Regret from not Learning

My head can't think well of what topic to write, it is difficult to force ourselves to do something that we're not in the mood of doing it or shall we say we don't have a motivation of doing things, but in writing I admit that sometimes I'm lack of motivation of creating one but one thing owned that is my reason coz I want to write that rusty possibly pass by in to it.

How about you? I know majority of us here have a different reasons why we write but majority of us writing not just to earn but also some writers here are writing with love, meaning to say writing is their fashion, not just to earn but also to learn. I admit that I'm one of those writer who only write just to earn without considering if I become a good one too like others do. Writing is not my fashion, I can say that this is not my fashion coz before when a teacher requires a short essay in a certain examination or quizzes I can only write few sentences and then thats it, that's all I can do, I reach my limitation of the way I write.

I still remember the old days when I'm in college before, I feel ashame and pity to myself every time teacher give a task to write like a reaction paper, essays or other kind of writings in english form coz I know to myself that I have a idea about it but the things is how can I express my thought freely where the language is my very first hindrance of expressing it. I want to write more but how ? This is the question that's always reminds me before every time we a activity or task to do that in written form coz I know that aside from my lack of vocabulary I'm also struggling in correct use of grammar coz I have that thought that I'm always doubting if I write correctly.

But you know what, I realized after all that what I am those time and today is the only reflection of what I'm doing of my yesterdays. This is the fruit of not giving more attention of my studies before way back in elementary and high school, I have a lil regrets of what I've done before like giving more attention in playing, hangouts with friends and not giving attention in my academics which is the main reason why I felt like it's too late to strive of learning again of what I miss that supposedly I already learned before but now I saw myself as a late learner which I only realize when it's already late.

Have you feel that feeling na masasabi mo sa sarili mo na " kung nagtinarong palang ko saunag skoila daghan tana kug namauhan run ( Kung pinagbutihan kolang sana yung pag-aaral ko before andami ko sanang matutunan ngayun ) that feeling na ngayun molang narealize na parang anlayo muna sa kanila, that feeling na ngayun molang napagtanto ang value at kahalagahan ng karunongan na walang ibang makikinabang sana kundi para lang naman sana sa sarili mo.

But as I've said above I feel only a lil regret of what I've done before coz di lahat ng panahong napagdaanan ko ay nabaliwala coz I feel happy those time, a temporary happiness but still it became part of my life, may mga tao kasi na mas they give more attention ang pag-aaral which tama naman but the thing is some people take it very serious like nakalimutan na nilang sumaya dahil jan, like they never experience yung mga gawain ng isang normal na bata like paglalaro coz they give more focus of academics but as I have said tama parin naman kasi yung mga taong ganyan nasa huli yung happiness unlike me na marami ng gustong matutunan maabot ngayun sa present without considering na naging pasaway at tama lang din na masaya before at pagsisi na now hahah.

Of what I'm talking now, I remember a freind who I met here in Abuyog, he always graduated with 1'st or 2nd if not and in college he graduated as a cumlaude. He share his experience and he said that he is not happy in his life before despite of all the achievements he got in every stage of his study coz he felt like something is lacking which is the exposure of other people, he don't have even friend coz he is very dedicated to his study. But the good thing, he is a successful person now nagbunga ang pagtitiyaga.

I will end it here, and still thanks for dropping by and my apology for being one of the lazy writer and user here in RC. Learning is a life long process, buti naalala ko kaya labarnn lang pala hihih.

Again thanks for dropping by my friend :*

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