nila. Tulungan mo sila.. Tulungan mo silang mas mahalin pa ang propesyong pinili nila. Tulungan mo silang maisip na hindi nasayang ang halos apat na taon.. Apat na taong paghihirap upang sa kasalukuyan, ika'y makaharap.. Tulungan mong mahalin nila ang pagtuturo. Upang mas maramdaman pa nila na walang maling landas na tinahak. Na hindi sila nagkamali.. Hindi sila nagkamaling piliin ang mundong mapanghamok Na isang mali lang, pagkatao'y kaagad mahuhusgahan. Hindi sila nagkamali. Hindi sila nagkamaling tanggapin ang hamon. Hamon na baguhin ang mundo. Kaya mo ba? Kaya mo ba ngayon na tulungan sila? Ang haba ng araw. Minsan ba ay nagpasalamat ka na, Nagpasalamat ka na ba sa bawat sakripisyo niya? Pasalamatan mo sila sa bawat pagtitiis. Sa bawat pagsusulit na kanilang ibinibigay Masukat lamang ang iyong natamong kaalaman. Pasalamatan mo sila.. Pasalamatan mo sila sa bawat pagpapatawad.. Pagpapatawad sa mga kasalanan mo. Sa bawat kabastusan mo. Sa mga takdang-araling kinalimutan mo. Sa pangongopyang ginawa mo. Humingi ka ng patawad.. Patawad sa mga sigaw na hindi marinig Sa mga hinaing na hindi maramdaman Sa hindi pagpansin sa mga pangaral Sa bawat pagpikit sa klase habang siya ay nakatayo sa harap Sa bawat lukot ng mukha na iyong ipinakita. Sa bawat pagsagot nang pabalang. Tandaan mo na ikaw ang dahilan.. Ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit sila bumabangon Ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit sila patuloy na tumatayo kahit ilang beses pa silang madapa.. Tandaan mong isa ka sa dahilan ng lahat ng pagsusumikap. Hindi pa huli ang lahat.. Hindi pa huli ang lahat para ikaw ay magbago Hindi pa huli ang lahat para ikaw ay magpakatino Maging estudyante ka na pinapangarap ng magulang mo at ng iyong guro.. Tuparin mo ang iyong pangarap.. Nang sa gayon ay hindi masayang ang bawat sakripisyo.. Ng mga gurong nagpanday ng iyong talino.. Ang pundasyon mo sa buhay na punong-puno ng pagsubok.. Tandaan mo.. Ang guro ang iyong pangalawang magulang.. Ang siyang gagabay sa iyong landas na tinatahak.. Ang kasama mo sa pagtahak sa buhay na maraming katanungan, walang kasiguraduhan.. Tandaan mo anak.. May mga bagay mang hindi sigurado ay isa lang ang siguradong totoo.. Ang mga guro mo ay hindi perpekto ngunit mahal ka nilang totoo. Reference https://www.facebook.com/100009627404324/posts/pfbid02fzU3D1NNGnm4A2z1p8GqdK8YTwHufS8DdScZgsxXrzs8m5xPJ7mDpg6wB18hdDxml/?mibextid=Nif5oz I have always been thankful to my Teachers, of course without them we wouldn't be where we are right now. Without these dedicated people to help is hasten our ability and share their knowledge to us. I decided to share this poem here though it is in Filipino language. Lead Image: `Unsplash` *~Express!onless~*
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The Most Painful Questions a Parent would Dare to Ask When I started to become a parent I was not really thinking or even focused with the challenges that I have to deal in life. But come to think of it, there were like a LOT. Having kids, let alone raising them while trying to give them a complete family is such a big challenge and it is LIFETIME. With this being said, there are a lot of questions that may be so painful for us parents to ask our kids. Questions that we do not even want to imagine asking them but there could really be cases when fate would do some trick and it would make us realize that we are on that part where we should raise this question to our Children. Let me mention those details here: Who would you choose my child, me or your father? This is such a painful question to raise to a Kid because this would mean that the family is in the verge of being broken. It could be the mother is about to let go her husband and so she has to ask her kid/s if who would they prefer? And sometimes, our kids may also answer us such a painful answer that we can never imagine hearing especially if they would decide to be with your spouse rather than you. But it is more painful to see your child tearing up or trying to think what to answer while the pain is visible on their face so as the fear of what might happen. Can you stay with your Grandma and Grandpa? I have witnessed how my mom suffered when she has to separate me and my siblings because she has to work. We were 4 siblings and my brother and sister both on a very young age by that time needs to be left to my Lola (Papa's side) so I and my other brother can go to school and mom can work. My Lola is expected to take good care of them while my Mom promised to give money or goods for their daily needs. Only to find out after couple of months that my brother and sister were not well taken cared of. They were asked to fetch water at a very early age, they are not allowed to eat if they commit a mistake or at times they were forced to kneel on a monggo seeds or salt which was very painful. Now, whenever that they talk about it, my mom can't help but wipe her tears so as much as possible we do not mention those past experience if she is around. The experience was traumatic to my brother and sister too. Is it okay if I marry another man/woman? When I found out that my mom has a new partner I was devastated. I never thought that she can dare to look for a replacement for my Papa and it is so painful thinking that she was with someone else plus the fact that we have to adjust coz she brought her new partner at home and even stayed with us. Imagine how would we adjust when we used to have late night talks while being together in bed with my siblings, when I used to tell her everything under the sun to that moment when I can see her taking care a different man and sometimes forgets to take care of my siblings. I had to be so strong not to let her notice my pain. Until instead of building my dream I had an unplanned family of my own. It was really painful to have a drastic change in ones life but then I am thankful that God gave me my children because instead of the pain I am more focus on other personal matters away from what my Mom did. `Note that pictures used in most of my articles are from UNSPLASH` ꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱♡ **ɛҳ℘ཞɛʂʂıơŋƖɛʂʂ**
