It's been a rough week for me. I have to deal with something I cannot see, my own emotion, myself. There are times that I wanted to communicate, but it always ends up isolating myself in this room, because I know no one will understand no matter how hard I try to explain what I'm going through.
Imagine you are inside a box, you can go outside but you choose not to. You are afraid that if you get out of your comfort zone, you'll end up hurting yourself more. You are inside this box and it's caving you forever.
"you are not free, it's just that the chains are long."
Sometimes, I felt like it is not a box. I felt like I'm in the center of a void, of total darkness. There are times that I don't want to engage in the outside world, but it's okay. I don't wanna hear the news, I don't wanna know what's happening now. and it's okay. I am so full of my thoughts, I can't stop thinking of them at night.
What's gonna happen in the future?
Am I providing enough for my family?
When will I gonna reach my goals in life?
But you know what is important? You are not stopping. We can always rest. You can't do it now? It's okay. but don't be stagnant. Don't forget about your goals in life.
I'm not feeling well these past few days and I felt bad that I can't explain how I feel.
There's a battle inside me but we still have to continue in life.
I hope that everyone who is reading this now and is experiencing depression may find peace in the things that they love to do. Don't let this control you. Goodnight.
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