Allah knows.

Allah knows the pain you are feeling, He is aware of it all. He knows the heartache you feel every single night before closing your eyes and forcing yourself to sleep. He sees the trembles of your soul, the shakes, the grief and the pain you experience. He knows everything, He has planned it all out carefully for you, trust in Him enough to know that Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala will give you everything you want. Pray to Him sincerely every single day, stop looking at other peoples blessings with an envious eye, stop talking about others behind their back. Pray to Allah for happiness, good health and contentment. Pray He comforts your heart every night and every day. Trust in Him to do what is good for you.