the suicidal girl pt. 4
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*One...*
*Two...*
*Three....*
This guy took 3 seconds to get my whole attention. Who is he? Why does he look so familiar? Why do I feel like he's judging me right now? When did I start to care about what others think of me?
**"I know you. You're 13, right? Seat number 13?"**
Thirteen? Really? For the first time I got sad hearing that nickname. For once I just want to let others know the real me but maybe I am just not worth it to get that right.
Right! Row 3 seat 28... a guy from my class. I suddenly wondered if he's willing to help me. Maybe not. He's been actively part of the class while I am invisible and I don't want to involve myself with him and get the attention of our classmates. He is the life of the party while I am a lifeless girl. This won't end good.
I gathered my strength to get up and turned my back on him. I sighed, I really wanted to get drenched by the rain all night and not go to school tomorrow.
A few steps away and he called me...
**"Hey, Morgan! Wait up.."** his footsteps getting near me so I involuntarily stopped walking. What the?
He called my name. I shivered. Ahh, this is because of the rain.
I guess the cold is--wait. Now all I can feel is someone's warmth beside me and the lack of raindrops touching my body. Is it really this good to have someone walk side by side with you? I can't believe I am liking this situation. What happened to my antisocial skill?
**"Do you live near here? I can walk you home coz my way is also over here."** his gentle voice is giving me shivers and I hate it.
Silence.
I only have the courage to look at his hair because his eyes would be too much. I am scared I might scare him away if I look at him straight. I'm scared he might see how nervous I am right now.
**"You don't have to share your umbrella with me.."** I tried not to sound too shocked even if I am. I looked so small beside him and here he is giving enough space between us or else I might just run away.
**"Nah. I'm actually right on that corner but I can walk you home first."** he pointed the house with a huge gate. **"Where do you live? I never see you in this neighborhood.."** I got distracted and tried again to look at his damped hair but my neck is really suffering. He is so tall I think I'm about on his shoulder only.
**"Two more blocks."** I answered so that he can just let me go home on my own before I could use him for my own selfish desire.
The rain started to get stronger and we are forced to fit in his umbrella, skins touching.
**“Am I…bothering you?”**
There, he said it. I wanted to say no and tell him why I am like this but there is really something that feels wrong. I just don’t want to complicate my life and be friends with him when I know this will end soon.
*But what about your suicide letter? Your remaining tasks?*
It felt like seconds but the way his brows curve and lips frown mean it took me minutes to answer.
Silence.
He made a step forward while looking at me with disbelief, leaving the umbrella on my spot.
**“So you really are like a fridge, huh? Sorry for being a bother…”** He looked around **“Good thing we’re in front of your house so I gotta go.”**
That’s when I realized that we’re really in front of my house and he is already walking away from me. I gathered up all my strength and did a very selfish decision that might be a regret soon.
I had a weird feeling inside me when I realized that I will lose this guy without all because of my cold personality.
**“Hey, seat 28!”**
He stopped and looked back at me with question in his eyes. This is me getting closer to the fire. But unlike the moth, he is not gonna be the death of me but I will make sure he sees it.
I am finally gonna spread my wings and leave the way Sahara did… I am gonna make him a suicide letter.
**“See you tomorrow!”** I shouted and I quickly run towards our door like a lunatic.
I hope I won’t regret this tomorrow.
Thank you for reading!
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it is really up to us if we would leave the sadness and turn it into regret or we would leave it as a memory we'd want to remember. . .
is it just me or is it just you? cHour hahahha
Accounting is not my thing
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So I will just blurt this out here: *Accounting was not my thing.*
When I was just a clueless child, my mama did a great job at stilling in my mind that Accountancy is very difficult and requires a lot of reading and more reading and also, understanding what you're reading. I was traumatized.
The younger version of myself thinks that this course is scary and too much for her.
The junior high version of myself is already sure that math is not her cup of tea. She hated math. She hated computations. She hated finding the value of x.
