Winning the Battle against Envy and Hatred

Have you ever feel envy? Have you ever feel angry? Have you ever make yourself drown from distressed? Konnichiwa minna-san, how are you today? I've been thinking for what article I'm going to write next, actually I am quite free tonight since it's my day off tomorrow, I just want to do the free-writing now , give some advice, and give a message to my article tonight. I might not be good at explaining things since I was young but I hope you can make my writing a hope to remember hehe. For my article, I want you to fight the battle against these two negative emotions, I can't say it is easy because I tell you what, it wasn't as easy as it says, I experienced it after all. When a person can't handle these emotions they might do evil things to another person.

Let me give you an example, and a story, my story to be exact; I was envy from my siblings not just because they are more important than me but also because my parents give them the love they ever asked for and me? Nah forget it, I even offered everything I could just to make them feel how sorry I was and how sincere I was but they still not give me attention and my siblings? They didn't do anything too, they can't offer what I can. That time I asks my parents, was my offer and sorry was not good enough? Why they can't just accept me? Actually, even if it's good enough my anger to my siblings and to my uncle wouldn't appeased. Whatever I do good things they doesn't care, they only care if I make a mistake, and they will punish me. You see my parents always makes me feel so guilty, guilty for the sin I didn't even do, I was so angry to the point I wanted to do evil things, I was so envy to the point I wanted to snatch one of my siblings life. Have you ever heard the word, every sin has its equal punishment? I thought it was not true since I only suffered and the people who are real guilty were just lingering around and having fun. But it's all in just a perfect time. They may be have fun today but tomorrow they will be punish more than they deserve.

I will give you some ways how to win the battle against your envy and hatred :) this actually works since it works to me hehe.

• Change your thought of yourself

• You have something that someone does not have

• Be with someone who has a good heart

• Be happy no matter what

One reason why we envy someone or other people even our sibling is because the thought to ourself, tell me, have you ever contented for who you are and for what you are? Tell me honestly! because I wasn't; whatever I do, I do think of myself that I wasn't good enough, I strive for the things I thought I could achieve. I was focused to the point I forgot to love myself and to respect my self, I was so focused to the things that I thought it could help me but it wasn't. Stop envying to someone who you think can make better than you. You are talented, you are more than good enough, you are unique in many ways. Your envy for them would nothing good for you, you only making yourself worsen just what I was before. Just keep in mind

Your life is worthy you have to stop to lived like everyone else. :)

Next is that always think that you have something that someone doesn't have, count it in, count it as your achievement, count it as yours and not somebody else. You might be always think that yours is still not enough and theirs are more than enough but remember what I said from my other article? "You are you and not someone else" yours are yours, live a life that belongs to you and not belongs to someone else. You are talented enough and wise enough to understand yourself.

Never compare yourself to someone else, you have something than someone doesn't have remember that

The third one, don't make yourself suffer to someone who has nothing good to you, always be with someone who can help you win the battle against your envy and hatred to someone who made you suffer, they will give you the advice you never had before. Take them as your strength and concur your weakness.

Spend your time with them and your spirit will become gratitude

The last one is that we forgot to be happy because we've been envy for the things that we can't have and we can't get, we forgot to be grateful for the things we have had, because we wanted more and more. Actually tho, it is not bad to ask for more because I myself even ask for more not for myself but for the person who helped me to get out from the suffering I once had in my life. This is the thing I forgot, I forgot to be happy, I was focused to give the best since I was young but I thought it could help me. I just make myself suffer more, and that envy and hatred of mine become bigger. So minna never forget to be happy no matter what.

Smile makes the things lighter :)

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That is all for tonight's article everyone. Hope you get what I want to tell, and hope you get something from this article. Just do whatever it takes to win the battle and make that you weapon to concur the day. :) Gambatte minna-san.