Love is a very vague word to discuss and there is no exact definition of what really is it. On the contrary, we all agree in one thing, we simply feel it when it comes and when it does, no explanation is needed as long as we knew that it’s real then it’s alright.
Sometimes destiny is very friendly to us because there were times that we happen to fell in love to someone which also feel the same towards us. Such a blessing isn’t it? However, in some cases the opposite also happens and in my own opinion it actually happens a lot more frequent than that of the positive one.
I do believe that most of us had already felt being in love and loved by someone else specially in our teenagers life, some can call it a puppy love, others may realize it as infatuation, but how about those who dated from their high school or college and then then soon become husband and wife, we call them high school lovers or whatever. The point here is very clear, love doesn’t care about maturity. When you’re in love you will mature for the sake of it but it does not work the other way around. Being immature doesn’t necessarily mean you won’t feel what true love is because love has no rules, it is a powerful force that can build and/or destroy someone, so stop saying and embedding your thoughts about love to someone that is younger than you because yours and hers is different let them learn from it by experiencing it.
So, let’s talk about first love, they say that first love never dies, well in my case it really never dies but it doesn’t mean I still love her the way I love her before. It’s just so happened that she’s my first love and there was part of my life where we are together. For me, I’m nothing like who I am today without her being part of my past and same as my other exes, I’m not who I am today without them. They honed me, they help me realize of what kind of person I was before and from that point I change and become a better man.
Honestly, when I was in my mid high school life, I’m not fun of flirting, I hate socializing, I felt like I was okay and contented being alone until this one time, my mother asked me to drive and buy something for her then on my way to the store there was these two ladies whose walking in the mid of the day, I don’t know where they from so I did not mind them at first. And then one of the ladies shouted my name.
I wasn’t expecting that they know me because I really don’t know them so I turn back the motorcycle and frankly asked them, “How did you know me?” they say my cousin which happens to be the boyfriend of one of the ladies told them about me. To be honest their cute but I don’t really like them approaching me that bold still I offer them a ride and the rest is history.
To cut the long story short we became friends, and one of the two ladies became my first love, honestly, we’re like cats and dogs at first but it ends up falling with each other. It was a very good relationship and we’re happy at least for 1 year and 8 months and by the way at the early age of 16 our parents legally knew our relationship and they had nothing to say about it.
It was November of 2016; we had a miss understanding so I came to her place and escorted her to her grandmother, while on a ride we’re still happy, I drop her in front of her Lola’s house then quickly say goodbye and went home. At night I tried to contact her but to my surprise a man answered the phone and that’s when I knew I was betrayed. I never asked her why but still I manage to talk to her and broke up with her in peace well at least in my side it was okay because I knew they betrayed me and I think I will only hurt both of us if I did not let her go.
After that incident I tried to refocus myself in my studies even if I don’t have to, then I tried to entertain another woman. Then an unexpected event happened, she texted me and said she’ll wait in their balcony so I went there, then to my surprise she cried and said I betrayed her. My eye brows lifts up because of what I heard, “I betrayed her? in what way?” I asked myself then that’s the time I told her what I knew about her relationship with my classmate, she cried even more and repeatedly asking for forgiveness but I keep on saying that it’s okay and I totally understand. Maybe we’re not really meant to be and the reason she betrayed me because I’m lacking in some way, she wanted me. I really never got mad because I understand and I love her so I’m willing to let her go even though it hurts.
Up to now we never reunited since that moment, we don’t have any communication but I guess she’s happy as I am today, but don’t get me wrong, I’m still single but happy to be single. It's so damn good to be in love so for those who were hurt don't be afraid to try once more.
I also have my first love when I was in Highschool, we were LDR when we was in College we did have misunderstanding and lose of communication. He was in Hawaiii that time, we didn't closure since now and then. We cut off our relationship by leaving some questions but still he didn't forget to greet me on our birthday. I got married now and his mother told my mother that never let married the man who was the father of my child. I hope will be friends when the time comes to met again.