Happiness

If there's one thing that makes me unhappy it is stress. I'm not one of those people who can hit the button and load happiness or better a bunch of happiness. I admire those who can or at least keep smiling but, I can't load it and am not a great pretender either. I wish I knew how to do it but if I ever knew it was beaten out of me at a very young age.

Last week I felt more stress than before and had to multitask in between hours (it took me nearly two weeks) of trying to recover a hacked account. Indeed I lost money but I decided to let it be. I overcame worse but help was on the way. With a lot of help and endless patience of someone else, I managed to recover the account, to get it back. Unfortunately, not the lost money but I must say I learned a lot.

It wasn't all about being hacked. I had work that couldn't wait and the children, especially the youngest, needs hugs which are good since family should stay close. So group hugs are popular these days. We talk and share a lot lately.

In between my daughter and I tried to find a birthday present for the birthday child end of March. This means searching for a second-hand wish, asking, waiting, asking again, a payment link that doesn't work, hoping not to be cheated by the seller and an extreme lack of sleep.

I tried to distract myself by watching a film and going outside for a walk.

Friday is the only day I drive a lot and to town. Although I felt tired and had to fight the pain it was good to be outside. An elderly lady greeted me as I passed by, the lady at the post office was helpful and the sun did shine for a while. Happy jumpy wolves and annoying cats. I talked to my daughter and managed to ask a sick friend how she feels today and now it's time for me to go to bed.

There's no need to wait for happiness to load, no need to force me to feel what I don't feel. I'm offline and tomorrow I'll see what I do, which track I take and what to trace. The first thing I need is to recover myself, reload my battery to be able to function again.

A great weekend to you all.

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