Crime Of Self Emotions

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Life is short to be unhappy

3 years ago

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This content is made by my fictitious mind but if in any circumstances that this may also reflect on our every days life. Enjoy reading.

Happiness

It was summer, Linda was enjoying the cool breeze of the ocean she love the salty taste of the water the fine sand that touches her skin and the waves that splashes on her. She was so happy and wishes that summer won't end. One day Linda was walking home from the beach she met Omar he lives a block away from Linda's house. Omar mostly spend his summer with his grandparents and he also love the beach. They get along so easy, they became friends and there after, they became lovers.

Surprise

3 years passed, Omar decided to propose to Linda for him it is the right thing to do, he is stable enough to have a family and Linda is the right one. Omar was sitting in the Resto Bar holding a beer and he keeps on thinking if Linda would accept his proposal. Then suddenly a drunk man bump into his back, Omar stud up and the man hit him on the face, Omar fell on his knees and the man didn't stop. A friend of Omar called Linda to come over to take Omar home then Linda rushed to the Resto Bar as she enter she saw Omar on the floor lying she was in tears then talk to Omar to stand up, but she never noticed that the crowd are slowly moving away. Omar told Linda to stand up and look around but Linda was hesitant she want Omar to stand also, but Omar insisted. Linda stand up she saw the signs holding by thier friends "will you marry me?" Linda look down to Omar, (he is on his knees) he said to Linda "will you be mine forever?" (handed the ring) Linda with no hesitation she said "yes I will!". After a year they got married and have a simple and happy life.

Fear

Linda went to a Gynecologist to have a check up if she's able to bare a child or not. Omar and Linda are trying to have a baby but its almost 3 years of trying but still have no luck. A few days later the result went out and the reason was infertility due to Polycystic Ovary Syndrome(PCOS). Linda didn't know that she already had it befor and now she dont know how to explain it to Omar, because Omar want them to have a child and he was expecting to have a positive result. Omar arrive home after a week of work from other town he was so excited to hear the news. Linda explained to Omar about the result but he was silent. Linda was fearful that Omar will not understand, she just let Omar be so that he could accept and understand the truth that they could not have a child.

Anger

Omar and Linda continue their lives, Linda is busy on their Sarisari Store and still Omar gets home every weekend to be with his lovely wife. Days, weeks and months passed Omar is slowly changing, Linda thought maybe Omar have a problem at work, then she talk to him, but Omar said nothing. Omar never gets home on weekends he just call Linda that he had lots of work to do may be he will be home one or twice a week but it depends on his schedule. Linda never complained she understand and never ask because she trust her husband. One day while she went out for a grocery in the other town, at afar she thinks she saw Omar, she look again and really its Omar, he was a distant away from her, Linda went over then suddenly a woman appear in front of Omar they were close to each other (Omar didn't notice Linda) and Linda just hide her self and walk away. She waited for Omar to arrive and ther she confronted him, she never feel humiliated like that in her life she was so angry to Omar because she trusted him so much. Omar never deny it and blame Linda for not giving him a child. Linda had always thought Omar undastand but she was wrong.

Self Pity and Guilt

After knowing the truth from Omar, Linda beg Omar to stay, Omar is her life she is willing to step back and forget what happened she wouldn't know what will happen to her life without Omar. Linda was alway alone in their house she always long for Omar to visit her but Omar comes when he wanted to. One day its their 5th wedding anniversary Linda called Omar to come over because she prepared a dinner she beged Omar to come and she expected. Linda cooked Omar's favorite food she was happy that she would see Omar again. Time passes there was no Omar to be seen, he never even called Linda that he couldn't come. Linda was devastated she blame herself for all that happened in their lives if she could only give Omar a child he would not left her. She cleaned up the food she prepared, she was crying and keep on blaming herself, as she washes the dishes a glass slip on her hands (she was out of her mind) she took the broken pieces of the glass then at instance she cut her wrist. She manage to sit down by the dining table, her eye full of tears she's feeling numb and all she was thinking is Omar all the wonderful memories that they have. Linda is getting weak, she was tired but she still wait for Omar to come the blood on her wrists are strongly dripping she could not feel her arms anymore until it stops. Few hours later Omar came he knock on the door but no one answer, he feels something not right. He took his spare keys to open the door he look for Linda then he found out she was gone. Omar could not believe that Linda would do such thing, if he only came earlier this could not happened. Omar came over because she ended his relationship to the other woman, Omar realize that Linda is his life and no matter what, if he only understand and appreciate all that Linda have done to have a wonderful life for them. Omar felt all the guilt he was not the man he promised Linda on their first day. He buried Linda and went home, it was so quiet he sat alone in the dining room where he found Linda, the woman of his life was gone if he could only turn back time but its not like that, he would blame himself until the rest of his life.

Omar stayed in their house he was alone and looked himself to others, his neighbors sometimes heard him screaming, crying and throwing things his parents and some officer came over to his house but he refuses to come. One day the house became quite then someone came over and there Omar was found hanging in a room.