The senior high version of myself was a mess. She didn't have any idea what she really wants as a career so she took General Academic Strand as she was purely undecided.
You see, I had no idea where my future is heading and when I passed the entrance exam in PUP, I was excited that I already have a school but it was mixed with fear when I realized my course is still a blur.
Anyway, I have this habit of deciding on the very spot where the choice needs to be made a.k.a Enrollment phase. So when I learned about PUP's course specialization is BS Accountancy, that's when I I took the big leap of faith and made a very life changing decision in my life.
I chose to take the very course I was very sure I am not gonna take but took it anyway because it's the only thing that I stood a chance. Why? *I just felt it.*
I was one of the students who has to fight for my position in order to stay or else somebody will take my spot and if that happens, all I would do is cry and regret all my life decisions. I didn't want to fail because there is no other plan B for me.
So the aftermath of taking GAS which is promised to be flexible is to take more units because the truth is, it is not really flexible now that we needed bridging subjects to keep up with the other ABM graduates. I remembered that we spent until 9 pm at school because the load is really not a joke and it made my really scared if I can do it or not.
I really felt unfamiliar with having books every subject and the need to have a manual calculator and the pressure in every recitation. College is really not a joke and I remember the feeling of facing my very first departmental exams and I want to do is ace the exam and do well.
Fast forward, things became easier in my second year because I felt like I am already adjusted with my study habits and of course, the fear of facing new majors that can make or break us but it also felt thrilling to undergo this challenge with my new found friends.
It is an asset to be surrounded by your favorite people to motivate you and help you get up when you feel like giving up. It feels good to have someone you can talk to about life and just someone you can bond and have while you're breaking down.
College also made me experienced dorm life! It was one of the highlights of my second year.
February 2020, the virus caused a very long school break that lead to online classes and the cancellation of our comprehensive exam that will decide who stays and who goes. Oh I forgot to mention that I didn't have the chance to take BSA coz I am not an ABM graduate so we automatically fits the BSMA course which is also under College of Accountancy and Finance.
Online class was really hard during our Summer term to think that its only 9 units but every subject matter so we really had to suck it up.
June 30, 2020. It was the announcement of who goes to BSA, who stays in BSMA and who needs to transfer to another course.
Sadly, I didn't fit BSMA anymore and got my dream course BSA! I was so ecstatic and all my friends were also celebrating with me coz we all made it!
Finally, after 2 years of surviving and battling anxiety and pressure, we made it. Although the battle is not yet finished, I know we are already victorious.
2 more years and I will fight to get my own title and so are you.
My younger self would've been so proud that I conquered this very difficult course. It is really true that what matters is not the desires of our hearts but the Will of God. He knows what's best for us and it surely will reflect one day so we just have to trust Him.
We didn't just survive, we thrived.
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So if you're reading this and feels like everything is not going your way, let go and trust God.
If you are looking for a sign whether to give up your dream just because the world is conspiring to pull you down, resist and be afraid to fail those who believe in you.
You are almost there.
You will get there.
Maybe not now...but soon.
People's lives don't always change because of something really special or dramatic. Sometimes ordinary and trivial things change our life drastically with an unexpected power.
shades of blue
I like looking up the sky for some reason.
I like torturing my neck while pleasuring my eyes.
Everytime I go somewhere else, I always pay attention at the sky. My prayer involves the weather and the way hot sunshines show up.
I hope it's sunny and that day, the Sun never left until its night time.
This tree got my attention because it looks like its looking down on me. For me, it is smiling and telling me to take lots of pictures because the background is perfect and so I did.
The place where my mother grew up is enchanting. The houses are not crowded and you'll really hear the sound of crickets and 'tuko' at night.
I won't mind living here and leaving the city I grew up with...
Everyday is a vacation!
I really, really, really miss this place but more importantly, the freedom of going out without the fear of Covid19.
Everyday leaves a unique sky and it is breathtaking if we pause and look up to it. It is there to inspire us on how majestic our Creator is.
