Once i told my therapist i did all the drugs to be happy without the love of my life ,knowing that i cant have her , its only one sided after 2 years. The pain i cant bear no more. So i did drugs they fuck me up so good that i cant remember a thing about her other than that she was once my heartbeat . Now drugs is my new problem and belive me its a lot better than that thank god for giving me strength to fight with it and the battle is for life but i am happy because now its in my control . The therapist noded and said : you did a good job , just stay away from the drugs and live your life to the fullest Drugs saves lives too