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Dear Future Self Hello everyone! I have been so busy with a lot of things that I badly missed to even write an article. I hope though that everyone is doing good here. Market is bloody and inflation rate is real that even when going to the mall for a grocery shopping could now be hard to obtain especially for those who are only earning a minimum wage. So I decided to write this article to remind my future self that I am someone with goals and direction in life. For the past months I get so focused of striving hard that sometimes I forgot to even enjoy life. Dear Future Self, I pray that you heal from things that you can never share to anyone. I know you have been crying for quite sometime in silence trying to think of best things to support and protect your family especially in financial aspect but always be reminded that GOD is always here for you. You will always get that success you have been aiming for but please stay healthy. Start an indoor exercise and try to also do your best to have some for outdoors like jogging at least. Meet new people and do not just stay as is on that 4 corner of your room. There are a lot of great things in life that you have not seen because you are too preoccupied of your problems. I pray that a day will come when you would need not to feel insecure to others because you already know your worth. Please stop wishing of death because you still have dreams to fulfill and family to look after. Soon death will come but instead of wishing for it, do your best that when life come to an end you should be more than willing to give in because you have done your mission. Do not aim for death when you have so much unfinished business to fix and work on because surely you won't be at peace. A lot of people would do their best to live while you pray to die. Your financial problem will be resolve just continue doing your part and you will be okay. The day will come that you will no longer worry much about your financial issues and you could smile and laugh or go to places you would love to visit. STOP being so understanding and try to let other people know when you are pissed over things that they have done to you. Stop tolerating the people around you just because you are afraid to hurt them or to be left alone. Stop because you are just letting them become a demon of doing wrong things against you. Sometimes, we are treated bad because we tolerate. Set high boundaries and see who is willing to climb again and again to be with you. Life is no fairytale. Do not think that you can have a charming prince who will save you in distress because you happen to have a live in partner who is nothing but good at playing online games. Forgive yourself for being so harsh. Forgive yourself for aiming an award and feeling bad because you have not even had one while you worked your ass off for over 8 years. Forgive yourself for all the bad decisions. You will be okay, everything will be alright. I am proud of what you become. Thank you for being kind to others but please, practice better judgement. Some people doesn't deserve the kindness within you so learn to step away. I love you Self ꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱♡ **ɛҳ℘ཞɛʂʂıơŋƖɛʂʂ**
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Expressionless Sister: I Will Take Over Many have come to engage with Expressionless for the past months and I can say she got a small yet great circle of friends in here despite being virtual. My sister though could no longer maintain writing on this account for a reason that I will share someday once she will be ready but right this time she asked me to take over because,"sayang naman daw kasi yung account." And yes, I can't agree more because as I have continued to observe this is one of the best platform I have encountered. Being able to fulfill your passion to writing while getting paid or earnings is so **lit**! **Introduction** I am not going to change my nickname here since I believe it is impossible but rather I would like everyone to know that I am a College student. I am taking Bachelor of Science in Education. I am the youngest among four siblings and is striving hard to prove my worth daily since my older siblings are helping hand in hand to support me. It kind of pressures me a lot but I am thankful because I get to study in College when I know it has been a struggle from every generation because of the expenses. Now a days it is not easy to send someone to school with all the inflation rate going on and all the struggles we faced from typhoon way back plus of course the pandemic. It really zero out our savings. I thought I would never have a chance to really go to school but then God is good as he still let us get through such struggles. Another thing that I am really thankful is that my family is still intact despite what happened. Others have lost their love one's with such misfortune brought by pandemic and the typhoon. I can draw, a *little*. I love being competitive as it awakens my motivation to do more and be on top. Originally, I would loved to be a PILOT but it seems that Aeronautical is way too expensive and I do not want my siblings to worry too much since our eldest already have a family of her own. As early as now I would like to enhance my skills when it comes to teaching. Prolly this platform would gain me the audience to educate and be educated in return. Hopefully that I will be accepted here. I also love reading so when I find anyone with good stories surely I will be your fan. I am still learning as I navigate the journey that I will someday have on this platform and with cryptocurrency. ***End Note:*** I hope to get to know everyone. I would love to keep in touch and hopefully be active here. Though I am a busy student too but I will do my best. There's no harm in trying, right? By the way, if anyone could read this can you tell me about yourself? Habits: Ambition: What keeps you going?