I have hope that this pandemic will end soon so that we can all pleasure our eyes in sight on the sky.
We can all look up at different places, different time zones but the very same sky in its shades of blue..
any movie recommendations??? i want to take a break from watching series for now... 😌😉
Do you know about this:
🔽VII🔼VIII
Nana korobi, ya oki
Fall down seven times, stand up eight
This proverb is very powerful. To me it reveals that no matter how many times we fall down at rock bottom, we all have the chance the get back up... learn from the pain, grow by the experience and fight with greater confidence.
My Top 10 Must-Watch K-Drama pt. 2
Here's the first part of this list: https://read.cash/@sheensheen13/my-top-10-must-watch-k-dramas-pt-1-60d841a1
So... frankly, I'm having a really hard time to pick T.T I don't want to mention my other favorites because I am sure you all know about it. What I'll mention are the good ones that deserve more attention and love.
Honestly, there so many golden gems that many don't know about so these other 5 will be the underrated ones yet as good as others that made high ratings..
VAGABOND
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This one is for action enthusiasts! This one proved to me how action can give us so many emotions all at once.
I really liked the build up of the story and how everyone portrayed their role without overdoing it.
ONE OF THE BEST ACTION SERIES (coz there will be season 2!! YEY)
PRISON PLAYBOOK
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I am so thankful to TvN for making this drama!!!! I can't explain it in details but this drama is so well-made that I actually wanted to be in one of the prisons in Korea haha but of course, this is just because the characters gave me hope that not everyone inside the prison are bad people.
Also, **the justice system in all countries are far from being perfect.**
This is a must-watch!! You'll get attached to the characters without even trying but the ending is not satisfying huhuhu
ANOTHER MISS OH
Imagine having someone with the completely same name as yours and she is prettier at every angle?
This drama is really great! This OSTs are perfect. The plot is very unique and also a roller coaster ride.
SCARLET HEART RYEO
I know this is not underrated but I'll just include this coz I'm still hang up to this drama until now. I am really impressed by the characters and the plot that broke everyone's heart.
I want this version in the modern world so bad..
Unpopular opinion: this needs season 2!
PS: is it just me but I like Haneul better for IU (forgot their character names huhu)
CHICAGO TYPEWRITER
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OKAY I JUST WANT TO REVEAL THIS GEM!
However, I'm happy that this drama is getting the hype but its not enough. I reaaally enjoyed watching this drama especially the part with the Japanese era.
I liked that it focused more on friendship rather than romance!
The story is unique and although its fiction, the ambiance of the story is very real and serious.
So that's 10 and I am sorry for not mentioning your favorites but I'm sure those are great too. This is just my personal picks but if you want to recommend good ones, just comment and I will see if I know about it <3
My Top 10 Must-Watch K-dramas pt. 1
Hi! I just want to share my top list and most loved Korean dramas I watched and you can freely add them to your watch list..
Story time: I was an elementary student when I first got addicted to K-DRAMAS and until now that I'm in college, I am still an avid fan and my standard for men keeps getting out of reach LOL
This list may not be in particular order but definitely my top picks all in all
EXTRAORDINARY YOU
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*screams* You need to watch this I swear! Everything is just made perfectly and the casts definitely gave justice to their roles. I CAN'T MOVE ON FROM THEM.
MY FAVORITE TEEN/HIGH SCHOOL ROMANCE OF ALL TIME
HARUYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~
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IT'S OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY
Okay... who doesn't love this drama?! The topic itself is very deep and everything is well-written that we can all relate to every characters.
**i CRY with them and I love them so much. JINJJA!**
#MentalAwareness is well-delivered!
WHO ARE YOU: SCHOOL 2015
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Talk about *second lead syndrome*! I have watched this for so many times because I realllllly loved the Taekwang plus this is the first lead role of my fave Kim So-hyun <3
This also has a sensitive topic about bullying that you would really hate *the bully.*
This is really a must watch for beginners ^^
100/10
REPLY 1988
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This is about family, friendship and all the realities faced by teenagers, mothers, and just about everyone!
