Life Update: Stressed But Still Hustling

I'm currently sitting in my gaming chair, which I just recently bought along with the new laptop that I purchased, specifically for the purpose of working and hustling for my online freelancing gigs. I have been wondering how I'm going to start drafting my content development proposal for a prospective client with whom I was supposed to have a meeting this afternoon, but I made an excuse that I couldn't meet him today because I had a sudden plan with my family. But the fact was, I actually failed to make a content proposal yet because I don't know what to do and how to begin it. Luckily, my prospective client was kind enough to give me some more time to create a proposal and rescheduled the meeting for tomorrow morning, around 10 to 11 am. And that's just one of the things that are making me feel stressed at the moment.

Now, I know that it's been more than 2 weeks since I have written an article on this platform, and today, I'm back at writing my random thoughts because I just want to clear my head that's been clouded lately.

Some of you probably already know that I just graduated from college last month, last July 15 to be exact. And from that day on, I knew to myself that I will be carrying heavy pressure and loads of expectations from the people around me, especially since I graduated with flying colors. And because I wanted to prove to everyone that I am worthy of all the recognitions that I received and that I can do and be more, I began searching and creating a path that I know will bring me to the kind of success that I want to achieve. A place where I can manage my own time, work according to my own schedule, and be my own boss. And that path that I'm referring to is being a Freelance Professional.

I have been a freelance writer for almost 2 years now, and although I didn't receive that many writing assignments and tasks from my first agency client, I still consider it as my stepping stone to be where I want to be. And it really helped me a lot to get additional clients.

Since I graduated, I've been applying for freelance, part-time, and even full-time writing positions I could find that are posted on different Facebook groups, and luck was just probably by my side that I was hired as a freelance content writer for another Freelance agency. I have been working with them for 2 weeks now and I haven't gotten paid yet because of their sort of payment schedule but so far, I have already written 11 articles for them.

Then, I got inspired by a lot of success stories from Upwork freelancers (Upworkers) I've read on Upwork Facebook groups, which is why I wanted to work on my account too, which I also created almost 2 years ago. And luckily, I was able to work with 4 clients who gave me fixed work where I had to write articles and blogs for their websites. I also found another client who pays me an hourly rate and I need to work on his company website for 20 hours a week.

Now, you probably think that I'm already where I want to be because of those things that I mentioned above. I basically have 2 full-time jobs at the moment, 1 job with a Freelance agency and 1 4-hour-a-day job with a direct client.

But what's stressing me out is that these people I'm currently working with might not need my skills anymore because I'm already done with the project so that means, I will have to look for clients again. Well, it's a given because I'm in this sort of industry. Being a freelancer means you have to constantly look for clients and not settle for 1 or 2 since you might lose them at the same time. Freelancing is a never-ending job hunting, to begin with.

Sometimes, I even doubt myself if this path I'm taking is actually the right path that will lead me to a favorable destination or that will I ever achieve my goals with this path I'm taking. Sometimes, I think I should just go the other way, or follow what other people are doing, and that is to look for a usual 9-to-5 desk job. But I also want to try and challenge myself that if others could make it big in this industry, then I could do and make it too. I just need to put in the right amount of effort, hard work, and dedication so that I will be where I want to be in the future.

I don't know if I'm making sense here, but I'm actually just a little stressed out about my future, my goals. However, this is just a phase we all go through somehow. And I believe that we will get anything as long as we put our mind and heart into achieving it.

Fighting, dreamers! Let's go get them!