Am I Just Overthinking?

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Overthinking is one of my habit whenever I feel bored or when I want to draw conclusion upon something I am not sure about if I am actually right or not.

Overthinking is not actually good for our mind. It's okay to think but not overly doing it as we might get stressed or worse, it will lead to depression or other mental health problems.

But sometimes, overthinking is inevitable and we can't seem to control it in a sense that even though we want to not overly think about something, our mind keeps saying 'no' and we'll still gonna think about it again and again until we arrive to a negative conclusion.

However, my level of overthinking lately is quite dropping when I got to learn the ways on how to prevent negative thoughts from completely devouring my mind (metaphorically speaking).

But, something happened that made me overthink again which started yesterday upto now.

I don't know if I am just overthinking or I am really right with my assumption. I will tell you what happened then let me know your thoughts about it, judging if I am I just overthinking or not.

So, I have this girl instructor in college who was also my teacher when I was in Senior High School. She's actually pretty nice to everyone, but I don't feel like she's nice to me as well (though I am not sure if it's just my feeling or she's actually nice to me but I am too insensitive to feel it).

She's just few older than me but he graduated earlier than my batch as she wasn't been a product of K-12 program. Their batch was actually the last product of the old curriculum here in the Philippines.

That instructor of mine is an English teacher so she is the one assigned in one of our major subjects as I am an English major too.

Going back, I have this feeling that she's not comfortable with my presence (not sure about this) because based on what I observed, she wasn't very approachable to me, or let's say, she's actually interacting with me but not as lively with other people.

To make things clear, it's not that I am demanding for an attention from my instructor (coz I am just a student and I have no right to demand something aside from quality education), but the way she talks and interacts with me is quite different from others.

There's an instance before when she gave us a difficult activity that left us puzzled upon the process. All of us are confused about a certain instruction so we have to talk to her via Facebook messenger because we are in online class set up and we can't ask queries personally.

My classmates received consideration and warm assistance from her while me, I just received a like sign and a simple ''read the instructions again". With that, I just asked my classmates about what to do and gladly, I survived that subject with a decent grade despite the cold treatment of my instructor.

Another scenario is when I replied to one of her stories in Facebook. She shared a class photo of our batch together with her with a caption indicating how she misses us, and as one of her students in that photo, I replied 'I miss you too, ma'am!" My classmates shared a screenshot of that photo again together with our instructor's sweet reply to their messages, while me, I received nothing. She just seen my messages without any reaction at all. But, maybe she was just busy back then or her phone got lowbat that she forgot to reply anymore when it wa fully charged again. Of course, think positive again. Hehe

Now that she's going to be our instructor again in one of our major subjects, I sensed a slight change with how she treats me. Earlier, she asked me to create a chat group for our subject, and reacted a "yellow heart" when I said I'm done creating it. She even thanked me again in our main gc, though there's sometimes a shift with her treatment to me. Sometimes, she will just ignore my questions or just gonna react 'like' to my messages. Sometimes she's cold, sometimes not.


CLOSING THOUGHTS

I don't know if she's having a problem with me, or it's already part of her personality to shift moods. Or maybe, I am just over reacting here with a non-existing issue. Hahaha

However, even though I am sometimes having this negative feeling towards her, I still admire her as a teacher as she was really intelligent in almost all aspects. She's pretty, confident and skillful, that's why she's one of the people whom I really admire.

On that note, my mind can't really decide if there's really a problem between us, or am I just overthinking again.

Let me know your opinion above it, if there is. Thank you!


Author's Note:

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Date Published: January 13, 2022

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Maybe moody lng sya sis kaya ganun or pareho kayo ng nararamdaman sa isat-isa

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2 years ago

Baka nga po. Baka awkward lang talaga atmosphere between sa amin kaya nag-ooverthink ako kahit wala naman atang issue. Hehe

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2 years ago

May feeling naman tayo sis na ganun diba, may taong ayaw natin kahitbwlang ginagawa at ganun din ung ibang tao sa atin🤣

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2 years ago

First thought that came to my mind: "It's only overthinking if it leads you to draw wrong conclusions or take wrong actions."

Thinking about something significantly more than you do about other things is just because its something you care a lot about, and it's important to you. That isn't overthinking.

As far as your teacher's behavior goes there are a couple of possible reasons i can think of reading your story. One of them is that you are one of her students of which she knows don't need much if any assistance or instructions from her. She might be trying to push you into discovering that the things you ask her or things you think you cannot understand without more guidance actually aren't beyond your capacity to figure out.

Another reason that came to mind is that she feels the admiration you have for her, and/or interprets the way you behave towards her as inappropriate. Maybe its the other way around and its her own feelings she has towards you she wants to avoid.

Or it could just be, as you fear, that she dislikes you for some reason.

Point i'm trying to make is that if you feel she treats you differently than all the other students, and you want to know why, there is only one thing that will truly solve the issue for you.

Talk to your teacher and simply ask her.

You can simply ask her: "Miss. Whateverhernameis, i have the feeling you respond different to me than you do to other students. Your behavior towards me is not like that towards the other students. I was wondering if those feelings are correct and if that is the case i would like to know why that is."

That is a perfectly normal and sensible question to ask a teacher, because your academic performance and success are dependent on her and the relationship you have with her. And whatever the answer is, whether you're right or you're misinterpreting things, you will be closer to a solution. If she confirms your experience than you can ask her why and have a route to a solution. If she does not, then you know you should look inward for the solution.

Good luck, i hope you can get this out of the way! (and share with us how and what happened)

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2 years ago

Thanks for these insights as I got to realize some reasons why she treats me differently. First, I am actually the top student in my batch so maybe she didn't want to give more focus to me as she knows that I can do whatever task alone, and she's rather focusing on those who still needs scaffolding. Second, maybe I am just making a non-existing issue here as maybe, she wants me to be independent rather than always relying on her as my teacher. Though, I don't think the admiration I have for her is one of the reasons since I am not that super vocal to it, just the moderate level like that of my other classmates.

Still, I don't want to worsen the situation by asking her about it because what if I am just overthinking, and I am only misinterpreting the way she treats me? Maybe, I'll focus more on my studies rather than my instructor's treatment. Unless, she won't use personal matters in computing my grades in her subject.

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2 years ago

As someone who has largely gotten rid of the habit of overthinking, I can say, "Overthinking is not inevitable." Meditation and prayer will help.

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2 years ago

Inevitable at first, but when you got to train yourself upon the ways on how to get rid of it, that's when it's not inevitable anymore. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

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2 years ago

I do have that habit too.. I think its a type of personality.. not healthy really that's why it's better to pray for God's peace..

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2 years ago

You're right! God is the only way to get rid of this.

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2 years ago

Some professors are just like that and others have this "favorite" students..

I think you don't need to overthink that as long as di ka naman niya pinepersonal...

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2 years ago

Got your point! No need to actually overthink maybe, as long as she won't go beyond the limits.

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2 years ago

yaaahh.... ask ko lang, napag initan ka ba nya?

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2 years ago

Hindi pa naman po, cold treatment lang po, so far.

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2 years ago

As of now ba prof mo pa din sya? Siguro as long as hindi ka naman nya kinagagalitan or what, theres no reason to overthink. Ganyan talaga mga Professors minsan.

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2 years ago

it is my honor i am your sponsor friend be happy stay blessed

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2 years ago

Thank you so much, I hope you're feeling fine too and be blessed more.

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2 years ago

yeah!

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2 years ago

Relax dear. It will only increase your tension. Stay put.

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2 years ago

Thank you. Will definitely take that advice. :)

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