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Oh my finally! I got access. 🥲 I clear cache on my phone and forgot where did I save my seed phrase and login. T T but here I am. Waaa
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TOXINS of the House I just saw this details in a Facebook post and somehow I realized that it does makes some sense. As a Mom, one of the things that I did not want to see are trashes, dusts and mess but having toddlers would sometimes make it hard for me to do deep cleaning plus I do not want to really force myself to go beyond my limitation especially that I am on a graveyard shift. Those that are working on the same time frame would relate how tiring it is to actually get up or do something during your rest days and how would you love the feeling of just laying on bed and get some sleep. Here are some of those TOXINS in our House that needs to be removed: 1. **Objects You No Longer Use and if you have children, toys that are not used, that do not work or broken.** Way before I get to keep letters and stuffs that was given to me even when it is not useful because I thought that the person who gave it would somehow appreciate me keeping those but then as I go over my things I realize that those people is not even with me or maybe have already forgotten about me. 2. **Clothes You Don't Like Or Haven't Used In A While. Damaged underwear.** I used to just put those clothes that I cannot wear since I gained weight with the hope that I maybe wear them someday but realized that I may not and if ever I would lose weight I would rather buy new stuff so I decided to keep those away and asked my mom to give it to anyone she knows who needs it more. 3. **Broken Things.** I still keep our broken System Unit and I just thought now, why? Why am I keeping things that are not useful and could steal space on our cabinet? 4. **Plants that are dead or sick.** Well I do not keep or even care for any plants as my mom would do all these. She and my step father also do the cleaning. 5. **Receipts and Old Magazines.** Well I am also guilty. There are cases when I want to budget how much I earned and would just want to look at the receipts of how much were those essentials we bought last payday. 6. **Shoes Broke.** I used to keep shoes that I cannot use for some unknown reason but decided to keep it away too. Like literally realized there were just a lot of things that I shouldn't be keeping because it has no significant. 7. **Stuff of all kinds calling the past.** Well kind of laugh at this because I can totally relate. When my ex and I broke up I literally gave everything he gave me back to him. Letters and any stuff that would make me remember that once in my life I fell in love with a douchebag. LOL! **WITH CLEANING THEM OUT:** 1. Health gets better. 2. Creativity grows. 3. Relationships get better. 4. There is greater reasoning capacity. 5? Improved mood. **QUESTIONS THAT MIGHT HELP CLEANSING:** - Why am I saving that? - Is it about me today? - How will I feel if I release that? *Separate and classify:* 1. To donate. 2. To throw. 3. To sell. **INSIDE CLEANING REFLECTED OUTSIDE.** 1. Avoid extreme noises. 2. Less strong lights. 3. Less saturated colors. 4. Less chemical odors. 5. Less sad memories. 6. Finish unfinished projects. 7. Cultivate positive energy in your home. Do a general cleaning and use boxes for organization. Start with drawers and cabinets and conclude each piece, do everything at your pace... a) Trash. b) Arrangements. c) Recycling. d) In doubt. e) Gifts. (f) Donation. g) Sell. As you CLEANSE, watch what changes in you. As we clean our physical house, we also place order to our mind and heart. *Practice detachment with material things that just fill your space and you'll see how you'll slowly be able to do the same with more momentous situations.* Click to see more : Source https://www.facebook.com/itsfinancialtalks?__cft__[0]=AZVn0mW8mdSMwqF6uHhRwkXBQGIlCs9inbBojcmfYJRA3OMNGx1FJQ2CSngFZ38cPQdhx829cvjYGCfWnWdCVWYC_BVaZmfMXPDqg3n-FHWGXDO35GHGi_F77lByc5BcTo2zpKzK1LdGVx8tmcvE7z6YoZYzYgMUYn7F3uTXftNIEuZGY1c68dm43izSswJuSwruCt40JfWLpKjTm8zVA2Lk&__tn__=-UC%2CP-y-R `Image Source: Unplash`
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Survive We live our daily life trying to survive each day. We eat, we work and even exercise so we could continue living and have a longer life span for the people we love. **But then a lot of realizations hit me.** As we grow older I get to understand that we got to do everything to survive daily and it is not an easy task to do. Our survival does not only matters if we can provide for ourselves but also is affected with other people who actually matters to us. Be it their decisions, actions and the likes. We survive based on the place we are living and the people we are with. Truth be told that when you are with successful people you become one but if you let yourself be drown by toxic people then that is already a different story. BASIC NEEDS plays a vital role in surviving. Would you believe me if I tell you that MOBILE PHONE is now part of that basic needs? As we continue to live life we seek for adventure, challenges and new things. With those that I have mentioned some of us would rather go to a foreign place in order to find luck, job or just to start anew. But despite that new beginning you would still look for those people who were with you from the start be it your family, friends. Sometimes though we go to places and travel because we want to look for a place that we could feel at home. Others may have found theirs but then for me, my home is my family. It is like wherever we are as long as I am with them I can be at home, at peace. With this, we needed **COMMUNICATION** and without phone it would be so hard to deal with life most especially when you are working. We just have to be very careful when using gadgets though because there are times that while those that are far from us feels like they are near by using those gadgets that we have now, those that are near us may become distant. Too much usage is not good. These things mentioned above are connected with our day to day lives and are one of the main factors of surviving. There are some people though who would detached their lives fully to others to make sure they don't get to be affected and they could live with peace because sometimes it messes our peace of mind to be connected by people who drains us with problems that they only create. The need to survive is already part of our nature. Believe it or not but COMPETITION is also one of others way in order to survive. They would compete on anyone just to make sure they stay on top. Others would even go beyond doing unrighteousness just to win. Just remember though that whatever happens to your daily life: YOU ARE WORTH IT! Atta! Yey! All good for another article! I got a very hectic week so sorry for not updating here. I hope though that everyone are doing awesome! `Image Source: Unsplash`
