Another relapse

I searched Google, and also read an article from. One of a user here who I can't remember the username said that binat is close to the term relapse. In bisaya, we call it bughat where it common to women who gives birth and afterwards. But this can happen to those people who just recently undergone sickness or a medical operation.

Some symptoms are fever, chilling, and body pains. For me, I feel it as cough and colds and body pain as well as headache. It is always accompanied by kabuhi which is caused by panuhot or lamig ng katawan.

Some people may say that it comes unnoticed, but as I assessed what I did in the past days after many bughat that I had, I realised that it was caused by skipping meals, less sleep/rest physically, emotionally and psychologically. Post partum syndromes which is common to women may contribute to relapse, some may lead to mental retardation as a way of the body to keep the body safe from stress but to some unfortunate, death.

For me, emotional psychological stress is constant, I stress mostly on the financial needs that we had, but for the emotional, maybe just my kids being brats. I had physical stress lately when the preparation for my father's anniversary came, I was used to sitting all day then that happened, I have been standing almost all of the time because whenever I work in the kitchen, I do not sit down, like my body had a shock of the physical effort I had that afternoon. I also had forgotten my lunch recently, I always bring lunch but sometimes, I don't feel like eating especially with the sold viands from the canteen where it is loaded with msg. There was even a time that I delayed my lunch just to have a good sleep at lunch time from work, I did have my sleep but forgot to have my lunch and I didn't feel hungry in the afternoon. Writing can divert my hunger too, which caused me to skip lunch and all accumulated leads me to this now. I feel like my head is open and I have back pains. I requested my husband to massage me even if he doesn't know how to, and while he is doing it, I burped a lot which is a sign that I have lots of panuhot in my body. I have skipped lunch successively because I forgot how this feels, sa bisaya pa nag kompyansa na kay wlay gibati sa una, but it cost me this and I was sorry to myself.

I didn't feel this for a long time because I have been very careful about skipping meals but now it happened. I hope that tuob will help me feel better tommorow and I will drink herbal medicines too but for now I will get as much sleep as I can to recover faster.

This would be all for now. If you feel bad, get an assessment of what you have been doing in the past days, weeks and maybe even month. Some abuse that we do in our body are not like chillies that we would feel right away. That is why a bisaya proverb was made "may mag sili kay mu halang dayun" this applies to those people who have been abusive to their body when they are still strong and feels the effect later when their body decides its enough.

Let's take care of ourselves because we only have one body. I hope to share tomorrow about the herbal medicines that I take to relieve myself from this so called bughat/relapse. Goodnight.