I wish everyone would appreciate this drama! This is not the normal k-drama that revolves around two protagonists.
So many life lessons and you will definitely relate to them I swear!
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HWARANG
The ultimate historical drama with superb casts! All your faves are in here so you can't for more. I just wished Go Ara cried less LOL
This is a roller coaster ride but you would wish for another ride because of its plot and characters.
PS: So Yeji is also very stunning in here!!!
Wait for part 2!
Comment what's your ultimate fave of all time 💖
Have you watched "Tune in for Love" in Netflix?
Their whole story taught me that someone who really loves you will wait. Waiting for someone you love despite the lack of assurance and many hindrances is nothing because you love that person. It also taught me that carrying so much baggage would ruin a relationship IF you don't talk it out.
ahhhhh so much feels! i hope you would see the film yourself and see how it moves you too <3
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the suicidal girl pt. 3
First part: https://read.cash/@sheensheen13/the-suicidal-girl-pt-1-3696b17a
Second part: https://read.cash/@sheensheen13/the-suicidal-girl-pt2-c15ed4a7
This is the 3rd installation of my story.
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There is a reason why I always eat outside: the people on the house I live in never wants to eat with me. Sweet, right?
Anyway, I enjoy the comfort of my room so I quickly went inside and I got the diary that I've held on for a year now and looked at its remaining unchecked list. Few more things and I am just done with my life.
I almost punched myself once I read the freakin' cheesy and sentimental tasks left to do and I can't help but curse internally because I am sure that I can never do it.
NO. WAY.
NOPE.
NEVER.
***Give a compliment while eating with someone that they'll choke or stutter because of it *evil laugh****
***Airborne kiss***
I wanna turn myself into a mental hospital right now. I just wanna be swallowed by the floor. I just wanna die alone!!!!!!!!!!! Obviously, I need a boyfriend to do the second one so I am screwed. Have I mentioned that I really am scared of socializing? The boys in the school are scared of me. No one wants to be my friend because I am a weirdo! Why did I write such impossible tasks????!
Sorry, Suhara but I'd rather die right now than have a boyfriend. Being single is the best decision I ever made you know. This is the end of my suicidal bucket list and I'll just disappear soon so no hard feelings for me coz I quit...
I am sure I was gonna quit....
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Until one rainy night, just when I was looking up and feeling the raindrops on my cold face, I heard a guy say..
**"Do you want to get sick...or worse...die?"**
He hit the spot and I just knew... he will help me *die without regrets.*
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I liked him more than he liked me. Anyone who can relate?
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the suicidal girl pt.2
This is the **first** part of this story : https://read.cash/@sheensheen13/the-suicidal-girl-pt-1-3696b17a Kindly check it out so you won't miss anything.
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I never thought of myself as a romantic. Maybe because growing up, I wasn't showered with much love like a normal child would. Maybe I wasn't normal, I'm not physically impaired but emotionally. . .there's something wrong with me.
My mother was the clichè chick who gets what she wants. She was famous, you know. The life of the party and at her teenage years, she lived a very wild life. Wild but safe until one time, she failed to stay safe like she would normally do.
She had me at 19. Very young but it's not that rare.
I can imagine her. . .and my dad, trying to make things right. Whatever is right according to the minds of the teenagers who crave the life of being free.
**"Hora, dear, you came from my vag*ina but that doesn't mean that we share a common flesh."**
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Imagining a younger version of myself hearing this makes me uncomfortable. She did dare to say horrible things to me at a young age so why would I be shocked that she's still doing it now that I'm twenty?
We had a very unhealthy relationship. Our bond is nothing of a mother-daughter because she treated me as a liability my whole life.
**"Yes, mommy..."**
**"No, call me Lina."** she replied bluntly
**And then I grew up calling my mother her first name...**
This is the reason why I cannot give mom--Lina my suicide letter.