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Changes and My Coping Mechanism *****Everything that we have in this world is never permanent.***** If you noticed, there are a lot of changes around you. Just like me, I noticed that in our Barangay, before the people living here were only a few. Like our neighbors was just 5 and the rest are way too far but now it looks very populated and even on those area that are supposed to be part of the SEA it has houses. People prefer to live there instead because there are no rental fees. A lot have already changed, people may have come and go, we may long for them but we have to accept that nothing is permanent in this world. Today I grieve for another colleague who decided to resign. It was all too sudden actually because we never even felt it. I was just so shocked when I received an email sent by our manager that he actually resigned. Personally speaking, I hate changes. You can call me boring but once I got used to something would rather have a routine especially if that benefits me or my family just that I can never always hate it because if I do I will then be just the boring person. No improvement, no nothing. I must admit that there are changes that I love having like when I had a child, when I got a job or even graduated school. So I actually learned looking at the brighter side but since I had been into so much too my mind is already programmed to prepare for what's worst. Being a breadwinner made me so much aware of what might have happened negatively and makes me want to prepare for anything bad but it is never really a good thing just that my anxiety keeps on taunting me when triggered. **How do I cope?** Ideally, when there's changes at first I would cry my heart out. When my brother finally graduated from College, I was so happy but then only to realize that it would mean that we would have to be away from him because of his course and field of work. He loves the sea and travelling. When I told him I will do my best to send him to College he was so eager to tell me he would like to take Nautical course. I disagreed at first but realize maybe its meant for him. So decided to just agree with it. Every time he goes to work that means he would be away for like how weeks or even months my mom and I would always cry. Another thing is when my Mom lend a job which means I can no longer see her whenever I like and that my kids won't be able to be with her like before triggered my anxiety but then with this change as we continue to see and cope with it I am happy that my mom can buy things and go to places she likes because she has her own budget now unlike before where what I can provide is just for the food and bills. I cope by crying and wiping my tears after then thinking if how can I go on adjusting with it. Many would laugh at me because I am such a cry baby but really changes makes me feel sick and nervous. There's always this what ifs in my mind. Another thing is, this is for everyone reading this. CHOOSE THE PEOPLE WHOM YOU ARE WITH. Those people around you plays a very important role in managing your emotions and your coping mechanism with everything that is happening in life. Changes in life is uncontrollable. We gotta move forward and continue to plan things around. Life will never be a walk in the park but we will surely get through with this. *I am always grateful because I have the people I value the most. Everyone in this world is already suffering we have to be just the person who lightens up the world.*
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My Firsts as a Content Writer Good day friends! Today I want to share about such a wonderful firsts I had here in read.cash platform. As I have not been that active before but now I am seeing a very good improvement when it comes to my engagement and having those little circles around me who continues to engage with me and support on every little way they know. As of this writing I got 20 followers whoa! Very amazing for a beginner like me. I am trying my best to be active but I balance it out to my real life as I am busy with all the adulting101 stuff, being a mom and a corporate worker. I like being here as I can sense I am surrounded by individuals who do not judge people but instead support so as motivate. One of the firsts is having such many friends! Yes for me 20 is already many much more that they are active. I do not really mind getting small circle of friends here as long as I can engage. I have noticed though that others wrote an article about read.cash being less engaging so I am happy that I have more people who supports me even when I do not write something that interests anyone. In addition, I have subscribed to a certain community called, "Everything Under the Universe" created by @Glez . https://read.cash/c/anything-under-the-universe-01dc I am so much grateful because from then on I got engagement in my articles which I love so much because I do not have anyone to talk to at home. I did not feel lonely anymore. To anyone who would like to join I am promoting this community to engage and share a little bit of what you have to those who posts their articles much more read and engage with the users. Let us do this to make read.cash alive again. I am seeing others joining HIVE but I do not see it as user friendly. I would love to give it a try but maybe in the future. I find read.cash a lot easier to access and more understandable. Another first is earning more than a dollar here. I was so shocked when I got many notifications from my previous article and shows that little Rusty friend is going back and forth plus those people that I normally engaged in here are commenting my article. I wish to find so as get to know more and more people. It can also be because the article that I wrote gives interests to newbies as it talks about some tips of writing article. https://read.cash/@Expressionless/put-emotion-in-what-you-write-be6810e2 I am commenting articles from anyone be it new or old users here especially those that I find interests. I would love to connect more guys and learn from you. Another article completed. Here's to my second article of this month. :) `Lead Image Source: Unsplash`
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Put Emotion in What You Write **A happy 17 Followers to me!** I have been in and out of this platform for quite sometime now. I know not everyone of you knows about me at all but I am here to Express life's greatest lessons that I have learned so far and those emotions that I cannot showcase to the people around me. Society has so much to say and so we have to be very careful with how we act and how we do things most especially if we want to distance ourselves to nonsense fights. There are people who do not even matter but reacts on our decisions in life like they are someone significant. I am the type of person who is afraid of being judged and so when I found this platform I was so overwhelmed because finally I have ways to channel my inner thoughts, life lessons and experience. This can be good to my readers but I am more on starting a conversation so my comment section won't be so dull. I am beyond grateful when I started here and some of those who have been writing in here consistently with a lot of people who looks up to them acknowledged me and even commented on my articles. I know I can be so toxic at some point but believe me, for someone who is having a hard time speaking what is on my mind to anyone you guys helped a lot so I can have the will to continue going. When I published my first up to the 2nd article I did not receive anything but then the feeling of being able to at least post something in my mind is fulfilling. While on my 3rd article my heart was "thud thud" way too fast when I was notified that I received an upvote coming from Madame @Jeaneth and Madame @MizLhaine. Like just wow! https://read.cash/@Expressionless/main-reason-why-money-is-the-root-of-all-evil-during-this-time-66034e64 On my third article though I was already so shocked and at the same time so happy seeing that I have more and more people who noticed my article. My first ever $1! I received some support from @Charmy , @Ruffa , @Jeaneth, @Jane, @emily2u and lastly @MizLhaine. But who would have thought that one day I would get to see the this little guys on my notification: https://read.cash/@Expressionless/i-am-back-bitcoincash-community-b3e90442 I got so curious with this little guy before and by the help of the read.cash community I was able to understand how this platform works. I even wrote another article for such a Random Visit. What I have noticed though is based on the articles that was visited by this lil friend if you exert enough effort to the article that you write and not just put nonsense for it to reach the minimum read and/or number of characters to be noticed. https://read.cash/@Expressionless/your-random-visit-is-rewarding-5721b5f8 It is really more on "What's in it for everyone?" and "Is that relatable?". We must put value to anything we do and write. It feels also so ecstatic to be rewarded on something that helps me a lot mentally and emotionally. Blessed! *Cheers to my First article in August! To more high quality content to everyone!* ------------------------------------------------------------------
