This is the last update I will make about my grandfather because yesterday we finally let him go and he is now on the ground with our ancestors. We all cried about it. The cry I didn't know will flow in my eyes like endlessly. It didn't stop until I saw people are all left. I just want to have a final moment with him. It is so painful in my heart. A pain that strikes me back and forth.

Losing someone we dearly love and adore is such an unfortunate situation. We barely have the confidence and strength to fight it. The body just want to sit down in a side corner of the room with cloudy thoughts. It is not always easy to protect, care and fight for your love ones. All you need to do is embrace and accept what happened because it will set your mind free from worries.

I prepared set of questions to answer for today. I cannot get over with my grief yesterday. I feel drained and need to be recharged because I want to live a happy life again. These past 8 eight days were so tiring and sleepless night. I want to write about optimistic questions and answer it honestly. I got these questions online and collected them as one piece.

What is the greatest responsibility your parents have given you?

I am not the firstborn child in the family, but I am currently the eldest because our firstborn died because of health issues. It was difficult for them because you know my parents lose their first child. Whatever they do, he died without experiencing what it feel like to live. To live happily with us, to live playing basketball, and to live studying in school.

My parents are not a type of parent who will give responsibility you cannot take care of. I think the greatest responsibility they ever given to me was to wake up at 4am to take care the fishermen who used our boat. Like, rental or something. I will list how many kilos of fishes, crabs, and squids they caught. Then I will cut it down from the total expenses they got from us. The rest of remaining balance will be cut into two, one for us and one for them.

Would you ever considering getting a tattoo?

In my inner thoughts and desire, yes. But if I ever got a tattoo, then I will be scolded by my grandmother for real. I might be slapped by my mother and punch by my father. From our family, no one has ever got a tattoo because they don't really like it. The culture in the family is solid and sacred. Follow and you live, don't follow then get out. Live your life like a madman.

If you are thinking my family is strict, no. We just have these set of do not's in our family that keeping us a good and presentable person. The 6pm curfew in our family is still alive and if you don't follow it. Expect you will be closed off the door. You cannot enter unless you have a valid reason. I experienced it once and my grandmother let me in around 2am already. I will never do it again, I swore to her that day.

What does it mean to be a family?

I watched several family movies and in a basic definition, family is your blood-related and produced you in a same branch of genes. That is a usual definition of a family. Yet, a family to me is someone who can accompany me through ups and downs. From my greatest and lowest of my life. A burden and abundance. That is why a friend can be your family. Your classmate can be a family.

No matter what our definition of family, the most important one is you care for your family. It may be blood-related or not. They are the people who will be with you until you breath your last. The more family we have, the more we can enjoy the life because it will not be boring at all.

I want to say thank your because I finally achieved 50 subscribers! This is very unexpected because I am 13 days only in read cash. I am so happy because people keeps upvoting, liking, commenting and sharing their thoughts after they read my article. Rusty is also so good to me. So, thank you po

You are so welcome to become my sponsor. I would love to see you there in that block. Thank you po!

I am grateful you read this!