She hated my existence because I ruined her life by being born. She doesn't give a damn if I die or not or maybe... she would feel better.
the pain of not remembering the email and password of my old wattpad account surely is coming back again T.T so many one-shots I would've shared >//<
the suicidal girl pt. 1
**WARNING: THIS WORK IS PURELY FICTION. ALSO, PLEASE BEAR WITH THE TOPIC ABOUT SUICIDE. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.**
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*The story of a girl who is looking for someone who she will write her suicide letter....*
"Sorry but our challenge is only allowed for two persons..."
I stayed still, my face blank and nodded.
Look how life is so unfair that it requires two people to finish a challenge of finishing food? I want to complain to someone who made the rule but I know the better way to deal with this; turn around and just suck it up coz life was never just.
I tried searching for other restaurants with similar challenge but all of them requires two freaking people!
Really? A challenge of eating something in a limited time requires at least two people? Can't they realize that it is unfavorable for them in the first place?
So my goal for the day is just to drain my remaining energy so I can just try and sleep peacefully tonight.
I walked in our familiar yet distant neighborhood. It never felt like I was on my way home. I feel like walking to the house of strangers who basically are supposed to be my family.
On my way, I looked at my worn out notes. A notebook with my suicidal motives and it looks like it is almost giving up on me. But I'm not.
*Suhara Bay* was someone that made me do all of these. Getting a notebook to write all the things I want to do before I get to leave and never return. Without her, I would've just sucked all remaining energy to accomplish my ultimate motive: *be gone as if I never existed at all.*
She was an inspiration and I don't think she'd be happy to hear this from other people but she really did made an impact in my lifeless life.
Her book, written and published, before she decided to commit suicide have grown on me and I wanted to follow her so bad. Reading the last pages of her book told me she was happy leaving her body. She was not the woman who regretted the life she lived.
It was ironic that she still decided to do it even after she found her reason to live. But maybe her point was not living happy but to at least leave happy.
And I wanted that for myself. To do something with my life and so I can bring something with me in the afterlife.
Because right now? My life is blank. It is dull and very meaningless.
My notebook has a lot of crossed out words which is a good thing. I'm almost done with what Sahara told me to finish.
***....fly away from your body but before that, make sure your wings are with color so that the people...or at least someone, would see you gone.***
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platonic love
Do you have a friend.. a boy or girl... that you really liked? As in you like him/her as more than a friend?
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But for many years until now, you stayed as "friends". A platonic relationship with your long-time crush. This may sound cheesy or shallow but what you feel may not be as shallow as the term 'crush'.
It can be love.
Platonic love is anything but love interest for not more than friends. You both can share same principles, beliefs and interests but don't see each other as lovers.
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Deep inside, you share the same vibe. You could've been great partners in crime for life but there is a line between you that you cannot cross.
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You're not the only one who is 'friend zone' for sure.
Not everyone is lucky to be liked back by someone in their circle of friends because it is against the *rule*. Friends should be friends or else the bond might be ruined.
It is a gamble to tell someone that you like him/her knowing that all your time together were as friends. Being reciprocated with your true feelings is really a nice feeling and not everybody gets that chance.
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Unrequited love is painful but between two platonic friends, if one starts to build sexual affection while the other doesn't, then it is a problem.
Platonic relationships can be best preserved and nurtured by:
Set boundaries
Know your limitations with one another
Don't be too physically intimate
Value each other's privacy and other relationships
Mutual understandings are possible between platonic relationships but if you really value your friendship and don't see it really working in the end then suppress what you feel.
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Friendship is better than sexual desires. Friendships weigh deeper than any romantic relationship for most cases that we all need to think twice whether we would blur the lines between platonic friends.
Think deeply whether you would set aside a deep friendship to become lovers knowing that you can only choose one between the two.
There is really no 'friendship' when two lovers break up. No blur lines.
an ordinary girl with super random thoughts. that's me!
second lead syndrome
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Why...do I always fall for the second leads?
