🎶Akala ko, ikaw ay akin Totoo sa aking paningin Ngunit nang ikaw ay yakapin Naglalaho sa dilim Ninais kong mapalapit sa'yo Ninais kong malaman mo Ang mga paghihirap ko Balewala lang sa'yo🎶 (song from AEGIS)
Why is it when we are broken-hearted we always hear sad songs or songs related to our breakups and most of the time we heard our favorite love songs, and always keep on reminding us about our ex.(relate ba kayo?)
I have had this guy(boyfriend) for 4 years and 6 months. It was a smooth, rough and shaky relationship. That's what I describe it literally 😜.
Let's go to the smooth part of the relationship. We've been together since college and we graduated from the same school we are so in love and we are happy that we graduated at last because most parents are unhappy having a boyfriend and not yet graduated. We are inseparable, we look for jobs together, submitting resumes to the same offices we are always together. Until one day I got my first job, it was difficult for me because I am used to seeing him most of the time. He is still looking for a job and it took him months and months before he got a job. My job was as a trainee new accounts teller in a bank and my time is 8 am to 5 pm we hardly put an extra time for both of us but we have to adjust. He picked me up after work then we eat dinner together for some time and he walk me home. Our anniversary is January 19, he always surprises me and I don't even know any hint. He likes to write letters and sometimes he put a hidden note in it that only I would know how( oh diba kaartihan lol). There are still more surprises I got from him aside from letters, I got stuff toys and shirts. We both get busy on our jobs and after a few months I got a job in the Department of Agriculture in a special project and he got a permanent job in a Preened Company as a roving cashier. There was a time we have to go through a rough road.
The rough road journey started, my schedule was so busy then because it's a project to the Government funded by the European Union we do always go to different Municipalities and sometimes stay there for a week. He also as a roving cashier he used to go to the different branches and stay there for a while and especially if there's an audit and reports to be done. Our only way to communicate is through our cellphone (the analog one) and sometimes the signal is bad, no more I love you at night, no more sweet morning greetings and night wishes like we used to do. It is slowly taken away by time. If ever we have time to be together for at least 3 times a month we see to it we both spend it happily sometimes we go to his parents, he spent the night in our house before he goes to work. Then we will be quiet again. Sometimes he noticed that I have a feeling of doubt n our relationship but he manage to patch those things, all of a sudden he will show up and I will be surprised. I have a huge trust in him and I am confident that he is mine alone. But they say too much confidence is harmful and too much trust blinded you forever. ( don't know where my friends got that words). All I know is, what you see in your naked eyes is different from the others.
The shaky part came unnoticeable, yes indeed it was unnoticeable, funny but it's true. He was assigned from different places, he would be in Cotabato for 5 months, in Bukidnon in 6 months, and on and on. We have a long-distance relationship, for me as long as I trust him I am okay, but rumors are fast as lightning, I don't know how to react to it because my mind is already set. To be fair I decided to follow him in Cotabato when he was assigned there and he never forbade me to come over that means he is not hiding something ( that was my thinking that time) I can only go on weekends so I came on Saturday then I will be home on Sunday. I used to do that twice a month if he could not come home due to his busy schedule, I can say that the rumors are not true.
Have I told you that he is a charismatic guy, and good looking and some girls always appreciate his looks. Well, I am confident that I'm the one for him and he is for me. The time when he was assigned to Mati, (I also went there) I saw some letters, it's not that long sort of a note(a love note) and he just told me that it's from the previous border may be left behind (well I believe him) I was used to seeing him talking with a woman because it's sometimes part of his job. But we women have this instinct (masamang kutob). I went to Valencia Bukidnon, I just texted him that I already arrived and he fetched me at the bus station. It was 11 am when I arrived and we went to his office, it wasn't a busy day because they are only a few of them and no clients, I was sitting in their lounge his co-worker getting to know me then a woman came in and went to the blind spot corner of the room. When he saw her, he immediately followed her to that area, I just thought it might be a client. After a while ( 15 mnts.) the woman went out together with him and he introduced me to her ( sorry I forget her name) I just say hi and the woman left the office. But there's a sudden feeling I felt after, I sense something different.
We had lunch after, and he told me that later in the evening we will go to the overlooking bar to watch a live band and enjoy ourselves a little. The evening came, we went there a little bit early to have dinner with his friend also a common friend of mine (a boy) we enjoyed our dinner, we chatted and talked about the past how we know each other etcetera. By 10 in the evening, the band started to play from love songs to party music, I enjoyed the night but something's not right. He is busy texting on his cellphone and it's unusual to me, and he looks like he was expecting something because he always looks around, then my questions are answered. He was expecting someone, and it is the woman from the office. My heart beats fast I don't know why and that's the only time it happens. She sited next to me, my boyfriend and his friend grabbed some beer at the bar so we left alone. She told me that my boyfriend never mentioned that he has a pretty girlfriend (ano to palubag loob) and she ask me how long we've been together. I answered her to the point and I told her that after a year we are getting married ( I just made it up). As if she was shocked but she managed to hide it and she just smiled and change the topic. I know then that there is something between them.
My plan is not to drink more than 2 sanmig light but I almost finish a bucket of it, I was a little bit dizzy and the music is in a party mood, I stand up and went to the dance floor, I need to go down the stairs to the dance floor his friend assist me because I might fall than before we reached the center I saw it clearly with my two eyes how close they were dancing and their faces almost touch each other. I stopped, I almost fainted I don't know what to feel his friend noticed what I saw he help me go upstairs and I sited there for a while then told his friend to get another bucket. I drink my pain out, he is stopping me because I consumed much he doesn't know why and he acted as if there's nothing happened. I vomit a lot and his friend helped me, he bought some warm noodles, after a while, I am back from my senses.
It was 2 in the morning he was there just assisting me with no affection and the feeling was dry. Then I run ayaw looking for a ride to the bus station, I still have a little luck because there is a tricycle coming towards my way, I immediately hop in then told the driver to go faster. At the bus station I still have to wait till 4 in the morning for the next bus to arrive and he followed me there, I was quiet I wanted him to talk but there are no words came out of him, he was there sitting as if he is also waiting for the next ride. My head is heavy and my eye is shutting down then the bus arrived I went up all he just said is take care. My heart was crushed, I turned around then went up to the bus.
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Hello to all my readers, my article went far beyond expected I can't prolong this so I just cut it off for a while, remembering it was like being at the exact time lol. Anyway, hopefully, I can write the next time what happened after that. Hope you like my LDR story. I want to thank you all and to my lovely sponsors for always trusting my work, thank you to all.
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Oh dear. Part of life, I understand.