I always felt old. Most likely I am born old. It explains why I never understood the children in my class, those my age. We had nothing in common. It explains the age difference between me and my friends. I was closer to adults than children although there were some exceptions but still. My friends were 20 to 25 years older and thinking back I was still the eldest. The eldest and wisest.
Now I wait for getting old. Old if it comes to ages. Not because people do not take me seriously but because elderly people do not attract much attention. The society forgets about them, the government does as well. Being old means no one counts on you, no one cares if you don't show your face, show up. It's clear you are no longer an active member of society. It's the youth that counts, should do the job because the elderly already did long enough. They created the luxury, the extra's, the tools, and circumstances to make something out of life, build a life.
To me, the need is gone, if that need existed at all. There's nothing I want to create, no life or future I ever had in mind for me. I stumbled and struggled on, without any pause 24/7, and to be honest, if you ask me, it's more than what most people did.
I want to sit back, enjoy for a change. Enjoy doing nothing and wait till my hair turns white. I mean really white. With some luck, my face is not crinkled yet although the female skin is thinner than the male's which causes wrinkles but at that time I can always gain a lot of fat and make it look less bad.
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