Morning Blues (Random Blog)

I could say I did well yesterday. Whenever it is a break at the office work, I open different platforms on my phone and spare some time to make some productive things, visiting noise.cash, reading articles here, visiting Publish0x, and others.

While traveling home after work, as well, I used the time to read and catch up with all unattended articles in read up to those published 1 day ago. I also opened all those links sent in our TG group to show support and read the ones the club members wrote. I felt like it had no end, but I finally was able to catch up. Summing it all up, I could say I had read, and showed some support to roughly fifty articles yesterday alone. Wow.

I failed to do my goal yesterday to be noisy in noise dot cash, because I visited there only four times a day, I think. But it's better than not coming by at all. Thanks to my new kinds of posts, and to my improved interaction skills, I could earn a dollar per day. Yeah, too small for others who even accumulate lots more than mine per day, but to me, it's a big feat already, considering I barely got 200 subs there, LOL.

I was able to visit and tip about five to six posts in Publish0x despite filled with other things to do. Others even do more platforms than mine, like you guys are legends! How do you do that? Having many platforms to earn from, and managing to create contents to all of 'em everyday, wow! You have my respect. Hope I could be like that soon.

I was too sleepy last night, so I did not publish anything. It was for the best though, because I have lots of energy this morning. First thing I did was to look for my powerbank that I did not remember where I placed it into. Good thing I saw it chilling under the bed. It must have fallen when my bag containing it did slide dow that spot. I almost forgot.

Whenever I am busy about other things, I tend to misplace things. Right now, I have lost one toothbrush (only in this house of ours) and could not find my one uniform these days. Urgh, such a hassle. Now, you can see why I envy those people who are organized and does not miss anything despite having a packed schedule. I am trying my best to be like that every single day. Especially because I am already used to be like this, a laidback kind of person, just goes with the flow, and either faces unexpected things head on, or tries to avoid them (haha!).

Our schedule of work is reduced by one hour because of the quarantine implemented in our region, and though it'd mean a reduce to our salary too, I can't deny I am loving it, because that means extra hour to rest.

There is this one new habit I started this days, which is listening to Joel Osteen's Podcast every morning while going to work. Listening to it energizes me.more and helps me be inspired everyday. Thanks to a friend here who recommended it. As far as I remember, it was @Princessbusayo, thanks a lot for this one. I put the link in so you can check it out if you have Spotify. I assure you, listening would be worth it. The podcast may range from seventeen to thirty minutes or maybe more, so it is enough to be heard while traveling towards work, like me. I especially recommend to open it first thing in the morning so you can start your day right.

I guess I have to stop here, temporarily now, because I had to resume my preparation ritual to go to work. Haha! I will come back after I am fully ready.

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I am back, after almost thirty minutes, of course you did not know that (until I told you.) Anyway, let's move on. Within that scope of time, some things already, somehow.. ruined my morning. First, a friend texted me that she can't go to work today because she's not feeling well. Now, I have to relieve her duties. It's not her, no. It's not her fault that she got sick or whatever. But I will be honest: I don't like doing others' job. Not because I am lazy, but because I am always anxious if I could do it well. I am afraid I might commit some mistakes, and disappointing the person who trusted me the day for. One more thing is, if it's not a field I am good at, I am not confident I could do the tasks which maybe unexpectedly assigned to me. Being a reliever is hard, at least to me. I hope that in the future, I won't get a job that includes this. What's her job is just hers, what's mine is mine. It's my anxiety speaking, don't mind me.

Second annoying thing is when I don't want to be late, but the passenger jeepney I was riding, is still not moving because the driver wants more passengers. Seriously? This really pisses me off, when I want to go to work on time, but the vehicles stops lways and try to get more passengers. If only the time would stop as well. It's so hard being a passenger.

These two things elevated the irritation and anxiety I am feeling. I had to listen to the podcast after praying to God. Help me Lord, I don't wanna start my day like this.

I prayed that God tell me what He wants to, through the podcast. And He answered.

Thank you, Lord.

"You are not just surrounded by difficulties. God supersedes all of that. You are also surrounded by victories."

You may also want to listen to this today. It lifted my mood.

Writing this now, and I have a feeling that I'll be late to work today. Only twenty minutes before 8, and I am still nowhere near to my destination. I won't let this annoy me that much. Breathe in, breathe out.

Whew. I am really trying my best to calm down now. I guess I'll just stop here because you may not be able to keep up with this cahotic train of thoughts of mine. Someone told me I am quite skilled at talking randomly, and maybe this is what she means.

I will surely pray for peace after this one. There is traffic like, right now. Whew. You can do this, Elle. Inhale, exhale.