September 14, 2022

How's everyone? It's good to be back here it's been more than a week since my last post and I am not happy with what I am doing but then I need to face the consequences if ever rusty wouldn't recognize me at all.

Anyway, I know that we can not avoid some negative circumstances in our daily lives, but what's good about it is that it makes us strong enough to handle things in order.

To be honest, one reason why I didn't bother to write, read, and published articles is because all my free time ill spent on some things which are not helpful to me at the end of the day I ask myself, what exactly do I want? I already didn't know what was going on with me I do things that I rarely used to exist like filming myself and posting it on Facebook as if I want some attention from other people which we all know that those people didn't help but only just doing some gossip with what we are performing.

However, I know, that I have something in my mind that keeps on bothering me but also I kept on telling myself that it's nothing and that everything is all right which is the opposite of what happened to me I have so many worries about what would be gonna happen in the upcoming days, the month it's because 3 months from now I am already jobless that's the sad part when we overseas workers going home.

Why I am worried

I am worried because I am going back home with less money and it's been how many months now since the last time I give money to my parents I feel guilty whenever I can't give them, Even though I wanted to give them my budget is not enough I need to pay first the dept for the house materials.

I am worried it's because for sure after my vacation, I need to go back abroad again. After all, I don't have any choice since I am not yet ready or financially able to stay for good in the Philippines, particularly since all the prices for our daily needs were already increasing from time to time so we need to grind more so that by the time that we are no longer able to work then are ready and we will not be come to be a burden to our family so we keep on going.

Closing words

The hardest part is when the time comes that my vacation is over I didn't know if I can still handle the pain because every time I recall, those moments when we bid goodbye my heart broke and it needs a long time before I could recover.

That's all for me today hoping for the best for all of us, To my sponsor and all my virtual friend thank you so much.

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