@Ayane-chan 14 September 2021 more from that month

Almost Empty And Somewhat Lightheaded

***Heya, beautiful people!*** Welcome to another session of my writer's block. I have been busy online shopping for pajamas throughout the day, so as expected, I haven't settled my mind about a certain topic to write about today. I'm the type of person whose weakness is cold temperatures and weather. You know, the ***BER months*** have already started. If this season is the most joyous and festive for everyone, but for me, it's *half-hellish* because I can't stand cold seasons and *half-merry* because of abundant blessings to received, also, of course, the birth of the ***SAVIOR*** is to be celebrated! I asked a friend who has an account of ***Shoppee*** to shop for me because I'm such a coward in terms of ordering online. I'm afraid to lose money if it turns out to be a scam or I have received a substandard item. She has a trusted store there, which she often sets orders. That's why I just ask her to shop for me, I'm not the risk-taking type. Since I haven't settled my mind of a topic to write about, here are some Random Questions that I would like to answer again. It comes from @mommykim 's article, **Random Questions Again!** https://read.cash/@mommykim/random-questions-again-1b746ef1 If you would also like to participate, then just **follow this link 🔗** . https://www.teenvogue.com/story/21-questions-game

*If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?* If there's something about myself that I want to change, that would be my speaking skills. I want to improve my speaking skills because up until now, I still have a stage-fright and still stuttering when I speak during reports, interviews, and speeches. My biggest fear when I was a student was to be called out during oral recitations and to be chosen as a group reporter for our tasks. I often skip all those tasks because I'm afraid and I'm not good with them. I'm afraid to embarrass myself and be the topic of bullies after, so I choose to escape, run, abstain, and skip all those speaking tasks. *What's your biggest fear?* My biggest fear is to see my loved ones pass away one by one. I'm addicted to depression and been melodramatic since I was a child. To think that they will eventually leave me in the future brokes my heart and makes me cry sometimes when I'm alone. I don't know how to continue living my life if they leave me. *What's your favorite type of dessert?* My favorite type of dessert is no other than ***CHOCOLATES***. It doesn't matter if it is a chocolate cake, chocolate fudge, chocolate cupcakes, dark chocolate, or chocolate drinks. As long as it is chocolate, I will surely like it. *Who in your family are you closest to?* The family member that I'm closest to is my mother. She is the only one who understands me. She is the only ally I have when gossips spread about me which comes from the species of Marites in town. She is my best friend when everyone doesn't want to be with me because I look different. She is also my secret-keeper. O can tell her all my dark secrets without getting criticized and it never leaks out.  *If we were in the middle of a zombie apocalypse, who are three people you'd want on your team?* I would form a team with my 2 best friends, the skater boi and the online shopper. They may look kind and gentle but when they are truly strong and brave. The skater boy is like a laughing demon when he gets angry and the online shopper is like a roaring lion. About my side, I'm just a dare-devil. I never back out if I already made up my mind. I will surely attack head-on. We're going to be a good team, right? *How do you get over a breakup?* First, I would send back all the things that my ex has given me. Second, I will forcedly forget all the things we did. Honestly, I can't even remember the name of my ex sometimes. Third and last, I will try my best to live normally, laugh, smile, and play-pretend, as usual. *Aside from writing this article being lightheaded, I'm also sleepy. I may have dozed off 4 times while typing this one. I'm ending these random blogs. 'Til next time!* ***Thanks for reading.***

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