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How to: Pay Off 100K Plus Debt A lot of people might not like this article at all but then this is a reminder that if ****you do not have any debt then never start because it is very hard to get off from it.**** Before I start to share how much was the exact amount of my debt let me tell you a little history before you judge me. I just hope this story would give you a lesson to think a lot of times before you say YES on something you should not do. I grew up from a not middle class family. Growing up we had a little shells craft business. My mom used to design necklaces and my dad would be making pendants made of shells. Our life was doing good as I was the only child and both my parents also had a job. My dad was a carpenter, the best one for that matter while my mom used to work at her Aunt's husband as the secretary of his business. One day my mom told my dad that she's pregnant and so they started to work more so they could give our needs. My mom dreamed of having a big family before. But then, just like any other people we experienced hardships when my father noticed that his asthma is getting worst. He was not even diagnosed of having one as the doctor mentioned his lungs were clear but then because he used to take over-the-counter drugs advised by my grandmother then he got overdosed. He went in and out of the hospital that swept off their savings plus siblings number 3 and 4 came. Everything fell down in just a snap. I was 12 years old, about to graduate in 6th grade when my dad decided to end his misery. From the on, I woke up from a deep slumber of being protected by a strict father and had learned hardship in such an early age. I experienced working to my Aunt (my mothers cousin) who only give me 75 pesos a day and I would need to work 6 days a week. I was lucky enough that my Mom's brother who was a Seafarer offered to send me to College both my tuition and allowance was shouldered by him. I thought that finally life would be easy but I was wrong because that Aunt to whom I had to get my allowance from sent by my Uncle is very cruel. Our arrangement is I would go to her house every Saturday to get my allowance and my grandfathers support which is given by my Uncle. My Uncle by the way is close to our relatives. He grew up being a "boy" to that relative and he made his way to the top with their support. He supported his parents all the way though but then my grandma has her own favorite child of whom was a black sheep and from there my Uncle lost interest. If I remember it right my Uncle visited my grandma and grandpa only twice of my lifetime. He would come directly to my Lolo's siblings house like they are his family and not us but we were fine with that because it was his choice. The best thing though is that he still has this sympathy over his siblings especially my mom. Whenever we needed money for any emergency cases we can directly run to him. I can say we became too toxic even when we did not want too. My mom and dad were not even lazy but struggles piled up that my dad committed such a mortal sin of ending his life because he thought that he and him being sick is the reason why we got drawn of debt. As my journey continued being the eldest with 3 siblings looking up to me I had all the pressure in the world. I had to ask my Teacher way back in High School if she needs anyone to clean her office at work and just give me at least anything for snacks just to survive a day. I had to sell food and even do projects for my classmates in return of a certain amount just for me to keep going in School. While my mom was finally able to lend a job as a Janitress. When finally I graduated, I worked in a BPO company aiming to get a stable job because I only have a year before my brother graduates from High school and enter College. I was able to help my brother yes but I got drawn to debt supporting him too. During my working years I had to help my mom to support my family because she only earns less. My 3rd and 4th sibs were malnourished by that time and God knows how I cried to hard when I get them to experience going to Malls and eating Jollibee. My life continues to be just like that, until I started my own my family. Now, I had to pay more and more bills because my sister is going to College. She is the youngest of us four while my 3rd sib decided to stop after graduating high school and is now working as a warehouse helper in a metal company while my 2nd sib who also graduated from College as Seafarer is working in Interisland. Life has been tough still because when Typhoon hit our place it ruined everything and again I was back to zero. I am now having a really hard time paying off debt. I only got the courage until today of calculating it. It seems that all those hardships that I had were not enough that to this day we continuously experience such. Even when I did my best to put up a little business of my own, supported my mom and her live in partner to have their own *karenderia*. Everything went down. ****So far here's my current calculation:**** 4000 P.O 4000 **Sari Store** 10000 **Home Credit** 15000 **Aunt** 2000 **Friend** 5000 **Friend** A total of **40,000** pesos. These were a couple of years debt already to be very honest. The first two were my mom's but she had me shoulder paying it when I started working. I wanted to pay it one at a time but really, whenever I have the chance something would happen. I never even knew how will I be able to pay for these. ****Current Debt**** 25000 Debt Company- **pay 4200 per month** 14000 Aunt Friend - **pay 3500 per month not started yet** 15000 + almost paid 35000 - **paying 2000 per week** 10000 Brother - **needs to pay in full at the end of August this year** 20000 Singking fund- **paying 4500 per month** 2000 Partners brother - **pending** 10000 Brothers girlfriend (7k long overdue) - **pending** 3000 Other Brother - **pending** A total of **99000.** Those that are tagged as *pending* I never knew when will I be able to pay it. I have been always short of budget because of unexpected expenses plus my Aunt, my mom's sister is depending on me for our Electricity and Water bill. We are living in a compound like area and we have one meter for both electricity and water bill. We agreed with the payment terms on this but then she has to go home due to a sudden death of her husband. Even before, she failed to pay me on time for her part so I have to find ways in order to make sure we don't get our water and electric disconnected. ****Monthly expenses**** Water 1500 Electricity 3000 Internet 1700 Food and Needs Budget 10000 My food and other needs budget, mainly focuses for my children's milk and diaper so as other basic needs. Sometimes, I have to also eat something that comforts me. I did my very best really but then I got so tired of fighting this poverty. Sometimes I get to think of the worst case scenario. I wanted to end everything instead but when I look at my children I feel guilty. Call me irresponsible, brat and other names but God knows how I struggled. You may say I never learned my lesson but then other than being a daughter I am also a sister. I can never turn my back to my family when my mom