I've been very unproductive lately. Although every morning when I wake up, I keep telling myself that I'll have a productive day, I just end up wasting every hour doing nothing until the next thing I know, it's already evening again.
And then before I sleep, I would tell myself again that I'll really start being productive tomorrow until the morning comes and I just do the same thing, doing unproductive things, and the cycle goes on and on, and now I feel like I'm just wasting every single day of my life.
I used to be very productive in the sense that I could accomplish so many tasks in a single day, both in the real world as a student and hustling in the crypto-verse. I can finish almost all of the things that I write down on my To-Do list.
But now, I feel like I'm just consuming my time, wasting every minute of my every day, doing unnecessary things that don't even add value to my life or help me achieve my goals. I would spend a couple of hours or even more watching random videos on Facebook, scrolling up and down on my Facebook feed, and viewing other people's Facebook stories.
I'm not even exerting too much effort in my studies anymore unlike I used to do before even if I only have two subjects in my final semester in college. And I'm just settling with mediocre outputs that are not even "good enough" based on my standards. I've been getting lazier and always procrastinating when the professor gives us projects to do. I always say, "I'll just do it tomorrow since the deadline is still a few days away." until the next thing I know, it's already the passing day. Before, I don't wait for the deadline to come before I proceed to do my requirements. But now, I feel like the student in me is already dead.
I have also been outdated and missing out on a lot of opportunities in the crypto world, especially in the SmartBCH network. I don't even check the tokens I bought before if they still have value now or I'm already at a huge loss because I'm so demotivated to monitor them.
Sometimes, I would console myself by saying that it's okay if I'm being unproductive now since I'm just giving myself some time to take a break, especially since I've been hustling nonstop for the past months. But if it's been a few weeks of being unproductive now, I think it's already enough rest so I should get back on track already.
Being a poor girl with a lot of goals and dreams that I want to achieve in life, to be a procrastinator should not be tolerated because it wouldn't help me to achieve any of my aspirations. If I continue being unproductive, just laying down in my bed all day, and ignoring the opportunities that knock on my door, I don't think I will ever get to fulfill whatever I want to do in life.
I have no right to be lazy so I should stop procrastinating now and start being productive again because my goals are waiting for me to accomplish them.
Aguuuy feel kita. This days, medjo umaarya procrastination ko. Ewan ba~ siguro kasi wala pang 10 activities ko ngayon? Mas nakakasipag din kasi kapag sunod-sunod deadlines ay. Di napakali mga cells and tissues ko pero kapag kaunti lang? Ayna, tamad na tamad si ako. Accck! 🤧😆