@Dennosaur
Shadows of my Past I feel so happy today because finally I made friends here in read.cash. I approached her gently and she responded to me so nicely. She even introduce me to her group friends in Telegram. Actually, I'm still adjusting using the platform because it was different in nose.cash. But day by day as I read tons of articles, I realised that people really have stories to tell. Each one of us has story that the world deserves to hear or read. Your story deserved to be read.
I'm gonna talk about our dark experiences in life. I know some of you may skip this because they don't want to remember the horrible and chilling experiences they had done through. But I see this as an opportunity to make a call that it's okay to release and talk about our dark experiences. You may not know that most people really ignored the topic or very hesitatant to speak because they might spill something that they will regret. Or they are afraid that people may judge them and brand them because of their past. Let me define these two words - shadows and past. ***Shadows*** are the dark material that produces through light. It was the part where light was blocked and produce the so called shadows. ***Pasts*** are the previous experiences and events we had in time. Pasts carry various emotions, feelings and learnings. Past is the word we used to understand the person's history. Yes, past is history. History of a person, animals, events, things, countries and even our world.
What are the dark experiences that I don't want to look back? Bullied Many years ago, it happened when I was in second grade. I can describe myself as responsible, neat, clean and active student. During discussions, I never missed to participate in classes because I feel like I can answer all questions. I'm a person who adapts to things easily and fast. That's why when I was young, I look like a nerd. Nerdie Denn. One time, after our class was done and I'm having my lunch in our classroom. One of my classmates approached me with fiery eyes. He was like a monster that will grab my neck and crack it anytime. He sat beside me and tell exactly these words "Sakin na yang pagkain mo nerdie Denn" in English "Your food is mine now, nerdie Denn". He grabbed my food and ran away. That was the very first I was bullied in school. Although he didn't hurt me physically, but the trauma I got from that was extreme. I was afraid of bringing foods in school since then because I was paranoid that someone will steal it from me.
Bike accident The same year, I had a bike accident with my father. My father likes to ride me to school because I was the first child my parents had. They both loved me and spoiled me in some things. Not spoiled brat. Every morning my mother prepared my meal and my school uniform. It was so good to smell because of fabric conditioner (Downy) and was ironed well. We lived in farm. I had a great experiences in farming and herding animals. I had special bonds to plants whenever I plotted them with my own two hands. One time, when are are not far away with our house. My father was riding me in his bike to send me to school. One of my foot accidentally entered the small hole in front of bike wheel. We immediately fell from our bike, and because the road was quite high because its farm. We stumbled like 1 and half meter deep. My father hugged me; covering my head. I was safe but received some bruises. On the other hand, my father had bruises and deep wounds in his eyelids. We're both send to hospital after we were found. My father undergone surgery and wasn't able to use his left eye. What to do to face our dark past? **Accept the facts that it happened**. It may happened internationally, accidentally or just by coincidence. Learning to accept is to give refreshment to our soul that we are starting to move on and let ourselves be freed in the dark chain **Learn the cause.** Learning the root cause of our dark past enable our mind to concentrate and stabilise our worries. Some dark past really are so bad that a person wanted it to be buried in the deepest hole in his head. But I think learning the cause will help us understand the situation and chop it all to not let it happen again. Seek help if possible. Seek help to others who had done through what we experienced will help us to face our dark past. They will give you insights on how you will fight it and transform it as a normal and ordinary past without fear. The most important learning you will have is from your dark past. It will teach you another level of knowledge that is incomparable to others. Let your dark past be the source of another light that will brighten your life in every corner. May you find peace and rest in all fears, worries and sadness you've done through.
Appreciation Today I received another sponsorship from @TalecharmThank you for believing in my articles. It was very inspiring to write more creative and purposeful content. `Image are all created in Canva` Published Date: 23rd of January Author: Dennosaur Article No.: 5th this January Alright Reserved 2022
38 comments
You are most welcome,.my dear friend, Den. All the best on your writing.
I'm so grateful that there are people who believes to my articles.
Madami din ako dark past like getting bullied pero kapag naalala ko mga yan, tinatarayan ko na ngayon mga nambully sakin, di naman sila makailag. HAHAHAHA.
Haha. comeback po ba yan? Just like "Be careful who you bully". Naks.. Palabana ang ate mo.
Hahaha. Kailangan eh. Kapag pinabayaan mo kasi sila, di ka rin titigilan. Parang mga walang kaluluwa lang.
Haha, oo nga po ate. Bat kaya ganon may mga tao talagang gustong manakit ng kapwa? hmm.
Sa tingin kasi nila, mukha na silang astig tingnan kapag nangtapak sila ng dignidad ng tao. As if naman.
Yas ate. Naku daminh stories ng bullying talaga sa school namin dati. Parang ignore lang ang school.
Oh my gosh. Medyo nikabahan ako dun sa nangyari sa inyo sa bike. 🥺 Naalala ko tuloy yung nasagasaan ako ng bike na minamaneho ng classmate ko nung grade six. Eh maliit ako, kaya napatapon akonnung nabangga, muntikan pa ko mahulog sa dike na kataas. 🤧 Ako, marami.din ako dark past. Until now, the trauma is in here. At di ako makapagpatawad 🥺🤧 gustuhin ko man kaso mahirap. Saka na siguro pag healed na ako.