started to just give all the responsibilities to me. With getting only 10000-13000 every 15 days I never knew how can I pay everything really. I have been a burden to everyone I know and yes, I even have pending debt to my friends. It hurts whenever I see a post in Facebook that those who do not pay their debts are shameless, those posts that talks about people who are unable to pay because even when it is not directed to me my heart bleeds. Masakit isipin at tanggapin. Hindi ako tumatakbo sa utang pero wala akong ipambabayad talaga. If only I can surrender myself to the authorities and just pay it for a year or two in jail I will just to really pay off everything but then how about my children? They needed a mom. Paano ba? Gusto ko na mag quit sa work kasi nakakapagod na mag work nang wala naman patutunguhan. My partner on the other hand does not have a decent job. He tried but got no luck so we decided that I will be the one to work while he takes care of our children. Nakakapagod talaga, whenever I almost resolve one problem may dadating na iba. Patong na problema na di ko alam saan ako tutungo. Paano ba? `Image Source: Unsplash` `Article: XX as of 7.24.2022` `Writer:`
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Do Yourself a Favor Filipino's are believed to be very obedient and family oriented. We tend to have so much respect for our elders and we normally follow whatever is advised because we believe that they know what is best for us. But as I observed things around social media, people are posting about being okay to remove people from your lives even when they are family or blood related. I have two opinion regarding this matter though as it may really depend on the situation. Based on experience, it is really not that good to always listen to people around you even when it is your family because they can be very discouraging sometimes. Like what my mom would kept on telling me without her knowing that it kind of make me feel little of myself. She always tells me that her colleagues said they feel bad about her working and that she should just be receiving some money from her children most especially when they knew that I am connected to BPO industry and that I have been working for couple of years already. She keeps on telling me that with her age which is around 54 years old she should just live life to the fullest instead of working. I felt bad because it seems like my capability and sacrifices are neglected. I have been a breadwinner ever since. Even when I was a student I make sure not to be a burden to my mom so I would sell food, do some task, clean the faculty so my teachers would give me allowance. When I reached College I made sure as well that I save the allowance that I have coming from my Uncle and give it to my mom whenever she needs money but whenever I hear something like this from her it makes me cringe. It felt weird and I felt like my heart is in rebellion. How can someone have the audacity to question my mom for working at such an age when it is not even a big deal in other countries? Who the hell wanted to let your mom work and not enjoy life only if you could afford? I cannot afford giving her any amount because we are struggling so much for our daily needs plus I already have a family of my own. Moreover, I have to find ways to support my sister because she is about to go to College. I have supported my brother to College too and it was never easy. I have to enter left to right debt just for me to pay his tuition fees and even when I can imagine that it will happen pretty much the same for my sister I would just close my eyes. At times this becomes an argument with my partner because he would kept on questioning me, why do I have to continue supporting my family when they should be able to stand on their own but then I just cannot turn my back. I just felt sad that my mom would let other people bash me like that without defending me. I have to be the one to pay for our bills and buy groceries. At times I am the only one buying food while she would tell me she's short of budget. I supported her and her live in partner with their little *Karenderia* before even when I had to give her capital almost daily all over again because a lot of people would not pay the food they owe to us. I tried to have her stop working but then I came to realize I cannot do it alone. One of my Aunt told her that I should not be the only one working when other members of the family can still lend a job so why not work hand in hand? I am really hurt right now and I am typing it because I cannot tell her straight so to avoid saying something that I would regret. I hate hurting my moms feelings but I learned to just be straight faced every time she say something like this because I want her to know that I do not care of what other people says. I hate my situation so much but I cannot do anything. Another opinion I have is, even when how they hurt you continue loving them. At times I wanted to vanish but only to realize that at the end it is going to be my family who can love me unconditionally. Even when my mom is like that and even when it hurts. I really wanted to go far away but then life is short and I do not want to end up regretting those times that I could have created wonderful memories with them. So I just continue to pray and pray that one day they realize that my feelings and that one day they could see through me. I wanted to be successful and to put up some business but I am unable because my salary is not enough to pay everything. I wanted to give my mom the best in life but I just could not afford. How come it is so easy for other people to question someone when they do not even tried to put on my shoe? I do myself a favor though, through writing this I get to release my disappointments and anger then tomorrow is going to be another day. I live it all up to God. `Image source: Unsplash` `Article: XIX as of 7.9.2022` `Writer:`
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Different Kinds of Human Dream Dreams are said to be a motivation for us to keep going in this lifetime. We have different kinds of dreams: Day Dream This what I used to do before when I am alone. I imagine myself performing and having my own concert and or living life to the fullest. But this drean is never uttered because if you would know me personally, you will surely laugh at me. My day dream doesn't suit me and yes I may sound life I am having a self pity but this is the truth. I am not talented plus I am chubby. Now a days people idolize slim and sexy type of girls. Lucky are those who both have the talent and the body to die for. Night Dream This is when you are asleep. Events happens in this dream differently. I find this dream weird because sometimes it felt true. I get to speak people I am not familiar or sometimes my dream tells me what might happen tomorrow. Often than not I forget about my nighr dreams and just realize it when there is this feeling of dejavu. With this kind of dream comes a nightmare too. It is a bad dream that some of the people would say that it could kill so we better be very careful. For me personally nightmare comes when someone had a trauma over something or is afraid of something. Lastly is the type of Dream that you have for your self. Something like you have been aiming to achieve like an American Dream or a Teenage Dream This dream motivates you to do best because you have set some goals. You have some targets to hit. Others would dare to dream the impossible and would move heaven and earth just to make sure it would come true. It is never a bad thing to aim something as long as you are not stepping on anyone's shoe. Humans can be greedy sometimes so we have to stand and ground,.know our limits. It is always great to protect our peace than push from something that might mess up your life. ♡ I have some couple of dreams in life too. When I was a teenager I dream to be someone famous but then realized it would never be easy to achieve especially that I stopped learning new things when I started to build my own family. Now I dream to find my passion and build a business out of it. I never can tell if that would be possible but I am hopeful. Let us continue to strive hard to achieve our goals in life. Never stop dreaming even when you fail because failing is part of our life. Just continue and combine it with prayers. To God, is impossible！ `Image source: Unsplash` `Article: XVIII as of 6.22.2022` `Writer:`