Why can't I just choose the male protagonist that the writer wanted for the female protagonist?
Is this pity? Is this stubbornness? or I just really feel the connection when someone loves despite not being loved back?
Apparently, there is really such thing like **second lead syndrome.** I'm not the only one who actually likes the second lead better than the leading man.
According to what I found out, this is when readers or watchers **desperately** wishes that the female lead would end up with the supporting male protagonist instead.
Desperately.. in my case, I would cry and feel heartbroken for *HIM.*
I would blame the writers, the director and most specially the female lead for not seeing how much she is missing just by ignoring another man's love for her.
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Do you know him? He is the second male lead in a K-drama and I wished he was the one she picked because he showed her for so many times how much he loved her dearly.
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Korean dramas mostly are the ones really good at setting this syndrome to their avid watchers. They like to torment us by making us witness another character's one-sided love. A love taken for granted.
The bad guy is always chosen. ALWAYS. Maybe because it is a trend? Or a better fantasy by other women to be able to change a man in 360 degree turn and make him someone better because of his love for her...
In reality, many guys or even girls are taken for granted because the society has set a standard that sometimes is so messed up.
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Not because someone is there means he is the right one. What if the One is just a little late? Or too shy to show himself?
Why do we base someone's love by their efforts and flowery words and not by sincerity?
I'm not really sure if someday I will follow the trend or not but I'm hoping that my heart and brain would work together so my soul will not be crashed.
If someday, just maybe someday...
Two people would love me at the same time and I have *choose* between them, I want to be **rational**. I will use my brain and not just my heart. I would look at the bigger picture. I would look back and forward on moments I got to spend with them.
Love should be deep for both sides. I should not only love me but he also is because in the end, we are both in the relationship.
We could both suffer for choosing each other when we are not really meant to be.
This is not just my heart in stake here but both of us because this decision matters. Love should never be taken lightly. It is not something we can turn back if we want out and something we would beg for if it slipped away from us.
This second lead syndrome made me believe that every guy has different way of expressing love. Some stay quiet but passionate and others are bold and very outspoken.
Everyone has the chance to fall in love and the chances we take must be sincere and heartfelt and not just based on what's now or pressure...
You deserve the best man/woman to love you unconditionally.
**Love should always prevail no matter what.**
Legacies of Love
*Are you a hopeless romantic? Because I am.*
I am a sucker on others love stories. Maybe it feels good to have one for myself too but right now is not yet the season for me to have a romantic relationship.
I actually love being single.
Before, all I know is that LOVE as something that makes my heart skip a beat or my insides turn because of the 'butterflies'. Someone complimenting me, appreciating my beauty and all the shallowness a young heart craves to experience.
Reading romantic stories, watching Korean dramas, american movies, and being so into their stories make my day. I don't have a self-pity just because I am not involved with someone with opposite gender.
I know many people love me in other kinds of love.
I've read somewhere that they are different types of love.
The most common is the **Philia- that kind of love directed to your family and friends.**
Nothing is easier than loving those who are very dear to you. We all know family is everything. They are the reason why we can get by everyday and so are our friends. They keep us motivated and help us to love life itself.
The second one could be **Storge- the love of parents to their children.**
Simple yet powerful. A very unconditional love given by parents to their offsprings. Even animals have this kind of love. What more human beings that reproduced using their own flesh and sweat (if you know what I mean) This kind of love is not yet something familiar to me coz I am not yet a mother but looking how my mother and father proves it really is a powerful one. It is the reason why I am still thriving today.
The third one is **Eros- the love where erotic and physical desires fall in.**
This love drives many people. Being inlove with someone other than family. This can be short-lived but still passionate but it can be different for everyone. I've seen and witnessed many people in screens and real life tingle with each other even if their relationship is unhealthy because it is... *****addicting*****. Like a drugs that no one can get rid of their system once they've tried it.
Even young people already feels into erotic love just because they think they already know enough. Well, everyone is entitled to be in love and be loved. No one is forced to stay loveless because it's not a sin.
