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No need to get paranoid Have you ever felt that everyone had ganged up against you? Well I think we all have been there before at one point . This is often accompanied by a change in moods and one tend to become quite temperamental or judgemental. You'd always think " I am definitely pay them back in their own coin.. I definitely will find away to settle the scores sooner or later". **Thank** **you** 🙏 When paranoid, one can become quite oversensitive or simply put superstitious. You'd keep experiencing a growing feeling that everyone around you have a mischievous or dishonest plan towards you. All this would continue forming a vicious cycle in your mind and soon, you begin to imagine some weird assumptions about others. Stuffs that you have no right to think about and this might make you become unfair to others. we'd later realize in our hour of calmness and serenity that this was only a mind trick since you wouldn't be able to find a justifiable reason why you are thinking or acting this way. Often, one becomes paranoid when he or she is at a central spot or an enviable position. For instance, at a workplace, boss might be made to believe that his employees are plotting against him when ever he sees them having the usual offfice gossip or even an harmless chitchat. Especially when he knows that he hasn't been a very kind or lovable boss to them . Such a boss might choose to answer a simple " good morning sir" from his employees with a frown. He'd consider all of them as hypocrites who insults him at his back. A sibling, spouse , colleague or friend can get paranoid up to a level that they engage you in an outright confrontation or worse, falsely accuse you about something you know absolutely nothing about. It might be that your words or actions in a previous discussion or scenario had been twisted or wrongly interpreted by them. And instead of asking you to make them understand better, they become sour towards you. This could make one feel hurt or angry especially when these accusations are mere thoughts bereft of reasoning and evidence. When you are being faced with such a paranoid partner, it's advisable for you to exercise alot of calm and restraint even though they continue to push you towards the edge. Because whatever you say or do in the heat of the row could make things worse and a simple misunderstanding might later degenerate into prolonged malice and hatred.

Later, when the other person have calm down and is now able to organize and analyse his or her thoughts well, they'd definitely apologize to you for overreacting. I have observed that most people who suffer from Paranoia are people who think that have alot to lose or people who had have had a bad experience before like an heartbreak, a business failure or lost of a loved one. This might make them to nurse unnecessary fears and worries. During my second year in high school, third term precisely, I came second position after the exams. This was really an admirable feat as no girl have ever emerged in the top three since our first year. I enjoyed praises from my parents, teachers and the boys in class. One day, when me and the other girls were having an interesting conversation, one of them said: "Bilkisu would pretend to be gisting or playing with us, later on, she would sneak into the library to study". Wether she said this playfully or out of envy, I would never know . Normally, I shouldn't be upset by such a statement. As a matter of fact, it should have made me laugh as it was intended to be a joke. But because I allowed my new position in class get into my head, not only did I became angry at her, I also became furious at the other girls too. I thought they were all jealous of me.

I didn't talk or interact with the other girls in class for almost a week . Whenever I see a group of girls from my class having a conversation during the break, I'd always think they were talking about me. And whenever they laughed and inadvertently looked at my direction, I'd be so convinced that I was the subject of their gossip. I even imagined that they laughed louder and more frequently than before. It all made me angry the more. I had to changed my seat by coming to sit at the front of the class close to a boy who always came first in class. I thought he was the kind of friend that I should be rolling with henceforth. Lol. To cut the long story short , I continued to nurture the enmity towards the other girls rather than focusing on my studies. And as God would have it, my performance in the next examination dropped . Instead of maintaining it, I lost the second position to the original owner. It was as if I only helped him in holding it for a short period of four months. Strangely enough, I didn't feel embarrassed even when the other girls were now obviously laughing at me . I was able to quickly shake off the shame and I approached them. I apologized for my misbehavior towards them. I was readily forgiven and taken back into the sisterhood. As our friendship grew stronger, I totally forgot and never cared about coming second position again. Lol. ******************************* Thank you for staying with me ♥️ ♥️

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