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Bloody Hell'O Naughty Bear Are you still breathing with the status of the market right now? Me? Well I am just in a total shock! Like comm'on! I am a newbie and then I am witnessing a lot of people losing their capital and I knew someone who even sold their motorcycle and some stuff to invest in cryptocurrency only to lost it. Well this is when I believe with the saying that goes, "Invest what you can afford to lose". This is very true guys. If the amount that you have right now is not even enough to buy food for your family then focus first on how can you earn more for a living. Do not invest in to something unsure. Yes taking risk is already there but as what Mr. @MarcDeMesel mentioned on one of his interview "****calculate the risk****". Calculate the risk before you do anything and make sure to "**DYOR or DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH**". Now I didn't say that part of doing it on your own is not to ask questions because asking people is also one way to do research. If you ever met someone who is been in Cryptoverse for quite sometime then try to observe and check how do they do it. Check if yoh could probably follow their page and or attend a meeting with them or maybe watch their vlogs. Surely, there are bunch of those individuals. I have noticed some whales even in BCH community and if you could, then you may start to check with them so you coukd understand more about what is happening and if it is even normal. Of course most of those people like me might not even be aware that yes it is just normal. Others might be even enjoying buying the dip and playing around with their hodl'ed coins. I wish I was as financially free as those people but since I am not I will continue to observe. Someday, I will get to join and discover a blessing in crypto industry. Some became millionaires but I believe the hodling could do more than investing. I am just planning to hold and continue earning and searching as to where can I have more without using my own fiat. I want to use my ability to earn cryptocurrency and just invest time and effort. Hopefully as I continue to learn cryptocurrency I could understand more on how to read the market. I noticed though that market crashes right now but then the goods price are increasing causing for some people to be forced to withdraw what they have to buy needs. Which results to more and more dump of the market. ♡ Hold on BCH community I know we can get this through. I might have not been with you guys for quite awhile but I knos some of you here is holding on to a little pump just like me. This too shall pass! `Image source: Unsplash` `Article: XVII as of 6/16/2022` `Writer:`
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Do You Believe in Magic? Magic is said to be just a trick. I watched youtube videos and even saw my cousin trying to tricked us before with the so called magic and I am just a kid my mind would automatically get amazed then believed on anything I see. What about you, do you believe in magic? I am now having some binge watch in Netflix and I came to this certain TV Series entitled, "The Sound of Magic". I believe this one's a Korean Series. It only has 6 episodes though and even if I do not like it when I started to watch it I get to feel amazed in the long run. Well I am the type of audience who needs to be amazed during the introduction. I need an intro that draws my attention and makes me more curious about it but this one's not something I really like but there is are lessons that we can get through this series actually. It is a story of a high school-er who was abandoned by her mom and her dad's company went bankrupt. She is living with her sister in a small rented room but she is having a hard to meet both of their needs. She then met a magician who is very mysterious. The magician saved her from someone who is supposed to harrass her and he keeps on finding ways for her to visit an abandoned amusement park where he resides. I have not completed watching the episode though but I already got some speculations on my mind. You may like to watch it. Surely there will be lessons to learned as you go through every episode. But my question is, do you believe in magic? Well if I were to answer this? I can say YES. magic actually comes from the heart. It is on our own way of understanding things. For me it is magical to be a woman, to have a living thing in my womb and call it daughter. It is magical to meet someone you would not expect to be part of your life and another thing is, answered prayers are so magical that whenever I realize what is going on and how much I prayed for it I cannot hold my tears. For me a lot of magical things is happening in someone's life which is all unexplainable and even when science got something to say on some of those crazy things that is going on with a humans life for me it is still magic. Dear Readers magic is true when you believe it. ♡ And I hope that whatever burden you have right now would be resolved just like MAGIC... I wish for your pain to be wiped out and so you could only feel happiness when remembering old memories. New beginnings for me is magic. It is such a magical moment and a chance to something new and be on the right path. Article: XVI as of 06.11.2022 Writer:
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Weird Post in FB that I Have Read COMPLAINING and being NOT CONTENTED is really part of HUMAN NATURE. It was another boring rest day and I just decided to lay in bed and waste my time scrolling in Facebook. For days I have never been active in FB so I want to check what is going on in my friends and news feed. Just maybe I could find something interesting. Well, I realized it is just almost the same. When I say "the same" is like some are still pretending to be happy while others are trying to portray being sad like sharing sad memes or qoutes that would look like someone hurt them or broke up with them when I know for a fact that they are just trying to confuse others I just react "haha" to their posts. The rest are those people who makes me smile by posting their trips with their fam, success, earnings. There is this post from a certain page that I have been following which made me frown. The thought of the post is really weird that I do not know how to comprehend. Anyway, this page is mostly about sharing achievements in savings, investments so that is why I decided to follow. Though another reason why it is weird is because the post itself is out of the usual topic of the page. Anyway, here's the post below. This is in Filipino language by the way so I will just write down a summary in English form right after. *WIFEY NA WALANG SOCIAL LIFE* *#PayongKapeso* *First time ko po magpost and im using dummy account. Gusto ko lang po malaman kung meron dito nakakarelate sa wife ko.* *Magkaiba kami ng wife ko, extrovert ako while sya ay introvert. Mahilig ako gumala, mamasyal kasama mga co work at friends ko, maki pag bonding kahit kanino. Kahit saan mo ko ilagay go ako at hindi ako namimili ng makakasalamuha na tao, outgoing sociable.