My dark bike experience ka rin po pala ate. Until now, hindi na ako nagbibike, bag mo motor lalo na mag drive. Naka imprint pa rin yung trauma ko nung bata ako. Mahirap po magpatawad pero, darating din ang time na magiging ready kana ate to face them and say "I forgive you with all my heart".
Hihihi sana nga den. Sana. ☺️
Dark past? I had some I chose to buried it and not dare to look back. Though there are some instances I remember about it went triggered. I am sory for what happened to your father. But indeed he shows how much he loved you. Bullying? I was a victim too😒
Righr, I can't believe I opened my dark experiences here, but I think it's time for me to face it. So much love and sacrifices done my father for me/us.
*I have so many dark past too pero pinili kong e let go ang mga yun para makapagsimula ulit ng bago. Acceptance talaga ang unang pwedeng gawin. Accept na nangyari yun at matuto sa experience na yun* *Yung sa bike experience mo naalala ko yung uncle ko na nagkuha namin sa school dati, nung pauwi na kami yung isang Paa ng isang pinsan ko pumasok doon sa May gulong at yung balat natanggal, nakakatakot yun na time baka ano ang mangyari sa kanya buti gumaling lang yun, nilagyan palagi ng amoxicillin*
Ganon rin nangyari sakin ate, pumasok yung paa ko sa unahan ng gulong kaya nag out of balance kami ng tatay ko. Buti nalang hindi nacrack or nabali yung buto ko sa paa that time.
*Aigoo sakit nun, buti mga galos lang. Mahirap talaga yun pag May nabali or na crack man lang sa mga buto mo. Bilib ako sa tatay mo, sinesecure talaga niya yung kaligtasan mo.*
opo ate. aruy talaga eh. minsan nga po nunh nag try ako mag motor way back 2010, muntik naman ako mabangga. Biglang may sumingit na tricycle sa gilid ko. kaya panata ko, di na talaga ako magdrive
It's totally okay to recall those dark past incidents ,it always help us to gather some lessons which will help us in our future. Actually I don't care about other's judgment because no matter how much you try to impress them, try to do good things there are many people who will never miss a chance to disrespect you, disgrace you. You talked about bullying, don't allow your worst experiences bully you again coz everyone faces bullying at least for one time. I'm a victim of bullying too , just ignore those people as much as you can.
That's my mindset too. Although I was bullied before but i never belittled myself and be bullied again. I prove that someone like me can triumph over them. Thanks for this ate!
We all can conquer our fears if we want to. There is a huge possibilities hidden within ourselves we just need to find out.
Everyone has something negative around his past but it is nothing cause you already move forward in present..so it is just giving yourself pain to look back past ... nothing else
That's positive thinking. You know there are experiences in life that was too much and imprinted deeply in our memeories that sometimes hard to forget.
It's all part of our lives but bullies is suck. Wla nmn masydong gumawa nyan sa akin ksi matapang ako, charot! Palaban ksi ako non since kid hanggang lumaki😅.
Parang amazona ka pala ate? haha. well maganda rin talaga yung may gantong character para iwas bully.
Di nmn ah. Sadyang ayaw ko lng mgpaapi. Kahit mga kapatid ko ayaw ko maapi sila ksi ang babait nila eh lalo na mga sisters ko.
Lagi ako nabubully eversince bata pa 🤣 un rin reason ng isa sa binagksak ko eh hanep HAHAHAAH
As in bumagsak sa school ate? Naku di naman ako umabot sa gantong punto. haha
Bully rin talaga major na cause ng trauma ko nung bata ako especially nung grade 3. Di lang isa kundi grupo ng kababaihan at mga seatmate ko na lalaki nambubully sakin araw araw. Kaya mahalaga talaga na ieducate ang anak hanggat bata pa na mali gawin yun sa iba, di nila alam ang effects sa iba ng simpleng asar at pananakot nila.
Nakakalungkot na kapag may nabubully na mga bata, tinatawan at iniiwasan pa ng mga classmates. they don't even dare to approach. Totoo po ate, more on moral and character building talaga ang dapat sa mga bully
How's your dad's left eye na? Naapektohan vision niya? Welcome to read.cash. hehe ❤
Praise God, his vision becomes cleared gradually and fully healed after 2 or 3 months. Yey! Thanks ate.
I see. That's good to know 😊
Oh just like me, i was once bullied but the worst it's happened when I was already on secondary so i didn't enjoy my high school life 😅. But it's already in the past, no more holding back.
Sad. I thought I was the only one who had story about bullying here but it seems many are experienced it before. Now, we're stronger and braver.
Hmm, I have dark experiences too and yes, all we need to do is accept it and move forward. Anyways, welcome at readcash! :)
oho thanks for welcoming me here. Right, moving forward to commit ourselves for better opportunities is a must
Kahit ako meron din naman akong mga naranasan sa buhay... mga mapapait na nakaraan. Kaya hindi ko na iniisip yan focus ako ngayon sa present kasi doon na tayo nabubuhay e. Kung ano man yung mga pinagdaanan natin noon, iconsider nalang nating lesson sa buhay. Kasi ganon naman talaga. Nice! Belated Welcome to read.cash! You can have more friends here soon. Just keep writing 💚
Tama po ate. gawing lessons nalang talaga ang nakaraan at maging praktikal sa lahat ng magiging desisyon. Salamat ate.. hooray! na appreciate ko talaga lahat ng comments, like and upvotes here. legit!