I explode

June 28, 2022

If you are a mother and someone, somebody hurt your kids,whether physically or emotionally your anger will explode in just a second right?

Broomm, broomm the sounds that makes Adrielle stands up or stop what she is doing, she will immediatelt run to the door and open it, coz she is very sure that her tatay is around and she immediately go out the door and run with her tatay and say hi/hello to him.

I nevermind them coz I was preparing our dinner, but I knew from the sounds of the tricke that my partner is drunk, so I prepare the table for me and Adrielle and we start eating sometime he eats when he is drunk sometime not thats why I did not prepare anything for him.

While we are having our dinner, he was telling Adrielle to eat and I dont know why he said HINDI NAMAN KITA LAB so Adrielle replied back NO LAB LAB MO AKO, and my partner repeat it many time and Adrielle is insisting that NO LAB LAB MO AKO TATAY with tears about to fall.

So upon looking at Adrielles face na nangingiyak na and insisting that her tatay loves her, ny anger burst up and I said TAMA NA BAKIT NEED MO PA ULIT ULITIN IIYAK NA UNG BATA EH, then after that I stop eating and wash my hands nawalan ako ng gana.

Then I saw him saying sorry with Adrielle and kinalong nya ito at pinakain, I stayed in our room to avoid arguments and I let myself cool down, and I posted it at noise just to release my anger.

Then, after I saw him having his dinner and Adrielle is already happy and they eat together.

Adrielle is a very smart kid and she is so easy to console if she cried and make tampo, you can just hug and kisss and say sorry to her and she will be happy again. Buti nga ndi sya maramdamin na bata.

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I remember before when I was still pregnant and he was drunk too and his anak-anakan was talking to him via phone call I heard him saying na ikaw pa din number 1 sa akin, even I will have baby soon, and after I heard those words naiinis at naiiyak ako coz we should be his priority dahil family nya kami.

Then when the morning comes I open the topic with him and I told him na if you dont like us to be your priority fine with me, but you dont have to tell others infront of me coz it hurts me alot, then ndi naman sya nagsasalita. He was like a deaf and mute human being.

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His behaviour when his drunk is sometimes not really good, just like what happened last sunday and long time ago, but often times naman he will arrived drunk and get to bed immediately. Thats why I am always telling him that if possible avoid too much alcohol dahil minsan his mind were possesed by bad spirits which is nakakainis tlaga, but he will just keep silent.

P.S: sorry for ranting😛

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Good afternoon! We have a gloomy weather today and I love this kind of weather coz Adrielle will not be sweatimg all day hihi, and also I will be preparing some snacks for us, pritong saging na saba na sakto ng pagkakahinog, and for sure Adrielle will love it kasi ndi pa maasim ang saging. So I will leave here now.

Take care always everyone!