* *Ang wife ko naman ay introvert, mas gusto lang sa bahay, lalabas man mabilis lang, wala man lang syang friends na nakakasalamuha, o nkakakwentuhan. Sa bahay man mag aalaga sya ng bata, maglilinis ng bahay, magluluto, maghuhugas, maglalaba, her free time is mag basa ng anime manga, manhwa o kaya novel.* *Nagswimming din kaming mag family pero halos 2 hours lang kami kasi lalamigin daw si baby, sa mall naman pag grocery lang tapos uuwi agad. Pag inaaya ko syang kumain sa resto o fastfood mas gusto nya sa foodcourt. Pag sinabi ko na mamili sya ng damit na bago or shoes sasabihin nya wala syang matipuhan so ang ending kami lang ng anak ko may bagong gamit. Pag kumakain naman nahuhuli sya palagi kasi yung tira ko sa plato pati tira ng anak namin kinakain nya.* *5am ang usual ko na pasok sa work at 2am pa lang gising na sya para magprepare ng breakfast ko pati susuutin at baon ko, nka meal plan sya for a week. Pag day off sya din nag cacarwash ng sasakyan ko pati motor, ayaw nya ko magpa carwash sa labas mahal daw ang bayad. Pag day off ko matutulog lang ako at manonood ng movie. Sya same routine everyday. Hindi rin sya maghilig magpost at magpapicture, madalas kami lang ng anak ko pinipicturan nya.* *Minsan nagising ako ng 6am, umiiyak anak, hinahanap mama nya, pagbaba namin nagluluto si wifey while namamalantsa tapos na din sya mag saing, then paglabas ko nakapaglaba na din pala sya kasi tumutulo pa sinampay sa labas. Sinabihan ko sya na buksan ang aircon kasi tagatak na pawis nya while nagpaplantsa sagot nya wag na daw sayang kuryente. Even sa paglalaba kahit may automatic kami na washing machine nagkakamay pa din sya ang reason nya? Hindi daw malinis mas prefer nyang maghandwash.* *Minsan di ko ma gets si wifey, kumpleto naman kami sa gamit pero pinapahirapan nya sarili nya. Ang dami din diaper for our baby pero cloth diaper ang gamit nya.* *Sinabihan ko sya na lumabas sya gumala magliwaliw pero pano daw si baby, kaya sinabi ko na ako na bahala at guess what?! Wala pa po 1 hour umuwi nya hindi daw sya mag eenjoy kasi inaalala nya anak namin, breastfeed kasi si baby. Naaawa ako sa wife ko pero hindi sya masabihan, sinama ko sya before para makahalubilo nga tropa ko pero hindi sya nakipag kwentuhan kasi nakikipaglaro sya sa anak namin.* *Minsan nacocompare ko sya sa ibang wife kasi magkaiba kami ng interes, swerte po ako sa wife ko kaso hindi sya yung tipo na fun kasama sa galaan. Yung huling outing namin nung nagsubic kami kasama side ko, inaya ko sya mag disco kaso lumabas din kami agad kasi masakit daw sa mata yung lights, tsaka hindi sya mapakali kasi si baby daw baka hinahanap sya, baka umiiyak na daw hindi dw makatulog pag hindi sya katabi.* *Nag order ako ng buttered shrimp at pinilit ko syang kumain dko alam na may allergy pala sya sa hipon, sa bahay nagluluto sya ng shrimp pero hindi ko alam na hindi pala sya kumakain basta pinagluluto nya lang ako favorite ko kasi yun, buti na lang 1 lang nakain nya kaya konti lang pantal nya.* *Di ko naenjoy bakasyon namin kasi tinitignan ko pa lang sya ang dami nyang ginagawa. Gusto ko ituro sa kanya yung mga bagay na madaling gawin para hindi sya ganun ka pagod pero ang reason nya sayang daw ang kuryente.* *Mga kapeso tingin nyo sino ba sa amin ang may mali.* Source: Facebook Post https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=2179052975612774&id=229179187266839 So the sender of this post is the husband trying to ask advise about his wife being an introvert. His wife would prepare his breakfast and uniform to wear at 2am since his shift is at 5am. She would then take care of the baby. She is not that sociable and when he brought her to bond with her friends or relatives it would end up her playing with their baby instead. Everytime they go to the mall he would ask her to buy something for herself but she won't, so it ends up the baby and him having to buy something new while the wife won't have any for her. She often observe her doing household chores and she would usually do the chores in a difficult way than to do it in a snap using their appliances like example washing their clothes. His wife won't use washing machine stating that it would only cost too much electricity and would increase their bill plus the result is not that clean so she ends up washing it through hands. He was asking how can he make his wife realize that he wanted her to enjoy, socialize because whenever he ask her to go somewhere and enjoy she would end up going home before an hour because stating she is so worried about their baby who is in breast feeding. Well ♡ there is really nothing wrong with his wife for me. He just do not get it that there are women who are happy simply stsying at home taking care of their family than to go somwhere to enjoy. She is very wife material though the husband does not have a bad intention but there is this part of his post where he compared his wife to other wives which is a very very bad idea. Comparing is like not accepting who she is and trying to think of someone else instead. It is like you want the other wives to be her when she is trying to show you her love in a way that she knows. Minsan talaga may saltik tong mga lalaki eh no? Lol! Anyway, this can be nonsense but I appreciate you dropping by. (●´з`)♡ `Article: XV as of 06.05.2022` `Writer:`
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I Feel Alone and Lonely Being by yourself can make you feel either happy or lonely. It may depend on your current state though because being by yourself is a choice to make and everyone in this lifetime are given choice. Only that, when the choice or path that you take you have to be responsible of whatever consequence it may have. Being alone though does not mean someone is lonely because there are cases that ourself is our home, that it is when we are alone that we find peace that we can never find with having other people around. There are also cases when you have a lot of people around you but still you find alone and lonely. This is the exact thing that I am feeling right now. If my tear duct can say anything surely it would have a lot of complaining to do because I have been crying my heart out for a couple of days now. You see I am a breadwinner and even if I have my family it still makes me feel like I am the only one in this battle. I am the only one worrying and doing the best to budget what I have so it will be enough for everyone. I am the only one who pays all the bills and worrying if ever we got anything disconnected like electricity and internet. I want to just lay down in bed and cry my heart out. I want to just let the day pass by not doing or thinking anything. But can I do that? No! For a mom like me I have to be responsible with my children's needs because I happened to found an irresponsible partner not even a husband for this matter. I am in the verge of giving up. I want to give up. I want to end everything but I feel sorry for my kids. I am responsible for bringing them to this God forsaken world and I wanted to just take a rest and not do anything anymore. But what about my kids? Who will take good care of them? Life is been cruel to me and I didn't know what I did in my past life to actually deserve all these. (｡•́︿•̀｡) Apologies for writing this article. Today I just feel so down. I cannot function well. I have so much in my mind and I wanted to just take some rest away from the people who are letting me feel this way. I do not want to hear my children's cry and witness my partner just letting them cry their heart our while playing on his computer. I wanted to stay away from him and I regret having this man enter my life. So to those single ladies reading this always remember that when you choose someone to be part of your life set as high standard as possible. You should choose someone not just a good lover but a good father. `Article: XIV as of 6.01.2022` `Writer:`
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