It's Harder Than I Thought

Hello, read.cash friends, how are you all? I hope you are fine but if you ask me, I am not feeling good, I have a heavy heart about what happened today .

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Last July 10, we had a successful cassava planting; I went with my husband to help even sacrificing my rest day for it. Well, not really sacrificing because I had a good time and a [crazy adventure] (https://read.cash/@yoieuqudniram/todays-crazy-adventure-fdaddb59) oooh, gosh I had a hard time on this!

My mother had a hard time seeking someone to finance her in planting cassava and my husband asked her if we could plant for the season and she said yes, horray! We got the slopy portion and my mother left some for her on the plain.

On Monday, my husband's cousin continued to plow the field so that my mother can plant her s too, My uncle's wife agree to finance her planting and got 15,000 for land preparation. of course, she will be paying them during the harvest season including the interest.

My husband works for her too, he chopped the cassava stalks and even got his eyes hurt because they flipped back to his face; he was not used to doing such but he did his best to help my mother.

Earlier today, my husband went to find laborers to do the planting and he found teens to do it. At 11 in the morning, my husband called that my mother was mad about the kids, she said they are just playing but my husband said they are resting under the shade. They are human too, and they feel tired and the heat of the sun.

You know, my mother, she is a bit stressed and she gets and at things easily especially when she thinks that her laborers were not doing good for her. She was used to working so hard not thinking that she did not raise those people herself nor trained them. She thinks she's paying too much for the people who don't work well.

We asked her earlier to give the laborers free lunch and she said yes; mostly, laborers want soup but she gave them isdang paksiw. What I learned from the past experience was that treat your laborers well so that when you call for their help next time, they will be glad to help you. That's a trick I know because e there are only very few laborers left these days because young men are already employed in the factories near us.

I remember a few planting seasons ago that my mother hired laborers from far away and paid even their fare just to get on her farm.

What pains me the most now is that between my husband and my mother and I cannot take just one side. All my husband and I wanted were to help her get through the planting season as soon as possible so that we could use the monsoon rains to water our plants; I know my mother well and I guess she is thinking that we are using her now since we know that she had money on her hands. It's painful to know that she cannot see my husband's sacrifices for her even going to find laborers as early as 6 am just to help her do it.

Tonight, I'll be facing her at dinner and I wish I have the strength and patience to tell her to take care of the laborers. I pray that God will open her heart to understand us and that we only mean her the best.

I never thought it is this hard.

Thank you for being with me today, please do pray for me. I don't want to offend my mother( she's sensitive) but I don't want her deeds to continue for we will lose much if she does.

Keep safe.