*Intimacy is not wrong.*
Let me focus first in this type of love because I have an issue of being so attached on others' romantic relationship especially those made for fiction.
I invest so much emotion on fictional characters. I feel so good seeing them in love.
Their love language brings shiver to my soul.
Their affectionate words, physical touch and how they express their extreme feelings. All that bond brings joy to my hopeless romantic ass.
I want to fall in love like that. I want to meet someone as nice and loving as him. I want to be respected like that. I want to feel special too.
And when heartbreaks come into the picture, I cry with the protagonist. Some may think that's too childish but that's just be. I am attached on other's romance.
BUT I WANT MINE TO BE MY OWN LOVE STORY.
Even when I get wishful thinking if what if I also experience the same plot like other written stories, I still want my own.
Why do they call it hopeless romantic when I get hopeful that my Eros love would be long-lived, passionate and hard to be broken?
And there's one last kind of love and the most powerful there is, **Agape- God's love to His creations.**
All I know is that this love is the reason why we are alive right now. It is unconditional, unbreakable and endless.
***This love should be the foundation of all the other types of love.***
The love to parents, friends, loved ones and special someone should be based on what we feel to God. If He is the center, I assure you that your bond will be as strong as your faith.
Before we crave on someone's love- we should first seek His love above all.
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my favorite family tradition is that when we all gather up during special occasions and eat delicious food together...
it's really hard these days to stay free of worries knowing that we are in a pandemic but that's why we have our free will. we get to decide what we get to focus our mind on.
the thing about roller coaster rides
112 seconds of being so terrified.
You'll hold your breath, hoping for it to end, you would lose yourself along the ride.
Tingling fear, eventually you will feel tired .
i seriously wish that laziness would stop possessing me.
the moon who masked the sun
There are 7.8 billion people in the whole world and Earth is just one of the eight planets in the Solar System.
These facts are too much to take in when you think that you are just a mere individual who tries to blend in with everyone. Your number is just a teeny tiny dot in the universe.
What do you do best to be known? What are your passions that make you stand out the crowd? If you don't have any, I supposed you live just about right to survive.
You are a shadow that will never live without someone ahead of you.
Like an eclipse, like a phenomenon where a shadow is created- YOU, whenever huge astronomical objects pass by the sun for a period of time.
It's kind of cool, right? To let anyone recognize you...
Until the show is over and you become an ordinary space object yet again.
You will have to wait again for that moment. A moment to be acknowledged with your existence by something that you do and lose it again after loving the feeling of it...
You loved the spotlight so you'll want it again and again.
But you can't because you know you are not good enough. That times like that only happens because of luck. Coincidence.
The space out there is mysterious. It is created to be unknown because its gigantic and too much to explore.
Weird. Strange. Like us...
We are all weird human beings.
And we are all wrong to doubt our existence. We are wrong to think so low of ourselves.
We are wrong because we are not space objects nor the moon who masked the sun.
We shine NOT because of the sun.
We don't shine by being a shadow. We don't have to use someone bright to be recognized because we can do that on our own.
We are as bright as the sun.
Our existence is not a mystery. It is all written in the Scripture.
GOD created us with loving and delicate hands. With unconditional love. With utmost adoration. With HIS PERFECT IMAGE.
That's the truth. Ask NASA for that and some may give you other theories but you have to believe the truth.
The moon creates tidal wave. It can destroy if it becomes too strong.
The moon is our fear, worries, doubt and lack of conviction on God's grace.
Even space objects create destruction if it goes inside the atmosphere. It creates damage for sure.
You're NOT an alien to crave for the light beam from the UFO.
Open your eyes and see how God gives you all the attention without asking too much in return. Just love Him with all you heart, mind and soul.
*Find out how you shine the coolest when you are being you. Like a universe ready to take over the world to honor our Creator.*
what do you want to do if you are in a bad mood? i prefer being left alone and being isolated because i feel like being cheered by others while being lonely would only make me feel worse.
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