I got tired

October 8.2022

I got tired of secrets and playing hide and seek, I got tired of being more transparent than spring water, I got tired of asking for time to love, I got tired of trying to achieve perfection in everything, I got tired of details and dreams broken.

I got tired of not having my own tastes for sacrificing everything at the mercy of others. I'm tired of existing for you, I'm tired of trying to fix alone what I didn't break alone.

I got tired of silence as an answer, I got tired of talking to the deaf and waiting for the mute to talk to me, I got tired and my shoulders got tired with me.

I'm tired of giving more than I receive. I'm tired of feeling what they don't deserve, I'm tired of saying, I'm tired of shutting up. I'm tired of apologizing. I got tired of justifying, of selfishness and disappointment. I'm tired of suffering.

I got tired of the empty sentences, the sleeping memory and the after. I got tired of seeing the moon cry, and see the sun sweat. I'm tired of not blinding. I'm tired of the fear of losing. I got tired of drawing on a blank paper. I'm tired of living on memories. I got tired of trying and not being able to.

I got tired of not being on anyone's podium, I got tired of being invisible. I got tired of the silence that drowns, the hug that never came and the door that never opened. I'm tired of being him, you, everyone except me.

I got tired, and when the soul gets tired you are ready to leave, to let go. It's time to heal, to lose myself, search for myself and find myself.