Plans and Unexpected Realizations

Let me start this article with an interactive question: How's your Wednesday, everyone?

Well, even if you wouldn't ask me, I feel so accomplished today. I was able to finish almost 75% of my mountain of work from the office. It has been a busy day, and I personally like it better than no work. I always have the urge to sleep or go home whenever I do less.

Moreover, it's the fact that I will only wait for two more days, and it's weekends again. I am so excited for rest days. LOL.

So what do I want to share again today? Oh, okay, I remember now.

Just earlier, coins.ph, my wallet for read.cash, notified me that I should get my account verified so I will be able to cash out, or send money to other online wallets. The deadline is May 20, 2021. Yes, fifteen days from now. The thing is, I am afraid I won't have a chance to verify it if I missed the set date.

This is a new dilemma, again. One after the other. Whew. To be frank, I don't have the valid IDs of all the list. I only have one—Philhealth, but it isn't accepted.

Now, my plan is to just apply for Police Clearance, one of the easiest valid ID to procure. And that means, I have to take another leave. Whoa, I've really been busy these days, huh?

Anyway, I also want to share that I suddenly thought of buying a new phone now. Don't get me wrong; it ain't a product of a luxurious desire or something like that You see, my current phone, which I just bought June of last year, only has 3GB RAM. This makes it hard for me to install more applications that I deem important.

And now that I am involving myself more in cryptocurrencies, I have planned on exploring on different tested wallet apps for my BCH. Just earlier this morning, my amazing phone prompted "Low on Storage" again. "Please delete unnecessary apps to ensure efficient use."

With a hopeless sigh, I uninstalled another photo-editing app that I love. Yeah, I said it in my previous article before. I love photography, and I also like putting my own touch in pictures I capture through editing.

Nevertheless, we all know that even budget phones still cause a lot, and we really have to separate money for this purpose.

I have added "Buying a new, high-end phone" on my wishlist, under the "Major" Category. Given my financial situation right now, I can't just randomly spend an amount for a gadget. Well, hopefully, soon. Who knows? Maybe my very first achievement through read.cash is being able to buy a new phone through just my articles' earnings alone. Wow, that's such a dreamy idea. I am suddenly more motivated.

That's still not for sure though. My initial plan is achieving 1BCH, anyway. I really wish I can achieve that this year. 2021, please allow this to happen! In Jesus' Name! Amen!

Now that I shared a random wish of mine, let me share another thought. (Really, Elle? You don't run out of sharing. Nobody cares.)

Kidding aside, my mother just mentioned me in a comment from a Facebook post. It says, "Mahina ang Kristiyanong kulang sa pananalangin at hindi consistent ang devotional life." ("A Christian who lacks in prayer, and not consistent on his devotional life, is a weak one.")

This reminded me, that I am a human, and I have limits. I have reflected about what I went through in the past few days, and realized my faith is not really in good condition now.

I have focused and spent time on many new things recently, that I forgot to prioritize my relationship with God. Yes, I still pray everyday—many times a day, in fact—but my habit of reading the Bible and using a few minutes for devotion have eventually perished.

There are times I talked to God while my mind is exploring about other things; or sleeping before even praying; or forgetting to pray at the right time.

God is my strength. I have always known and said it, but until today, I haven't realized it has long gone not applied in my life. I have been accustomed of dealing with things on my own, and a little bit of prayer, not even sure if it's sincere. Writing this right now reminded me, that I have God behind me in every minutes of my existence.

Why have I been so unmotivated and unexcited about life? Why is there always something that I want to have, but can't identify what? Some dark, empty space has resided in my heart for days and weeks now, but I still wondered how I can fill that void.

No wonder I am getting weak as a whole. Like a soldier who has conquered many battles and is now exhausted, but refused to drink the water offered to him; I am the perfect representation of that soldier.

And through mom, God has sent me a reminder again, I should trust Him in everything that I do and that I should not lean on my own understanding. His strength is perfect for my weaknesses and He is such a loving God.

With this note, I am ending this sharing session early. I mean, it's already 10 p.m. here in my place. I am also starting to drift into sleep; I am tired.

Hello there! This is another non-planned article I decided to post before I actually sleep. Don't forget to pray and ask God for strength. With Him, nothing is impossible.

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