Fixing Myself

Have you ever felt that there's something wrong in you? Like your living in this world however you don't know where you're going? I felt that thing for almost decades of living in this world. I always go with the flow, I don't have plans and goals in life that's why I don't know what should I do. My life is boring without goals, sometimes I tends to make some goals and plans but ended up didn't pursue it due to loss of interest. Maybe it's because there's no one made me motivated to do it. Before, I really love making stories and I have this goal to complete the story titled When Death Fell inlove to life however I lost interest to continue it, maybe you're already familiar with this story cause I've already shared it here few months ago. It looks like finished but the story didn't reached its falling action yet. It's in me that I immediately losing interest on one thing. I don't know what's my plan and goal to the point that I already forgot to take care my body.

I've been engage on playing mobile legends before too the point that i forgot to have some exercises and eat at time that's why I continuously loosing my weight. If you can see me right now I'm look like a stick man. However something changed have happened. There's a friend of mine that I talked about, it's a tiktok video of her and my crush. I got amazed on how my crush glow up she's now like a elegant woman and also cute. Me and my friend talk about that crush of mine but little did I know, she's taking screenshots of our conversation and sending it to my crush. Well it's not new to me since I already knew its gonna happen. I'm just acting like I don't know it, not until I learn that she's still single and no boyfriend since birth despite of how cute she is. I even jokingly said that I'm gonna woo my crush once I have muscles and abs then also money then my crush said to her that we gonna wait for the right moment if I already make a move.

At that moment I got motivated motivated fix myself, I've questioned myself why I'm like this for many years?. That's the reason why I've decided to fix myself, I need to become healthy and gain some wait by doing some exercises and eating healthy foods. Also, I need to grind more on read and noise.cash in order to accumulate some decent income. It's really different of me right now, I have goals and plan. I've started my plan to gain some weight this morning, I've prepared myself as early a 5 AM then went to heritage park to have a jogging. I've brought banana and dalandan on me do that I have something to digest before I jog. I'm aiming to reach headquarters of Philippines aremy which almost 2 kilometers away from heritage park. When I was on middle of jogging, I feel like I'm gonna vomit, maybe my body got shocked due to nonstop jogging and its months ago since the last time I've jog that far.

I vomit at the side of the road hopefully it's still dawn that's why there's no people passing by. Until I reached the headquarters and I'm happy to achieved such long jog, then the next thing I've done is to return in heritage park. I have no energy left but my plans keep insisting on my mind. I even shout and slap my face in order to awake myself. Then I continue jogging to return in heritage. I'm so exhausted and my legs is so numb, I can't move my legs but it's worth it. I've achieved the first day of jogging and planning to continue it everyday. It's really amusing to see that I'm starting to fix myself due to a one lady, maybe she's the reason why I'm going to change. One day I'm gonna show up in front of her which I already acquired six packs of abs and muscles, just kidding. I hope she's still single that time or else my effort will be wasted however for me it's still a win win situation and I'm very glad that she became my motivation to change myself.

It truly concludes that we just need to find a motivation for ourselves, we need to have motivations in order to pursue the goal and plan we set. Maybe on my part, I don't have any motivations before to pursue those goals that's why it ended up stopping those goal of mine. This upcoming 2022 I'll promise to myself that I will set goals and plans and I want to aim nor reach all of them. Some of those goals are owning the things that I want such as bikes, clothes and many different things. I can only achieve those goals if I pursue them, I need to make myself motivated and no room for laziness and procrastination in order to achieve what I really want in this life.