2022 Bucket list: #1 EXPECTATIONS

Do you believe that there will always be a reason for everything? That there will always be an answer to every question regardless of what will be the outcome? Do you believe that every matter we did there will be something in return? Might be true, that we were living in a world full of expectations.

Expectations will be dangerous, sometimes we expect too much that might leave us cut in vain when the thing doesn't suit what we want, sometimes there will always be some hurt when things we plan do not come to a perfectly expected outcome, it's dangerous for we might be broken and worse killed.

Expectations will always be a problem, woah we're just human and we were thinking ahead of the outcome, we are just living things that what we wished wanted all to be done, we are just mortal that wanted to be lived peacefully. Expecting things will be good after years of countless dreams.

When we were kids, we were expecting too much of ourselves. Not only parents that had too much expectation but yourself alone. We think that we were growing old quickly, things will be good. Once we will be adults, somehow that makes a revolving self, somehow it makes us to the point of what they called limitlessly. The paradise of freedom, what do all expectations in our young aged happen as listed in a plan? I might say not everything.

Dreaming is the first stage of expectations, wishing we will be that person in the movie or television, the character of the manga story, the person behind the talking and acting inside the four-sided wall of the old television. We wanted and we wished to be that one.

 I don’t know why I come out on this kind of topic. Maybe I am expecting too much or I get confused if I should expect things more often. Thinking about the future, executing the good not the bad. Maybe I am not the only one that was captured in the idea of expectations, maybe I am not the only person who asked for a good plan and expected a nice outcome but returned differently. Expectations turn to disappointment and disappointment results in some kind of self-rejection.

The past will be a great teacher, as we look back how we expect too much. It reminds me how to hurt that was, the self-realization will eventually come out and might say don’t and never expect too much. So it won't hurt you again.

But why does it hurt? Does it really hurt?

Days will just be a button to fast forward. The new year will come out from the calendar, what have we been expecting for the next year? I remember that expecting 2021 will be the normal thing for covid, that covid virus will be gone, only the remnant will make us ill for hours or days but not fatal anymore, but what happened again is different instead of new variants and much more complicated than last year.

Should we expect things to go for 2022, or just let the expectation sleep? That might be the reason why I came out to this write, should I expect things again? Should I return those once a list of expectations? Or should just go with the current flow of destiny streams?

That’s the problem, we don’t want to expect things to happen, but we can't help but to.

Back to the introductions, maybe things happen for a reason, even the expectations that were renounced has their inside reasonings.

List all the expectations I did last year that didn't end well and fill a whole notebook. But there was the thing I was proud of myself. Even I was disappointed with some outcomes,I never mentioned it to others, even I was so hurt about what just happened, no one knew. Even I was drowned by the idea that I must stop expecting. I just did again what I know is good.

I must add to my 2022 bucket list that “Expectations was a warning” I don’t know but because of what happened last year, the expectations turned to problems, expectations turned to logical will might be a reason for me to warm myself by expecting.

On the other hand, there was a benefit of wild expectations, that gives us a smile in our hearts. It might not have ended as good as we wanted, but we enjoyed things. Even it wasn’t agreed to universe wanted still us to be lightened.

Should we expect it or not? Not sure but yeah we were just humans and predicting what will happen next is a gift, it might turn left against our wants, still, it is part of our life journey and that was an I guess let me say excuse so. It's neutral and natural for us to expect things even we say we must  not it comes naturally lol,

How about you, what were the greatest expectations you tried to wish for this year that didn't come out as what you want? Mind to share? Thanks for reading the messy work hehe. Happy New year.